December 31, 2009
I can't believe I finished watching Tokyo DOGS. D: And the finale is quite epic really. It's definitely one of the better dramas I've watched in the season. Though, I suppose it does help because I really did like the lead actress from her, who I knew from Shiroi Haru. :D haha, ikemen Oguri Shun and Muzushima Hiro add a lot to it too probably. ^^"

Sorry about that uberly depressing last post. If you were concerned about me, I'm sorry. ^^" I wasn't trying to make you guys worry. But, that just seemed to be what I was feeling at that point in time. And like I've said...I got over it a bit.

Ah, I also had no idea today was the 31st. So, yes, a look back at the year (I promise, a short one).
- time in Guelph
- big fights with a 'friend'
- travelling around Japan for 3 weeks
- getting a job for the summer, and somehow getting 'fired' from it
- getting an electric guitar
- continual pursuing of singing career XD
- diet?
- doing well in school
- making new friends, becoming a bit more social, and more talkative maybe?

I guess that pretty much sums up my year? XD It's okay, if you don't get them, I think it's probably more for me than anything. ^^" But all in all, even if there were a few break downs, I think this is actually one of the best years I've had with the best news I could receive. I mean, come on, going to Japan two years in a row is a blessing in itself. And news that I can get an internship in Edmonton for the summer when I return most likely? Thank you Sean Kelly! :D And so, I leave you with my favorite song of the year, which seems to be like my..."がんばります～！" song to myself. Fight-O!
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Posted at 10:05AM

December 30, 2009
I woke up before 6:30 this morning. I'm a little cranky...so. D: But yes, I woke up because my arm was in pure pain. Then again, that's been going on for a good....three days now. Usually, it takes a good week or two to heal and feel like nothing's wrong with it. But...it just hurts so much more this time than it did compared to last.

So, after a day out with one of my friends, I found out that my Facebook is obviously not secure enough. Because yes, even after an afternoon of crazily taking pictures of my friend - because it's almost like an inside joke between us two, Angela sees the bunch of pictures. I'd already blocked her from being able to see my wall. So, now I've blocked her from seeing my pictures as well. Why? Because she seriously told me, "Who's the guy? He's so skinny? New boyfriend?" What the hell? Honestly! Even if he was, I wouldn't tell her...and he's not anyways. D: Well, anyways, that's why we've been in a fight for so long I guess. She keeps putting her nose in places she shouldn't. My told me I shouldn't block her from everything, because it'll make everything suspicious. BUT honestly, I kind of want to right now.

I guess you can say I'm just a teensy bit depressed, due to my mom. But it should pass in a few days I guess. I mean, my dad made her apologize to me when he found out. Sure, I'm happy about that, but know she meant it...therefore, it still hurts...and I'll probably still go through with dieting. D:

And I guess with everything going on around me...and even though people keep telling me that "You're still young, there's no need to worry about stuff like that right now." But honestly...I'm not saying I'm desperate for a boyfriend. I'm just saying, that I guess there's a reason why am depressed. I'm glad everything's going my way in my education, and that I'm doing what I want to do. But why is it that I've still never had a boyfriend? It...depressing kinda. I'm not saying if it's normal or not...or whatever. And I know I shouldn't be changing myself for a guy. But maybe it can't be helped? And so I counted. 3 times yesterday I burst into tears in front of my parents.

So, I guess all in all, I'm reinforcing my "front" that I'm going to be single the rest of my life. That, or I'll be a single mother, and adopt. Yup. Maybe, I just really need some love right now. ^^" I'm more over it this morning...because I usually am after a 'good' night's sleep and then I wake up and realize I don't remember what happened yesterday. D: But yeah.
Posted at 7:04AM

December 29, 2009
This picture's a little late, but this was supposed to show a picture of all the stuff I ended up buying from Boxing Day. D: And I spent a good $230? at least. But it was worth it for the white coat, because I really needed a down coat for Hokkaido. D:


At the beginning of the promos, I really wasn't looking forward to Yamanade at all. And somehow, with more PR I'm getting more and more excited for it :D Maybe I'm an S D: I like seeing a mad, feisty Kame. XD And Tego-nyan is way too cute for words...which in some ways is really creepy...but seems to fit his current hair style extremely well. XD Like, if I saw him with his Tegomasu hairstyle back in the day when they returned from the NewS hiatus, then I would've never pictured him in this role, that's for sure. :D

In other news, I went to the doctor's today, and ended up being there for a good 30-40 minutes or so till everything was complete. The good news was that my doctor told me I skip the lab/shot stuff that I usually have to do every year. :D I'm happy~ XD Anywho, so, when I got back, I told my mom what my 'new' weight was, and generally, like she always does, pretty much told me I was fat because I was over what she is. Boo~ I hate you right now. D: So, apparently, I'm going to be going on diet again, starting today. *sigh*
Posted at 3:41PM

December 28, 2009
I'm stupidly still trying to download Music Station Super Live 2009 from bittorrent..and it's so slow because the total file size is like...almost 25 GB. D: Sadly, I'm only at about 62% because I left my computer on for the last two nights. XD But that's what I've realized, I love watching full episodes of Music Station...so I can't really help it. D: And Super Live had a lot of people that I actually listen to...

I've already started packing for Hokkaido, and I've realized that my suitcase isn't big enough for my stuff. D: I only want to carry one because I need to do a lot of crap with going from one airport to another...etc...and it's not convenient for me to bring so much. So, I stuffed another suitcase into my other suitcase, and that's probably why....I have like no room left D: *Sigh* Well...I'll have to figure something out...I haven't even put in the heavy stuff yet. XD Of course I'm extremely worried about the whole transferring from one airport to another. Anyone been to anywhere else in Japan...that knows how that works? So, if I transfer from Narita to Haneda, is there like a special airport bus service I can take to go to the other airport? Or is there like a special train maybe? Or do I have to go the long train route? D: I'm so lost.

What I've learned is that...even if I want to get a phone over there in Japan, the only way I'll get one, is if my friend that's going with me will help me because she has a work visa, or I ask someone from work for a huge favor. D: *sigh* But...I'm hoping I'll get a prepaid phone over there. I mean...just buying like phone cards from a conbini and then I can get a phone that looks just like this :D Though it's such a long process...I'm just hoping it'll work out.

And also, I spent the day with Ben at the mall. I'm amazed at the amount of time we spent there, and the amount of stuff he bought, but haha. It was fun nonetheless...and I learned that he's a really big impulse buyer. XD He honestly wouldn't even let me leave a store unless he bought me something in one too. D: Maybe it's a X'mas present then? *shrugz* And of course, we had fun taking pictures of each other again, so I could add to my facebook album of pictures of him that I started a few years back. XD So yes, I got Domo-kun~~

Posted at 5:57PM

December 27, 2009
Well, the day generally started out good. But, it only takes a holiday to remind me also why I don't like holidays...why I don't really like going home. I'm lucky enough to be in a family that's quite loving, and...etc...all the above. But, honestly, it's the holidays which make it so that I wonder why how it's all possible. Why, you ask? Well, like I said, I woke up early this morning...if..9:50-ish counts as early. By then, my parents had already left the house to go to church for Christmas service. And when they came back, they were already like what they seemingly are now.

What do I mean...well, my dad's pretty much enclosed himself in the basement to watch TV and clean up stuff down there. So in general, on this Christmas day, there's no interaction at all going on between my parents...which makes everything a bit awkward. Like, alone, they'll be normal with me, but when I'll start talking to my dad about what's going o between mom and him, then you realize, it's a touchy subject...and that something must've happened in the few hours they were gone. I mean, come on! It's Christmas! Even Kim's being abnormally normal and getting along with everyone unlike her usual moody self. D:

*sigh* But, that's what usually happens I guess...and it's not like I hate my family or anything...I just wish...at least for the holidays, they could learn to stop fighting over small things that'll probably patched up again in a few days. D: No need to make Christmas of all days to fight you know...D: But in the end with lots of pouting from me, I did get my dad to take the Christmas photo with the rest of the family...somewhat unwillingly I must admit. But, oh well.

Why do I say this...because yesterday - i.e. Boxing Day, we ended up waking up early, and arriving at Southgate just before 8. And yup...they were both back to normal again. I bought quite a bit though...for someone that didn't really get any X'mas presents except one. XD I bought a coat at Eddie Bauer, so that I could wear it in Hokkaido - because apparently, the one I have isn't warm enough for even here. D: And a scarf...jeans, and X'mas cards. :D And so, my mom finally let me buy a white coat, which also makes me happy, because the color suits me incredibly well~
Posted at 10:15AM

December 24, 2009
Ah~ To be honest, you know it's bad when...you look at a recent picture of your extended family, and see your aunt's brother's son in the picture and think...omg~! He's so cute!...that is cute in the hawt sense. XD It's not my fault he stands out in the picture either...I mean seriously, my cousin was getting married, and he didn't even look as amazing as the guy wearing the grey suit. XP My dad laughed at me when I told him that the guy looked cute, and that he actually could pass as one of those guys off my wall.

Apparently, I found out, that my final design project was graded extremely harshly. We got a 71.5 because the prof thought 'we could've done better', even after giving us such good feedback after the presentation. That's what I find retarded really. She's the one who was telling how much she liked out ideas...etc. And when my friend emails her, she tells us, she doesn't like them? What the hell? Honestly?!

Anywho, I was watching the Late Show a few nights ago with my dad and it was quite funny actually. So, there was this segment of the 'Top Ten Christmas Carols'. Here's a few that stuck out, because I couldn't stop laughing:
♥ Frosty the Snowman, Had a Carrot on His Face, Til Some Young Punks Relocated It, To a Very Naughty Place
♥ Deck the Halls with Junk Made in China, Fa La La La La Our Country's Screwed

I guess in some parts of the world, it's already Christmas, so before I forget, "MERRY CHRISTMAS~~!!!" :D Hope you have a good holiday.
Posted at 12:11PM

December 23, 2009
I've been really tired lately. D: I can't blame it on the fact that I've been sleeping late either, because I've been sleeping in till at least 10-ish too. My mom thinks its because of that H1N1 shot I took last week...but, the aftermath symptoms should've been gone by now, I think. D: Anywho, so yes, I'm tired D: And to most people, they find that normal anyways though...because I always say I'm tired. I don't know...it's really...doesn't seem like it's something that 'should' be normal. That and...probably I'm starting to get sick again I think. D: *sigh* That's what I get for trying to catch a bus from MacEwan all the way to Gateway. D:

Wow, and to think, I've been home for about 2 weeks already, and I honestly haven't done much at all. XD It's already the 23rd. My dad stayed at home today too...and left early morning with my sister. D: And I didn't even realize they left till I woke up this morning and realized no one was around. D: I was supposed to go out with them so I could get my number changed to an Edmonton number. Booo~~ >.<"

On the other hand, man~! Tomorrow's X'mas Eve~! And that makes Friday X'mas! OMG! I hadn't realized the dates at all. How fast holidays come when you do absolutely nothing... D:

And yay~ the results are out~ Finally!!
Landscape Construction II: 82
Professional Practice: 83
Landscape Architecture II: 77
Intro Mandarin: 91
Independent Study: 75

Boo...it only means, that my advisor for my independent study is a total prick D: And I already knew that beforehand. I mean what's the deal with giving me a mark anyways, if you say there's a presentation to be done next semester? Well, obviously, that's going to be non-existent if you've already officialized a mark XP But, I've done what I've set out to achieve, which is getting an 80+ average for the semester~ :D And...the Chinese totally helped. XD
Posted at 10:35PM

December 22, 2009
So today is Linh's birthday~!!! 「お誕生日おめでとう～～～！！！」　I hope, you can still read that. D: If not, it just says 'Happy Birthday~' XD And now you're old like me. haha Hopefully, you were doing something fun today, and not just sitting around at work. And hopefully, you're not getting yelled at because of your ukulele playing at home. Nope, I don't think you're bad at all. My parents are used to my awful playing of anything...because they've had to listent to me playing piano for years~ And that being the case, me playing the guitar at home is not really any different. Though, my dad always wishes that I play songs faster rather than random notes though. ^^"

So, today was mostly spent going to Karaoke. My first time at karaoke - Laser~ :D So, I went with my neighbors, which are actually, some of my only friends left in Edmonton D: But anyways, we ended up taking the bus there, and arriving right before 3, so the place hadn't even opened yet D: Either way, we stayed till 8 for happy hour, and it was only $13~?! I was somewhat amazed actually. XD So, even with my total fail of singing, and not being able to read the characters fast enough, it was quite fun. :D

Oh yes, and then when Andrew was dropping us back home, I think I left my mittens in his car. Booo~ D: So, Silu says she'll ask him about it on Thursday when she sees him.
Posted at 9:14PM

December 20, 2009
Ah, so last I updated, Linh came over, and we pretty much spent most of the time jamming with guitar and ukulele. XD Oh yes, and tuning the ukulele lots and lots. ^^" But man, so awesome-filled~~ I feel like I learned lots too. :D

Today was spent firstly at church, because I was really tired from the night before, I ended up going to only Cantonese service, and not English service, so I missed out on seeing Ben. XD Gomen~ I was lazy. So, I got my dad drive my sister and I back home, and I fell asleep not long after. And around 2:30 I woke up, when my parents came home. So, I spent the rest of the time in my room till my sister's boyfriend came over for dinner. And, after I'd finished sleeping, my dad ended up dropping onto my bed and sleeping till her boyfriend came over too. XD So, at the end of the day, it was an interesting evening I guess. Nothing incredibly amazing happened anyways. It was awkward at times, because no one seemed to know what to say. D: But, whatever. I'm just glad, it wasn't my boyfriend (that is, if I had one).

I remember when I kept talking about how I was in a love/hate relationship with Kame and Kamiji Yusuke. D: I feel the same with Kanjani8 actually. I love them to be extremely honest. But what I've realized, is that I hate Subaru and Yasuda's voices every once in a while...very frequently. That being the case, I can't bring myself to like their new leaked single. Gomen~ DX On the other hand, I overlooked one song by them called "Brulee which I'm absolutely loving~!!!
Posted at 10:48PM

December 17, 2009
After the craziness of the morning - i.e. my parents constantly calling the house and me not picking up...I finally picked up around 10:30, to have my dad tell me that my mom scheduled me an appointment to get that H1N1 shot at 2:15. One thing I hate most, is extreme last-minute-ness. D: If only there was such a word for it that I knew. XD Anywho, me and Kim ended up walking to Save-On around 1:50, and meeting mom there to all get the shot together. D: I'm fine, just slightly in pain..if any I suppose. It was only the first few minutes. And somehow, I doubt anything serious would've happened if I didn't have the shot in the first place...and getting it, doesn't feel like I'm guaranteed immunity or what not anyways. Whatever... *sigh* But after...is really when it starts freakin' hurting. D:

I broke my necklace the other day too. D: Bad things...small things, but bad things nonetheless keep happening to me. Perhaps, I'm just klutzy, and so these things happen. But, that was the only long necklace I had. I ended up going to West Ed tonight, and going straight to the Ardene's~ :D Ended up buying necklaces and using parts of one to substitute the broken one. XD And now, I'm not all too sad anymore.

So, yes, the one on the 'chain' is the new one, and the old one is sitting in the plastic next to the earring that's misses being a pair~ D:
Posted at 9:12PM

December 16, 2009
I've apparently, started to come into a love/hate relationship with Kame, as well as Kamiji Yusuke. Kamiji Yusuke, for those who don't know, is a comedian who takes (took?) part in "Quiz Hexagon", and Shuujishin. I absolutely loved his song "Himawari" though the lyrics had no...point? XD On the other hand, I just listened to his new album, and I only liked two songs~ *SHOCK~~!!* "Hane"'s the other one, which previously was sung by him on Music Station. It's not my fault, that his voice actually gets really squeaky. D: And he's a total baka~ D: But, he's interesting to listen to. I wanted to talk about Kame too. D: But...that'd drive me more crazy I think. haha.

These pictures are long overdue...D: My new guitar and amp~ I really need to find a guitar stand though...


I had takoyaki for lunch. XD I was just amazed with my sauce spreading skills :D


I was invited for karaoke on Tuesday...I've never been to karaoke, so it'll be interesting. And of course, it depends a lot on who goes I think. D: Though I doubt Silu would dump me with a whole buncha people I don't know...so it should be okay. ^^"
Posted at 10:53PM

December 14, 2009
Sadly, after the second or third dvd I tried burning with my external dvd burner burned...well, it decided to become possessed. D: Like, the part where the disc comes out just won't officially come out or go in. And when plugged in, it'll just seem possessed, and keep going in and out like less than an inch. D: So, even if I wanted to put in a disc, I'd have to pull it out or push it in. And, in the end, we're gonna go see if my dad's friend can fix it. And if not..bye-bye external dvd burner. D: I know it's not really necessary for me to have one anymore, but it did so much, and I really liked it D:

What can I say..I've honestly been insanely bored. And it hasn't even been a week since I've been back yet. I guess there's nothing wrong with that...that's usually what happens when I'm on break. But...this year, it just feels...different. I feel like something's missing that used to be there...like an uneasy feeling that just won't go away. Usually, I only have that when I come back, but it's been longer than usual that the feeling's still around, so I'm a little worried. I'm sure it'll pass.

I guess I haven't mentioned..I thought I did. Anyways...yes. Most of Saturday was spent cooking with my mom in the kitchen all day. First, I helped make pineapple cheesecake. Contrary to the name, yes, very tasty. I say that because I hate pineapple...but with the amount I cut in...and the way it's cut in, I'll eat it. :D Secondly, because people were coming over on Sunday afternoon for bible study and dinner, I had to help mom make salad and special rice. Apparently, I'm extremely good with a knife~ XD

Posted at 10:41PM

December 11, 2009
Ah~ So after my dad arrived at my res, we packed all my stuff that was to be brought to my aunt's place into the car, and then drove off to get dinner for my dad. I'd actually bought him food before hand, but he didn't want it. XD Booo~ Anyways, afterwards, Aisha and PJ came over and hung out for a few hours. Literally, even with my nearly empty room, we sat around and just talked, and it was fun. :D It's sad to think I won't see them for another 8 months. D: But I'm sure we'll work something out. And, we'll be very happy and more experienced come September. ^^"

So, I woke up early, and gave everything to my dad so that we'd have everything ready right after my exam at 11:30. I ended up finishing my exam around 12:20, leaving, and finding my dad sitting in the parking lot waiting for me. So, we left for Hamilton airport, and got there extremely early. We ended up sitting ther til about 6, and even the flight was delayed. D: But, we finally arrived to Edmonton safely. :D

But...yes, it's been forever since I last updated...but there's nothing much to say during that time. Mostly it was spent unpacking, playing with my DS, and burning dvds. On the other hand, I did have an amazing day today, and bought an electric guitar. :D A Fender Squier...though, no telecaster like the one I wanted. But, that's okay. It was way cheaper, and the amp that it came with was a definite plus~
Posted at 11:43PM

December 7, 2009
And like I said, sometimes I tend to over think things. So my prof didn't give me a job for the summer. But because I did mention about finding something for the summer, he did recommend me a place in Edmonton come spring who he said "I'd be perfect for". So, I'm glad. :D He became my reference, and will write a reference letter for me. ^^" haha, he even said that firm would probably need people during that time due to people on maternity leave and moving. So, yes, now I need to do well on my internship, and rework my portfolio...and I should be good for summer. XD As long as I'm not jobless, I'll be happy actually.

So, what next...today's Monday :D Good sides and bad sides to that I suppose. It's snowing outside, just not really sticking. I got a call this morning at 12:44am from my dad saying he's probably going to switch the flights, meaning he'll come tonight to help me move stuff instead. I'm like, okay then...that's fine. I'll get ready. Then, I talk to him this morning, and so apparently, that also means, I'm leaving tomorrow afternoon right after my exam so we can go to Hamilton aiport and make it in time for our flight back home D: He changed that flight too, apparently. Sure, it's not that I mind going home a day earlier. It's just such a hassle when it's so sudden, and some of your stuff hasn't been packed yet. I'm just lucky...I'm pretty much packed with everything...But honestly, I don't even know what time he's coming. D:

I studied the rest of my Chinese material, that I didn't know this morning, and went out to studio to hand stuff in, give stuff back, etc. I was supposed to meet PJ and Aisha after my exam to hang out for a bit, and that's not a possibility anymore. D: So, *shrugz* I'm not sure what's going to happen...but it's only 6 months...I'm not too worried. But a lot of other people are apparently. ^^" I bought take-out for my dad too, which is already sitting in the fridge for him tonight. *sigh* He gets fish and chips, and I get a cheese crossaint. XD But...that's okay...I just realized...how creepy it is sitting in my room...in the only corner of my room with stuff that hasn't been packed yet. :/
Posted at 2:29PM

December 4, 2009
I just realized, I was the reason I got a 'plus' for my construction project when we were doing presentations the other day. It was totally random...I was watching KAT-TUN debut videos, and then randomly I thought..."wait a minute, I was the one who said to add the context map!" I remember it now, I told the guy in my group who was supposed to make the presentation board, that we should add a context map on the page. And I think he assumed I'd meant the presentation board, when I'd meant the title page! But, how amazing is it when misunderstandings can be transformed into such great coincidences! :D I haven't posted a picture in a really long time...from what I remember anyways, so here's what I'm talking about (even though I don't think it's unbelievably amazing or anything...it's just pure obvious, we didn't do it last minute.)


Today, I woke up early...thinking it was Saturday. D: Honestly, I've just been wanting to do my laundry, which I planned to do on Saturday. I'm running out of clothes...and just want to be able to pack my clothes. XD I actually have 5 days to study for my Chinese final...and 5 days till I get to see my dad, 6 days till I get to go back home~ I'm actually, extremely excited!

It's so weird when you think back on things. A few years back, I would've never pictured me as a student looking forward to being a landscape architect. At times, I still don't want to...but I think it was all the negative feedback I was getting...and how badly I was doing my first two years of university. With everything getting better, maybe with more of my mature outlook on life, even if I don't look mature...I feel like I'm doing what I like to do. I'm enjoying drawing more and more now...because of the positive feedback.

So, if it wasn't for this year, I don't know if I would've dropped out or not and switched programs..and perhaps even universities. D: On one hand, I'm still loving music, and still want to sing and write music the rest of my life, as I've always wanted to since I was a kid. But, maybe I need to be more practical again? But, who says, one won't have the time to do both? Or at least, that's what I'm hoping. LA's have winters as slow seasons anyways, right? XD

I ended up having lunch with Jessie, before she went back home. D: Guess what? We saw the first snow in Guelph together. ^^" I don't know, I think that's cool.
Posted at 10:11PM

December 3, 2009
I had never realized there was such a thing as people who would ring doorbells in res asking for charity money. D: It's fine if it's a charity, and sure I'd give them money. If only the guy hadn't been so sketch about it...like, calling me princess, and miss? It's creepy~ D: So, I just seemed interested for a few minutes, and told him I didn't want to give money anymore. D: I should've just slammed the door and locked it quickly.

I've finished my Mandarin Oral~ :D Ours was nice and short, and straight to the point, while others were long-winded and not coherent. But, all in all, it's all done! Okay...so I still have that Mandarin Final...but pffhh...it should be fine. ^^" I'll start studying tomorrow, I guess. Or, maybe I'll break tomorrow, and end up studying...starting Saturday. It's not till Tuesday...and...well, there's just a ton of time. ^^"

I found this funny. Maybe weird? I don't know. So, this is what happened. This morning, I went to meet up with Jessie and Anitha for breakfast, and we'd run into Mal on the way to the LA building to finish up our construction projects. So, I said my final 'goodbye's to her, and had to cut all the papers down to the right size...because apparently, we don't know how to cut the right size. D: Anyways, after all the hassle, I was finally done, with my prject all binded, rolled, and stamped. I asked Diana if she could let me into Sean's office again to put my project in there, which she

Afterwards, I sent him an email telling him that I'd put it on his desk, and asked him to email me back when he saw it. So, yes. Late afternoon, I get an email back from him saying, "Thanks Katherine. I've been all around all day. What're you doing for the summer?" So, I answered him back. But, I'm curious to know why he asked in the first place. And if he's thinking of offering me an internship at his firm for the summer, I'd so take it!! D: Even though it's in the middle of nowhere in Elora. D: I dunno...it could be a fun experience I guess if that was the case. ^^" But I tend to over think things...so I'm not gonna say anything...
Posted at 8:27PM

December 2, 2009
I can honestly say, life is interesting. Though, I feel like...people later, are going to be like, "what's with that girl Kat anyways...? She keeps being called out by name in class!" XD And so, here starts my story. I went to the LA building today to meet up with Mal, and we pretty much printed all our plans out to figure out what was wrong with them, and didn't finish with all the problems we had to fix before class. But, we made it to the door of our classroom, just in time for my prof that was sick the previous day, to open the door for us. So, I asked him how he was, etc. D: I was curious, rather than trying to be brown-noser. D:

And so, me and Mal sat down being like the first ones in the classroom. He said that everyone should just start pinning up their plans, so I went to go pin up my plan with PJ's help, and maybe he saw me acting like a fool trying to put it up, I don't know...or maybe I just talk really loud D: But I was talking to the other people in the class too, about how on the schedule it said that out presentation was supposed to be 10 minutes long, and I was shocked...this face included: O_o", and I saw him pass me by. XD

And so, finally, it got to our presentation, and Mal did a blurb, and Riley did a short blurb...and I kinda just talked randomly about aesthetically pleasing views because I didn't know what else to say. But, apparently, he was impressed. At the end of the presentation, he wanted to critique the class as a whole about our construction drawings to design drawing presentations. Pretty much, he talked about how in general, all the plans and ideas were alike, yet different in their own ways. He also said, "And I quite liked the one that incorporated the context map into the design, Kat's group." XD Oh man~ honestly, profs need to stop doing this to me, cuz I'm not doing this purposely. But I'm glad I'm doing well in his class right now...and things are looking good. I just know, it means that in the near future, if I can't find a job, I can ask him for one. XD

So, after all the presentations, we had problems with our printing again. We ended up printing all the stuff we could, and just stopping, because we were getting frustrated, since it was just me and Mal. D: Anitha came in and asked Mal what it was like working with me. XD And of course, I just laughed. But Mal said only good things, so it's good~ :D Anyways, Mal was going to fix the problems herself...or she said she wanted to do them at home anyways. And I went to eat dinner with Jessie. Afterwards, I went back home, and fixed up the layout to be good for printing finally, because we had pdf-ing/title-block-ing issues beforehand. I had to literally create a new sheet, and just copy everything into it in order for it all to work. But, all in good timing I think, because she told me she'd been working at it for a bit of time, still was having problems with it, and I'd cut the hassle for her because it was now done. :D

So, in general, we got most of what we wanted to get done...and now we just need to hand in...print a bit more, and..wa~lah~!! :D I think I'll be good tomorrow, once it's handed in, even if I have a Mandarin oral tomorrow too. D: But my lines are nice, short, and easy, so I'm not stressing one bit. ^^"
Posted at 7:41PM

December 1, 2009
Perhaps, I was the only one that easily guessed that LANDS would come out with an album as well. D: If they didn't make an album out of it, it'd be such a loss of money for them. XD...they'd make such a killing, ne? ^^" I guess things well, because they have other songs in the previews, so they're bound to make some sorta soundtrack or something anyways where those songs will appear. So, I have a beef with fangirls who go crazy on these facts that seem purely obvious to me, where there is no need to go crazy and kyaaa~! D:

YES!　I totally aced through my construction final, which I'm very happy about.　My prof even ended up giving us an hour, to finish a quiz that was three pages long. But honestly, no one needed that 60 minutes. Half the questions on the final, were on the previous midterm D:　So easy!!　And so...I finished in like...15 minutes. XD　and so for once, I think I did well on a Sean Kelly exam~　:D　But yes, that's why I love my construction prof, he ish awesome~

On the other hand, I did...alright on my pro practice final. Not amazing, but not horribly bad either. I'm just glad I'm getting at least an 80 in the class. But aside from the whole two finals down, one more to go...my construction project is going well and we'll even print tomorrow and it's not due till Friday. I've been packing a lot - over and over again that is, with my nervousness. But, it's been a good thing too. So lastly, I just need to worry about my Chinese final.

I'm rewatching Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge, because I have free time again. XD But I admit...I did really like that series, and I feel like a Kame-hater, but him as Kyouhei...is totally..still not matching up at all. D: On the other hand, I think all the other actors they picked seem to fit alright though. ^^" Ah~! And over the break, I'm going to watch Neon Genesis Evangelion. I just really like the theme song...haha and never had the chance to actually watch the series. "It's classic" is what I keep hearing. But...I don't know. We'll see. :D
Posted at 10:40PM

November 30, 2009
And to think it's nearly December, and there hasn't been snow yet. O_o" That's really been amazing actually...Apparently, cities around us have been getting snow too, just not us. We keep getting crappy rain. But of course, I'll be happy with rain, it's better than snow when my dad comes to help me drive and move my stuff. D:

But of course, problems always arise when there are deadlines coming closer and closer. Honestly, stupid people. D: If you ask questions one day, and tell me to send something to you, then I do it. You don't ask again for someone to send it to you again a day later, when someone's already sent it to you, and you've probably just not opened the freakin' email. D: People, check your emails! D: I realize that I'm an email freak, and I'm on my computer almost 24/7 when I'm home. XD I check all the time because I have nothing else to do...D: And so, that results in me blogging because I have nothing to do...and therefore, I blog about people who annoy me. D: So, let's stop annoying Kat! That way, she can talk about stuff that isn't boring. Okay, that's enough of Kat's ranting for a day...D: No, this isn't the end. XD Just about emails, it is. ^^"

I finished writing my Christmas cards~~~!!! Well, for the people in Guelph anyways. XD XD I even prettily decorated the envelopes like the ones I do for my penpals. XD I was so excited. On the other hand, I feel like...I'm forgetting people again, and I don't know. I just feel like I'll be guilty later. XD Either way, I ran out of cards, so there's nothing I can do about it. D:

So, yes! News of a new drama~! Nadeshiko Shichi Henge, aka "The Wallflower". I remember this actually. It was all the rage back when I was crazed in animanga too...not that I'm not now, just not as much as before. And, yes, it was an awesome animanga, that I'd never had imagined would possibly be able to be made into a drama. But...I don't know, I found the series so out there back then, especially with how the girl is portrayed, so I'm sure it'll be interesting to see how it all plays out in the end. :D

But what can I say...with the Winter dramas already being slowly revealed, I'm getting excited again. I realized that a lot of the time, once it nears the middle/end of a drama season, I tend to look forward to the next one, because I slowly get bored of the current one. D: Like...Liar Game 2 is making me bored again...as how I remembered the first season of Liar Game to be. I think it's just that the episodes go so slow, and it takes up two episodes to just finish one game.

Of course, I'm looking forward to Code Blue 2...there's no reason why I wouldn't. I only raved good things about the first season after all. ^^" Nakanai to Kimeta hi sounds interesting as well...but mostly the idea of Eikura Nana and Kaname Jun in the same drama thrill me. :D Seems to take up Liar Game 2's spot once that ends too. I should be excited with Bloody Monday 2 too...but even the first season didn't thrill me all that much either. D: I just happened to like Mirua Haruma and stuck through it because of him. XD Hidarime Tantei EYE seems like it'll be a good drama too...at least, basing this on the SP drama that I saw, though probably predictable.

What else...I guess it's bad that I already got bored with 0 Goshitsu no Kyaku. D: I think it had a lot to do with Ohno being the first character, and his character just annoying me...that and I can't seem to make myself like his acting at all...ever. D: I still haven't been able to finish Maou. GOMEN NASAI!!! Then, there's also Tokujo Kabachi!! which sounds like...a somewhat boring drama, but I like Maki-chan's acting...:/ And Sho's acting in The Quiz Show 2 wasn't horrible...nor amazing. D:

So, what's the total there...like 7-8 dramas? And oh man...there's so many Johnny's acting now. D: It's scary! They're all gonna be rivaled...5 days of the week~ XD But yes, the main two I'm definitely looking forward to, are Code Blue 2 and Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge. :D And yes, this is a pure coincidence that they're Kame & Pi dramas~ XD
Posted at 12:16AM

November 29, 2009
Ah~ What to say...nothing really. XD It's just getting closer and closer to the end...of school anyways. :D I'm still loving "Soukon"~ Even though all they're doing is running. It's just getting quite interesting nonetheless. The show's almost making me want to run more myself. XD But, yeah, once I go home for December...I'm totally working out at home every day, cuz I never have time during the school year, and it's horrible. DX Did you know a potato chip is 6cal and you need to run 100m in order to get that off? How is tofu 27kcal!? XD And then...Massu keeps telling his theories behind the different foods. :D

Saturday and Sunday were spent in the library studying Because of the two finals, I planned to study with Anitha in the library all of Saturday...and it ended up being both so we could finish the case study as well. XD It was quite funny though, I was explaining to my friend most likely what would be happening on Tuesday for design class, and I was imitating my profs. XD And then, she just laughed at me and told me I was dramatic. haha, Apparently people believe I could be an actor :D And that makes me happy yo~

But yes, apparently, Angela found me in the library, and walked over to my table with Vince, and told me she messaged me on MSN trying to tell me how well I did on my design project. D: That's total BS! Why didn't she tell that to Anitha too then?! She was freakin' sitting right next to me, and she totally ignored her. D:

Anyways, apparently, there's a baby shower for Vanessa in the coming week. And my schedule's so tight making me not want to go. That, and Angela is trying to take a leading role to buy ice cream cake. All I can say is go ahead you guys. Have fun. If Angela's there, I won't be able to celebrate anyways. I'll find a way to get Vanessa her present from me, and that's the best I can do, even if Vanessa is one of my really good friends. She should know that...I won't show up with good intentions at least. :/
Posted at 6:30PM

November 27, 2009
I honestly just have to keep thinking to myself, in order to stay positive, that there's only 12 days left. And that's technically what..1 week and 5 days till I'm done with exams? And I get to see my dad~ :D Who also, is bringing my DS. XD

I'm glad. We've officially finished our Design class...though I think we probably still have class on Tuesday. To talk about what, I don't know....we had our final projects handed in today, and our presentations today. So? I'm assuming, there's no class, or they're just going to be like..."We were so glad to have you guys in our class. And we've seen you guys grow through the semester, as people and through your work." Because, they BS like that a lot anyways. XD

So...next week is the handing in of my NYC Case Study, and then my construction presentation and hand in for the final project. Then, there's also the Chinese final oral exam~ which in general, I'm not all too worried about...because all I need to do is memorize a script. And that should be the only thing I need to study starting Tuesday ^^" Yay~ It's like Japanese class skits all over again. XD Honestly, I remember my skit from first year...the first one I ever did for Japanese class. And I think...we were just reading from the book anyways...and I'd brought home-made sushi in a container that day. In the end, we ended up doing the skit, and no one even realizing there was real sushi in there..except for my group members~ XD

Last time I went to see my pro practice prof in person in her office, was the time of our midterm quiz. And, she didn't seem all that happy to see me asking about what was on the quiz. I had just wanted to make sure after all...And so this time around, I emailed her to ask what chapters the final quiz would be on, and though it took her so long to reply, she seemed impressed that I asked her? I was slightly confused, but reading it over, she was like "thanks for asking." So, it was weird at the same time. I just think it might be because she thinks I'm a keener now, because I stayed during the break last class, and I got a good mark on my final project for her class.
Posted at 12:07AM

November 24, 2009
I finally got a chance to watch April Bride aka Yomei Ikkagetsu no Hanayome, which is the new one with Eito and Eikura Nana. D: Such a sad movie by the way. D: But it moves quite fast...compared to how I thought it'd be, and it's definitely a lot more sadder than I'd thought it would be. XD But it was interesting nonetheless.

So, yesterday night I'd decided to go to ACF. In the end, I ended up leaving really early, because I got a text from Anitha saying she'd printed the black & white copies of our design project on 11x17, where I had assumed it should be what the boards are, 24x36. D: So, I practically ran out of ACF during bible study, in order to meet up with Anitha in LA. And that's when we found out there isn't really a huge need for us to have to worry about printing out the B&W copies. D: So....*sigh* lots of worrying for nothing, ne? But we did get it reprinted, and the guy who printed for us the first time, seemed to have felt bad for us, and since we reprinted two boards, he made us pay only $34 this time around~ :D Yes, it was awesome!

I just found it weird that when I arrived at my pro practice class today, my prof came over to me and asked me what my nae was. XD Most people..well, their first impression would be, 'what did I do wrong?' But in this case, it seems it was a 'you did something right'. So yes, apparently, we did extremely well on our pro practice project. (Which was writing up a report on the interviews we went to, and relating it to trends in the LA profession that we see currently.) Good came out of all that torture, I guess. 92~~ :D
Posted at 6:37PM

November 23, 2009
I can honestly say, things are going well again. :D I got a bursary from the school, and a travel grant. and now it's a matter of figuring out how much that actually is...ah~ never mind. seems...my tuition for next semester is $1253, and somehow, my school's giving me $4000 ($500 back for my res deposit, $1500 for my bursary, and $2000 for my travel grant)? And so...yay~ :D That means, I get a good...$2750 back in my pocket for Japan, I think. :D

This week is going to get busy again, with only two weeks left of school, which will definitely feel like one by the end of the week. It's only like that because my finals start next week, even though the official 'week of finals' doesn't start till the week after. D: I still find it amusing, that people in ACF are always so surprised as to the reason why I always get to leave for holidays so much earlier than them. I plan it that way, after all..to leave earlier I mean. Ah~ But to think, ne? 2 weeks and 2 days left till I get to go home~

I've been trying to replan for my trip Japan once again. That is everything from staying a weekend in Sapporo for the Sapporo Snow Festival, and all the train scheduling and what not for when I travel in Tokyo for a few days. And so from what I know, I'm going to be leaving Edmonton Jan.6th, and arriving in Hokkaido the night of the 7th. Then, hopefully on the night of Feb 5th, I'll go to Sapporo, and return back to Otofuke on the morning of the 7th. March 27th, I'll have a flight to Tokyo, where I'll stay till the 1st, where I fly off to HK and meet up with my parents. :D Though apparently, because of the way I'm booking my flights, I have to fly back home by myself...the long way. D: That is, flying from Tokyo to HK, and HK back to Tokyo, and from Tokyo to Edmonton. D: My parents will be home before me. ^^" But I'm told, it's cheaper this way?

I'm not trying to be ungrateful or anything, or say there's no need for it, but why do people (I know, that are Chinese) keep saying they want to go do missions in China? I mean, I don't care that's it's illegal to preach or anything, but it's almost like everyone I know keeps thinking, "Yes! I want to go do missions in China!" D: Can't you people pick a new country? There's more than one country in the world that needs preaching to anyways. And just staying in a more comfortable zone because you'd be able to blend in, is not exactly the reason you go to a place. Surely, that isn't the only reason why people pick a place...but, I don't know. Maybe I'm throwing things outta proportion.
Posted at 10:33AM

November 21, 2009
I'm proud of them, so I wanted to show off the result of the all-nighter:


Apparently, my sister's boyfriend was over tonight, and I was denied being able to see him. D: On the other hand, maybe he shouldn't see me? Would I drive him away? I doubt that. But my sister's being extremely off-ish to me besides for asking me for a glue gun, and me telling her where it is, but her not even going into my room to find it. What the hell? I had to tell my dad again, who went to go find it, in order for them to have it. D: So yeah, my sister and her boyfriend are going to a masquerade and they're making masks tonight. XD
Posted at 10:22PM

November 20, 2009
I feel like I haven't been around the past few days. And honestly, I haven't. I've practically been living in studio. D: Why we ask? XD Well, we found cheaper printing services in the Science Complex, and the guy that would do the printing practically told us on Tuesday that there was no guarantee that he'd be there on Monday to print. So, of course, we didn't want to have an all-nighter. But, that's really what ended up happening. Did I mention that NC Pestills prints 24x36 on foam core for about $100 a board? And so we spent about $125 on printing us three together because one poster printed out looking a bit screwed up.

In general, all-nighters are something I don't like to do, but we did it. We're done. And the project's not really due till next Thursday in good copy. So, when people from the night before in studio, saw us still there in the early morning, still wearing the same clothes, they couldn't believe that we did an all-nighter because we were so ahead anyways. No, Kat isn't evol. Kat just likes cheap but good quality printing. :D That and I wasn't the one who suggested it. Anitha did, and it did come out really well...so when it slowly printed out, we were amazed.

But yeah, even with the lack of sleep we did everything in a very well-timed manner. And it's just so cool how things between us three go so well. Even if we're sitting there getting frustrated with each other, a bit later, we get back to doing something else. XD At the same time it was a Thursday night, which generally means, that people in studio don't stay in studio for long. That, or they actually get drunk in studio. So, we had this guy from our class bugging us for a while.

And so, I'd say I'm still pretty sleep-deprived...we finished printing everything at around 11 this morning, and ended up being zombies this morning when people saw us this morning. Um...I think all three of us blew our tops a few times throughout the night. XD After printing, we went back to studio, or back home. And I was wide awake back then. We decided a few hours later, we'd go to the craft going on in the UC. So, all I really remember is hanging out for a bit more, eating a bit of fudge, and then going back home. From there, I've slept till now, and I think even then, it's only been two or three hours. But like I said, we made it through, and now we're ahead again. Even if we're insanely ahead...we still have other stuff to do now. D: Now to do the other final projects..
Posted at 6:36AM

November 19, 2009
It's weird how things happen. I just heard that one of my friends some how broke up with her boyfriend after so long~~ Some times I wonder how things like that happen. Like you're in a relationship with someone for 5 years, and you have struggles, like having to worry about distance, and university...and in the midst of all that all of a sudden...yeah, well, that was interesting to hear.

I'm proud of myself...because I can say, I can do stuff like this (showing topography on a page) on Photoshop now:

Can you believe it? It's my first time using Photoshop? XD Well, if you look at the picture closely enough, I'd believe it. haha

It's been so long, but because I've been rushing this design project to get it printed out on Friday, I haven't had much time to update. GOMEN NASAI~~! But in general, things have been hectic...I've been getting hooked on Ice Caps from Tim Horton's...and in general a lack of sleep. On the other hand, though I'm extremely busy with my projects, I have been learning lots, like learning to use markers better, and knowing how to actually use photoshop. :D It'll be worth it in the end, the whole rushing for Friday, when we get three nicely created boards for about $100, compared to other people seemingly getting them for crazy money. D:

And so, that's all for now. I'll upload pictures of my final design project once it's complete~ :D And I'll update better once I fully am not so busy anymore...which hopefully will be next week.
Posted at 12:35AM

November 16, 2009
Apparently, Lim-family women are extremely blunt and "strong". Or, that's what I'm told. I'm not all to sure of the meaning to that. But we're straight-forward. XD I was told that I've matured when I speak to people, and I'm not as afraid to say 'no' to people anymore. That or maybe they're getting that from me just starting to talk too much. D:

Though on the other hand, I feel like I'm blatantly lying to people, and telling them I've been working all the time. D: I just want some 'me' time. So, what do I mean? I've been avoiding people outta school because I want time to myself....where I can be more 'emo' by myself, and just chill? Don't you think...sometimes, that just being able to walk around aimlessly by yourself, is a lot more relaxing than having to walk with people you know, and make conversation. I'm not saying it's forced if you do the latter. I'd just rather do it by myself if I'm stressed.

Which leads me into talking about You're Beautiful, which is a Korean dramas about this nun, who ends up having to pretend to be her twin brother and join a band call A.N.JELL I think? :D It's extreme <3!! I honestly spent a good few hours just chilling on Saturday (even though I had to work in between) and watched all episodes up to 10 >.<" It wasn't a waste of time though...because I hadn't done that for a while. AH~ I usually don't like Korean dramas, because they're so much more cheesier than Japanese ones. But, this one makes the exception for me, because I absolutely <3 the cheesiness~ :D
Posted at 10:28AM

November 13, 2009
Hmm...I've been busy again, and taking random break during the day don't really count as a real break. But, that's all I've been really able to get. I did find out that a ton of my friends have xanga. But, no. That doesn't mean I'm going to go back to using xanga...honestly, back during the time when I practically used everything...xanga was almost #1 on most annoying blog. D: And, I don't understand why so many asians have it. I've realized also, that I'm not someone who would be able to 24/7 think about God. I don't think I'm a person who can even write about God in my blog continually. Cuz, as for the blogs I've read from fellow people I know, that's all they do. D: I can't say...that's bad. I'm just saying, I'd rather hear something else. Why? Because I find a blog to be something where you can let out things you can't tell other people. It's not something that's there for show.

In the same way, though I should be happy about churches, and what not. But honestly, church hierarchy's retarded. Elders are retarded. What are they for, if they're so uh, what's the word...I don't know, being hypocritical and using their supposed "powers" for something that just isn't right? *sigh* Well, apparently, my dad said something in the church to the new pastor, because the guy'd said something wrong about a passage in the bible, and wa-lah~!! He got a whole buncha people and elders calling him, telling my dad to just give up on what he'd said (even though, it was right and the pastor was wrong). People in general aren't good with people saying things outright and bluntly, even though extremely truthful. And so, well...what to say. It seems we've switched churches once again. Now, my parents go to SEAC (South East Alliance Church) that my sister's boyfriend goes to, and Ben goes to. XD It's weird if I mention him, I haven't really heard from him in ages. But I find that situations like this just proves things aren't eternal. I'm not complaining though...I didn't really like my old church either. D:

And so, I was stressing the past few days, because our grading plan was due (which is the second part of the AutoCAD construction project) on Friday. Well, things were good up till maybe Monday, when I knew for sure, the girl that was put in charge of the grading plan hadn't sent it out to the rest of us to check it yet. Next thing you know, one of the girl's tells me she can't print it to hand in on Friday, because she has to "unexpectedly" go to Ottawa for the weekend, and is leaving on Thursday. So, whatever, it's fine, right? But no, I had time, so I looked at the plan I think on Wednesday, and realized that the Ottawa girl just changed the title bar drastically and nothing else, and the stupid girl who was in charge of grading didn't even put in half of what was necessary to be handed in.

So, I hurriedly did that and sent it back out before the guy had a chance to look at it, and have it sent back to me. But instead, the guy gives it to me late Thursday night, and changes a few things, in a good way, I guess. And then that's when I realize, it's on the wrong plan. D: So I had to move everything they did, and put it onto the plan I'd resent them out beforehand. I'm not being a mean project leader. I'm just the one seeing how incompetent a supposedly good group was. D: I think the reason why I hadn't seen it before was because I did the bulk of the first plan, and they hadn't done much then either. I guess I'm being long-winded again...so I'll stop there...
Posted at 4:03PM

November 10, 2009
I'm sorry, yes, this is going to be an extremely long entry. But please, do read! :D What can I say? Overall, it was a good day. There was a lot of stress, honestly...a lot of stress. I went to sleep probably a little after 12 last night and was a teensy bit sad that I didn't get a message at all. XD But, that's probably because I told people I'm cranky and didn't want messages after midnight anyways because I'd probably be asleep. XD My fault I suppose. I'm gonna do point form for once...because it'd be like crap reading through if I didn't...

- So, first things first...apparently, I got a paid account for LJ now...till May. :D Sankyuu~~ . I love you <3 XD I guess, I'll have an excuse to use lots and lots of icons now. :D You'll have to explain to me what else I can do now though :/ Cuz, I'm not too sure. I randomly looked at my LJ when I got home and was like...wait, why's there a star next to account...eh? I have a paid account!?!? XD Only you'd give me this :D

♥ And, thanks to for the card. :D It was uber cute. ^^" Perhaps I work too much...lol.

♥ I got a card from the girls in Girl's Group...even though I've only gone once D: I'm sorry! XD But I am extremely appreciative. :D

♥ I got like a million messages on Facebook that drove me crazy, because I got so many alerts on my gmail telling me that people were telling me "Happy Birthday!" So, thanks for those :D

♥ And, lastly to you guys on my f-list, that I still haven't mentioned yet. :D THANKS~!

♥ You all brightened my day, in the midst of all the glum-ness and stress...XD But in the end...it was a really good day.

But yes, I guess I should now go on about my actual day? So, firstly, I got a wake-up call at 7:49 according to my laptop this morning from Anitha starting with "Happy Birthday!!!...we need to work on Pro-practice, because Virginie didn't like the stuff we sent her." Oh crap. It honestly just went downhill from there. So I literally sat in my room till just before class researching a bit more. So, I was a bit pissed knowing that she didn't really like much that I wrote. D: ...especially since I found it all to be correct, and she just hated everything we were sending her.

Anyways, we ended up getting to class, and Anitha went to the walk-in clinic because she was a bit sick, and Virginie was at home working on the paper alone. D: So, after class I went to check my email, and apparently, she was extremely pissed! So, we couldn't figure out what we did wrong...cuz we didn't do anything wrong, it just happened that she didn't like what we had. So, we ended up doing a bit more research and stuff for her, and citing, and what not and sending back to her. Anyways, so during the break, and back up to studio time to get crits, Jessie decided to go to the supermarket to buy something....she kept saying she needed to buy eggs. Anyways, so Anitha and I kept fixing and fixing stuff to send to Virginie so she wouldn't be even more seemingly pissed at us, and then Jessie comes back.

And I guess I kept mentioning I was hungry, so about 15 minutes later, they both walk away, and I keep working on something else for a bit longer on Anitha's laptop, and they come back over presenting this cake. We didn't have a knife...so we ended up slicing it with a fork though. XD But it tasted awesome all the same...but apparently, we didn't have enough people to share it with...just them and Aisha...and PJ went missing because of the paper with her partners. D:


So, we rushed off to class, and and after all the stress, and the hustle and bustle of it all...we finally got it all figured out, and printed. :D And apparently, Virginie wasn't as mad at us as we'd thought...which is good. But yes, before we handed that in...XD I saw Vanessa when I walked into the class and she told me "Happy Birthday!" And so, apparently she was presenting today on project management. Before she started, she said "Happy Birthday Kat!" in a loud voice to me again, and everyone around the classroom pretty much said "Happy Birthday" to me at that point, and I kinda just blushed and hid. XD Vanessa kinda laughed at me. haha, but it's all good.

And then, after their presentation, it was like discussion time, and they were talking about how it feels to have to deal with working on three or four projects at the same time. And Rachel (one of the people in my construction group) decides to talk about the construction project, and how we delegated certain jobs to certain people. Then, she mentions that it's also good to have a leader in the group, and since our prof told us to pick a leader for each group, she's like "We chose Kat, and she's doing a really good job." XD OMG~! I blushed so much, and kinda hid. Though, apparently, Anitha told me later, that when Rachel said that, Angela who was sitting like two seats away from me was glaring at me, and Anitha just glared back at her. XD I didn't look cuz I was too embarrassed to look up.

Then from there we went home, and I saw the crazy list of facebook messages that I'd received with all these "Happy Birthday's" from people I know, and even people I haven't seen for years~ It was crazy honestly, how many there actually were. But, it's times like these that I feel extremely blessed to have so many friends around me. :D So, yes, thanks so much for making my day when I finally made it to my 20th~
Posted at 11:05PM

November 9, 2009
November 10th marks my 20th birthday. XD So, I thought I'd do something different...that is for myself anyways. Usually, I write a poem about...well, a birthday. And this year, I decided that I shouldn't be emo. So, you get a glimpse into my 2nd cover album - Melody & Harmony :D I can honestly say, that I'm not completely satisfied with it either...but, I won't get anything out of it, if I don't post anything, right? ^^" So, you can find it (and the 1st album) here. Actually, I'd already been working on my 3rd album, and wanted to post that one instead, because I liked it better. D:

So, this whole weekend has been work, work, work. For some reason, I ended up working Friday, even after I'd hoped that it'd be a "free" day. I went to the mall to go to the bank, and ended up somehow bumping into ACF people on the bus, and got persuaded into walking with them in the mall for a bit. After finally getting an excuse to leave when someone else left, I ate lunch with her at the UC, and then walked back to res. But, I bumped into Jessie who was walking to studio at the time. So, I ended up coming back out an hour or two later so we could work on design. So, I worked on it with her until about 5:30, when I went home and worked on my construction project again. D:

On Saturday, I met up with Anitha mid-morning to work on design some more, and then we met up with Virginie to talk for a few minutes about the pro-practice paper. Then, we talked a bit about the case-study paper we were going to do together...And we went home from there. But, we ended up meeting again about half an hour later to work some more on construction details (which is an individual project, but we thought it'd be faster - two heads are better than one) even though I had some of it done already. And then we worked on pro-practice some more...

Sunday was built on mostly church, and expecting to not have to do anything. And in the end I had lunch with ACF people again, and went home to chill. And then around 5 or 7 someone called me saying I should do this, this, and this for the pro-practice paper...which I couldn't even figure out how it would relate to the paper. So I stressed for a good hour, and in the end, it was all for nothing, just like I thought. D: All in all...I'm smarter than I look...

And last time I said I'd show pictures of my current project (my part anyways...):

Posted at 8:10AM

November 7, 2009
I'm getting lazy with updating...and it doesn't help it when I've been extremely tired lately either due to Daylight Savings Time, or the fact that I've been working almost non-stop. On the other hand, I'm glad my aunt from Brantford is still thinking of taking me to Toronto this coming Wednesday, which is the day after my birthday for lunch. My friend's generally know it's my birthday, which makes me happy...and I didn't really even have to mention it...which is the way I like it.

When it's your birthday, do you out right tell people it's your birthday? I don't know, I was talking to someone the other day, and they're like..."why didn't you go on 'Mystery Bus' too?" Sure it would've been fun to go with a whole buncha LA's on a school bus to some random place for $100 for a weekend...But I've got better things to do, which currently includes 3 projects due, one of which is due the coming week. And so when I mentioned to that person that my aunt was coming up so she could bring me up to Toronto for a day, he pretty much said something along the lines of "Oh? You're going to have fun? You know how to have fun?"...I found that sarcastic remark extremely rude actually.

Health comes before meetings. Work comes before health. That's how I do things. But it's fun along the way, even if it's stressful...and I mean, you're doing everything slowly in order to not be stressed out last minute anyways. If you're working with friends, it's always fun. Ah~! And I did go to the movies the other day with my friends, I just didn't tell him about him...that and I don't really like to talk to him, unless I have to. I feel like I'm always having to prove myself, especially when I don't need to. But whatever...next week's so busy, I won't even have time to go out with my friends to eat dinner...not until the week after anyways. *sigh* Well...knowing me, it might even end up being a something that doesn't happen. But, I like saying I'll do something nonetheless. ^^"

I only found it weird, when my mom called me Saturday afternoon. She was telling me stuff like.."Oh~! Your birthday's coming up." And that she was happy that I was turning 20, and that she was happy with how I've become or something? I'm not sure...either way I'm like, mom...it's only Saturday. D: You're too early. D: But it's okay, my mom's like that. ^^"
Posted at 10:52PM

November 5, 2009
So yeah, all of this is from yesterday~ Let me just say, it's pretty weird when you walk to your prof's office, and ask him something, and he gives you a quick response that's insightful. XD I ended up going back up to studio from there, and just sitting around, and realizing that there's a crit list, and my group's not on it at all~~ DX So, I walk over to my prof who's in the 4th yr studio laying out the layout plans to finish grading them. And so I told him that I don't think my group's on the list and asked for a pen. And so, he added me to the list without me really having to do anything. So, now I know, he knows my full name, spelt correctly :D That's rare, you know? XD

So, I ended up leaving for the day, to take a shower and then pack up my laptop to work in the library with Jessie and Anitha for a bit. But that's when we realized the library was PACKED~! D: No joke, it's saddening, cuz we ended up going back to studio to work. And, that's when Jessie joked around saying, "You can probably still get your crit." And, that's what happened about 5 minutes after I sat down and set up my laptop and all that. My prof comes over to me and asks me if I still need a crit. XD So, yea, I got one, but I didn't learn all too much more than I didn't know before with the problems of my layout plan. XD

And, with sudden decisions, Anitha and I ended up finishing our analysis for the pro practice paper. By then, it was already 5:15-ish, and Jessie and I went back to res to put our laptops and books down to get ready. Yes. We ended up going to the movie theater on Woodlawn (which is usually like a 45 minute bus ride from school) to watch Cirque du Freak: Vampire's Assistant. Luckily, Vanessa decided to come along too, and so we got a ride back and forth. XD But, yeah, it was just really fun actually, especially since it was a week day. It feel so outta the box for me, because it's something I wouldn't ever do in Edmonton. I'd be...way too lazy maybe. XD

What else...mmmm..Woah~ I really didn't think that Jin would get a PV for LANDS's BANDAGE too! Kyaaa~! XD But, it looks so cool, with so many cameras used to make a PV of stills...it's quite an interesting idea. Anyways, that's all for now. I'm honestly, way too tired to write about what happened today too.
Posted at 10:05PM

November 3, 2009
What to say, well...with my birthday coming up in a good week or so, I thought of buying something for myself. XD Though technically, the KAT-TUN "Break the Records" Photobook was supposed to be my birthday present to myself...I guess it was more a perk for myself than anything :D So yes...what've I been looking into?

First is the '72 Telecaster Custom:

which seemingly has amazing sound...and it's really pretty XD But it's about $900 D:

And the second is the J5 Telecaster:

Which cheapest I found was about $380.

Both are electric guitars, and fenders...which would mean I'd have to buy an amp too though. D: But knowing my dad, he'd probably tell me something like...get to be better on guitar before spending so much money on something like this. XD But either way, I'm leaning more towards the '72 Telecaster...because I like it way more. XD And so, I've been talking to my dad about turning one of the rooms downstairs into my music room...and buying a keyboard, and a mic...amp, etc. one by one and stuff like that...Honestly, if only, cuz I'd really like to.

Today...really, all I can say is that I think I wasted a whole day in studio on design and pro practice. But there was really no need to do so. Such a waste of classes. D: Well, I have lots more crap to talk about, but I'm way too busy to even talk about it D: I wrote about the guitar part yesterday when I had a bit more time. XD Anywho...till next time~
Posted at 11:31PM

November 1, 2009
I can admit, I don't quite understand how the NEWS Winter Party Diamond Concert DVD leaked already...when it's not supposed to start selling till November 4? I guess it is pretty close still...but why? DX Though I can embarrassingly admit, I'm one of those people that are downloading it, because even if I bought it officially, I wouldn't be able to play it D: So, Halloween was mostly spent watching it...and randomly singing and recording again. XD That is also, that the townhouse beside mine seemed to be having a party. And after 11, people started randomly screaming outside. It was weird.

On the other hand, I'm glad my long hours working on AutoCAD actually paid off. My team members seemed to actually impressed with the layout that was created, and the hard work I put in - which probably meant...the amount of detail that went into the drawing in span of two days. XD But yes, I'm happy. I'd assumed that Mallory - the girl in my group that worked at a firm over the summer, who knows AutoCAD really well, would change lots to my drawing...but there apparently wasn't much to change...:D But, yes, it makes me happy knowing...that I'm not as horrible at AutoCAD as I thought I was. ^^" And so from here on out for my construction project, it's more of a managerial...overseeing position, making sure everyone else is doing their jobs. haha. And now....on to worry about my other group projects, which apparently, I also have somewhat of a leading role in D: People seem to think that people who are well organized are good leaders. Is that true?

I feel like...I'm talking about stuff like this because it makes me feel better. Maybe...? I don't know. I was talking to Angela over MSN today, and it was just extremely awkward. Because she blamed me for small things that made no sense. She pretty much accused of being satisfied with "just passing" in projects, when she's the one that needs me for everything. And seeing as I'm doing better in all my projects this year without her, and nonetheless doing better than her...I don't think she has the right to say such a thing. Sure she can say things like she has her "sources" that say that I'm crap, and that I'm someone that doesn't do anything. But that'd be a lie with anyone I've worked with this year. Because if I wasn't there, I'm sure we'd have failed everything we'd done so far.

All I remember is her saying something about it being awkward for Vince to say 'hi' to me if I ignore her. On the contrary, all those times, she's never initiated a hello either so...it's not completely my fault is it? Nor does Vince have to say 'hi' to me. So maybe I'm extremely misunderstanding. But I'm extremely stubborn. I like being right. And she wants to be friends again. I just want to get rid of her. So what should I do? I honestly...have thought about it. But I don't want to sit down and talk to her, especially since I feel like there's no need for it.
Posted at 10:06PM

October 31, 2009
Now I remember why I love Toda Erika :D Honestly, there'd been a lot of weird rumors going on around her since the whole Sawajiri Erika problem, with her company like canceling her contract. But yeah, I was watching Himitsu no Arashi-chan...haha. Let's just say, her laughing's amazing~ :D

Anyways, I still can't believe Angela (yes, I'm back on the topic about her) made a design group with Jackie and Claire...I'm just glad I joined Anitha and Jessie, so I didn't need to worry much...about stress anyways I mean. I mean...I wouldn't have minded, but those two were the ones that stole mine and Angela's project last year and got a higher mark than us, and I was extremely pissed at that. Now they're nice to me, and stuff like that, but of course I'd still be angry...

And, I just laughed when people tell me horror stories with working with Angela. I remember, when I got back from the site visit on Thursday, Virginie was talking about how she was working in the group with Angela for the previous design project, where we all had to write these like 18-20 page reports up. And, apparently, she said that Angela couldn't write? I don't know if she was that bad at writing when I was working with her...but I'm sure it's just that she's gotten lazy without me. Because...well, everyone this year that's been working with her, seems to have some kind of complaint. And, that can't be blamed on me whatsoever, cuz I've done nothing about that...

To be extremely honest, I've been bogged down with AutoCAD all weekend...and I've had nothing interesting to say other than that. XD I did, in between all my hours stuck in my room on Friday, walk over to the UC for a break, and buy Yogen Fruz. The guy helping me make it gave me more than they usually do, and that was cool. :D That or, he thought I was flirting because I was asking difference between the packs (i.e. the pink, blue, or green one), and which fruit was what, because I couldn't see through the glass shelving well enough. D: Mango looked like peaches. So, yes, it actually ended up looking like the picture they put out~! XD

On the other hand, I did get my AutoCAD project...well, at least my part anyways. The promised layout of our new design for part of campus...which included the design, as well as the proposed planting, and notes, and parking stalls, and islands, and catch basins...and dimensions...and the title block. D: But my main part's done~ :D I'm glad. That, and one of my team members told me I was doing a good job as team captain, which made me happy~! Oh~! That, and I found out that my group for the professional practice presentation the other day, actually did really well~ We got 89%, which apparently is highest in the class so far according to class stats~! XD Yay~!!
Posted at 12:08PM

October 29, 2009
I still can't get enough of BANDAGE~ With the full song finally out...:D I've been hearing that people think the song's too long? Really? D: Also, I've been listening to Yamapi's Loveless, but I'm a little disappointed with it actually. XD Because I think he has a really unique voice, and it doesn't really show off in Loveless. Nonetheless, I do like the song, a lot. And from the Mezamashi preview thing I heard, and about the making of the PV in NYC~! It was quite cool to see cuz I was just there! XD And why do all the covers look so good?! XD

Ah...what else? Mmm...well, it's weird when you take a Chinese class, and then realize the friend you'd made lives in the same residence as you, and only a few doors down from you. (O_O;) And then..so, we walked back to res together, and went into the East Convenience store because she wanted to buy magazines. I decided I'd look around a bit to see if I could compare prices...to like, a regular grocery store. And then when I went to look, Angela and Vince came in. D: It was so awkward, because I was like "Oh~! Hi!" and Angela just walks past me, and Vince who was behind her, just kinda shyly waves at me. I don't know...to me, it's obvious she's really mad at me because I ditched her in NYC. It's not my fault...if she hadn't brought Vince with her, than I wouldn't have ditched her...well, that could be a lie...but I don't even know if I would've still...

Apparently, I expect way too much from people. And so, when I can't get those things from people I know, I get extremely disappointed and try parting ways. I believe...that's what my problem is with friends. Everyone seems to be letting me down lately. Aside from that...it's supposed to rain till the end of the week. So, I'm not sure if I'll be up to going to buy all my groceries, and do my laundry, and go to the bank. If only I could laundry in my own townhouse? That'd be a lot more convenient that dragging my laundry over to another building...in the rain D:

Also, someone I know in LA walked over to me yesterday and was like..."oh~ Oh~!" and pointing at me. Apparently, the girl I had talked about before, that was going on an internship in Japan really is going to the same one as me after all. So yeah, apparently, we should talk about stuff, and about how we should hang out more while there and have excursions :D That and now I have someone to go to "Sapporo Snow Festival" with. :D

And yes, it's going to be a very busy Halloween weekend. I'm going to be working on my group project all weekend, solely by myself. Why's that, you ask...? Pretty much, I told them I'd take care of the layout, and because everyone's generally going home for the weekend and going to get drunk, and well, I don't do stuff like that...I pretty much told them I'd do that part, and the rest of them would take up the rest of it. D: Why am I so stupid? D: Anyways, yeah, my weekend seems nice and bright, stuck in my room working on CAD the whole time...*sigh*
Posted at 8:23AM

October 26, 2009
I still can't really get over Jin and Koki's guesting on Shounen club back in 2007. XD It's such a good episode! Well, really, I only brought this up because I was watching it while I was waiting to leave my house for the bus to NYC. ^^" But now I know why I got so hooked on 'Pinky'...even if it is kinda...ero-ero, ne?

Friday
Okay~! So, onto the NYC trip. ^^" There's lots of things that happened...planned and unexpected. Nonetheless...it was a pretty good trip. My friends rated it a 9 out of 10. XD So, firstly, we got on the bus from the LA building at around 1am, and I sat beside Anitha, and Jessie sat behind us. I generally slept the whole way there. People on the bus seemed drunk when they got on, but about 2 hours in, everyone seemed dead. When we got to the border, two people got puled off the bus to buy visas, and then off we were down the long road to NYC.

So, when we got to NYC, we stopped at the hostel first where most of the people were staying. Afterwards, we went to the hotel, but the driver's GPS was not doing a very good job of finding our hotel. XD Either way, we got there, and checked in. Once we were done with everything, we headed off to Battery Park and the Statue of Liberty. :D Apparently, we had to get scanned before going on the ferry though...which I think is a bit excessive. Doesn't that just mean they think everyone might be carrying something all the time on NY streets? XD

And then, we got to Statue of Liberty, and unfortunately, couldn't even climb the stairs to the top. But, we did get to see it real, and up close, instead of from a distance on the Staten Island Ferry like the class did. Afterwards, we waited in line to get back on the ferry back to Battery Park...which was an extremely long wait. From there, we walked to Rector St. I think? Oh man, there's so much construction going on in NYC, it's hard to find stuff..even subway stations seemed to be missing. D: Well, we did end up finding it, and made our way to Penn Station, because Anitha wanted to buy stuff from JC Penny and Macy's. :D

So, lots of shopping later, we met up with Dan and had dinner. To be extremely honest, it was just really awkward and weird. Because sure, I did want to see him after so many years, and I don't know if he was just shy or what, but even my friends saw it...he was pretty rude. Not just to me here, to my friends too. And if you don't realize it...you should. I don't know if you're reading this...but, you should know. Staying over wasn't expected, and if that's what you were expecting, I'm sorry? Like, you probably weren't even trying to be rude...cuz I know you enough to trust you on that...but you definitely came off that way.

Saturday
After the strangest night ever, even through the good...and awkward conversations, the morning was quite good for the breakfast. We ended up boxing away stuff to eat for lunch, and not eating it. XD We went to China Town in the morning, and then headed towards SoHo because we could walk it, and because I needed to buy a hoodie for someone. Unfortunately, the store I wanted to go into wasn't even open yet, because apparently, one of the store workers didn't have the key.

So, we ended up heading up to Central Park from there. There, we got a text message from Lise, sounding as if she was really mad that we'd left her and not really taken part in the trip with her. So, we called her back, and told her we were in Central Park, and would meet her up when they got there...but they weren't going to Central Park! So, we walked the 10-15 blocks to Rockefeller Center and saw the group about to leave. And then Lise started bringing the group to the pocket parks. I guess, she was just happy we made it to see the pocket parks...and it wasn't like we missed all too much anyways that day. :D

After the third or fourth pocket park, it started to pour, and pretty much, we were allowed to part ways this time. So, we left her, and walked towards Time Square and Broadway, because I wanted to show my friends that compared to Dundas Square in Toronto. XD Then, we walked all the way to Penn Station, to find Macy's~! Cuz the other day we had gone there, we saw a really good coat that fit Anitha really well~ And in the end she didn't buy it because the sizing wasn't big enough D: But, it was really pretty ^^" Afterwards, we had time, so we headed back to SoHo from there, and went to the store to buy the hoodie. And at the same time, I bought a bunny with a mustache...which apparently is called a Labbit. XD It was cute? :D That, or...maybe I'll give it to my sister for her belated birthday present.

From SoHo, we went back to the Hotel, and somehow ended up in front of Century 21. To anyone who doesn't know what kind of store it is, pretty much, it's a department store, that sells all types of brand names, and sells the stuff for like...40-70% off. It was totally random we found it, but it was good. My friends bought lots. XD By the time we got back to the hotel, we were all just dead tired from all the walking we did. Men In Black I and II were on TV, and Jessie ended up watching both. I went down with Anitha to check my email for a bit...and when she came back up, the movies just finished, and we all decided to sleep. I think it was around 11? It wasn't really even early, or late. But we were dead tired.

Sunday
We woke up early...Okay, so Anitha woke up early. XD She woke up at like 5:30 and woke us up. Because I couldn't find the heater, we were freezing that night. Anitha found it in the morning, and took a shower, and then pretty much just sat around till around 6:30 to wake us up again 'cause we'd fallen back asleep. XD We went to eat breakfast at 7 when it started, and packed food for the long bus ride back. We hopped on the subway from Chamber St. and headed back up to Columbus Circle (near the main entrance of Central Park).

We noticed, that there was a marathon going on, which was pretty cool. But, I don't know....it's like this. You know you're in 3rd year of Landscape Architecture when...all you talk about is LA, and elements that make up a place, and trees...and things like that. XD But it was fun~! We found the Hans Christiansen statue thing...and there was lots of people standing behind it doing Tai-Chi, which kind of freaked us out, because they weren't moving. Or, if they were, not a lot. From there, we found the Alice in Wonderland statue :D It was exciting yo~ I don't know, all I remember is us being in awe about how amazing Central Park was. ^^"

We got back to the hotel around 11, and waited in the hotel room till about 11:30 to walk down to the lobby and see the bus already waiting. So, we got on the bus, and we all just took a seat for ourselves. It's so much more comfortable when you want to sleep. XD Either way, we were the first ones on, and it made choosing seats so much easier. Before departure from the hotel, we saw Angela and Vince leave the hotel and pretty much point at the bus we were sitting on. I wonder if she saw us? Well, either way, whatever.

We got back to Guelph at around 12:30 this morning. My parents called me about twenty minutes after I got in. And I pretty much told them I'd call them later, because I was so dead tired from the trip, even though I had so much sleep...I ended up unpacking everything, using my computer for a bit, and going straight to sleep. I got woken up at 8 by my housemates running down the stairs...I'm guessing to throw out trash or something. Anyways, I ended up waking up and using my computer for like 30 minutes, and then going back to sleep to wake up at 10. That's when I realized my meeting for my pro practice contribution group was at 11:30, so I hurriedly got ready, and then at 10:45, I rechecked my email, and realized I was wrong, it was 11! So, I practically ran to LA, and was still really early D: But I ended up staying there till about 12, and then heading back home.

I got home, showered, and ate lunch. Then, I met up with Anitha and we went to class. Wasn't much of a class, but it finally hit me how I had so many groups going on at the same time, and I'm gonna get stressed out again. XD But it's okay, it'll work out! Things always do. So, I talked to my construction group for a bit, and then talked to my pro prac group because we didn't finish our meeting from before. And then, I left and met up with Vanessa to talk for a bit about all that's happened while in NYC. ^^" Then, Vanessa, Jessie, and I headed to Gryph's for dinner. I'm to lazy to make food apparently. But, that's okay.
Posted at 8:46PM

October 22, 2009
So, I made this picture on Wednesday throughout the day, so yeah, don't ask me how long it took me. The whole idea was to use my name and make animals out of them. XD And so, if you can't tell, it's supposed to be a tree and a giraffe, a turtle holding moraccas, and a fish. ^^" It turned out a lot cuter than I'd aimed it to be, so I was very proud when Aisha kiddingly asked me if I'd be able to do one out of her name too. XD


I've got a presentation today too, which was the reason for all the rushing around yesterday. D: But, at least I think I'm ready? Ganbarimasu～！

Yeah, this'll be my last post before I go off to NYC~~! A nice short post, but it's fine I'm sure. I'll have lots of stuff to talk about when I get back...^^"
Posted at 8:20AM

October 21, 2009
To be extremely honest, I've just been really tired the past few days, which is why I haven't updated. D: So yes, with everything rushing, I haven't had much sleep...and people being retarded honestly doesn't help. Someone I know called me at 12:30am. I'd hope he'd know that I'd been asleep already, because he always complains about me going to sleep so early. I can understand if you want me to buy you something when I go to NYC. But it's another thing to call me even after you know I've gotten to sleep...especially after knowing I've been having horrible sleep for the last few days D: Either way, because my ringtone was set to part of Jin's solo in 'Signal', I somehow got annoyed at it, and even had to change my ringtone for the amount of times he called after that time.

Going along with the 'me not having sleep' for the last few days, I woke up at 6, and couldn't go back to sleep so I got up to do a bit of stuff on my laptop. And then I went back to sleep at around 7:15, and woke up again at 8. Either way, I keep getting more and more bad news, like the fact that I can't get a travel grant, because they think I don't have financial need...which to me, doesn't make sense at all, because I got a check from them last year off the same information I filled in the form. So yes, now I need to find a way to pay my way to Hokkaido without making myself broke. D: I guess I'll have to use the money I made two summers ago...D:

On the other hand, I did do alright on my midterm after all...I thought I studied so much, but I suck at anything multiple choice or true false...I studied so much on the weekend, as far as I can remember...but in general, I'm not good at memorizing anyways D: Which apparently, is also the reason why I didn't get my travel grant. Cuz, I need a 70% average, and right now I have a 69.9% average. That's freakin' retarded D: So, where I'm glad that I only need to pay about $2000 for tuition, I get $500 back from residence cuz I'm not living there, but I need about $1500 for the flight, and another $500 or so for housing? So...total about $4000? *sigh*

But yeah, I guess my friend, that I'm supposed to help buy a hoodie for, that called me early this morning felt guilty about waking me up. So, he handed me $105 in the afternoon after I finished running around doing my project in studio till about 6. Though, yes, his hoodie costs like $95, there's my interest. :D
Posted at 7:19PM

October 19, 2009
I must be extremely honest...I don't understand how Chinese people that live in Canada all their lives, are unable to get rid of their accents. It's not like they're born with an accent...it comes along with hearing people speak that way, and not being able to get rid of it. On the other hand, if you lived in HK or Japan or something when you were little, and moved to Canada, I could understand that~! But if you've never even been there...that's so weird! I can understand that Toronto's pretty asian-ized, and you probably don't need to use english to communicate...but I find something really wrong with that picture.

So, I want to get rid of her...but honestly, she just keeps coming back. The thing is, since we're going to NYC together, she said she wanted to buy a present for Vanessa and the baby together with me. I don't want to do that, cuz I honestly don't want my name attached to hers. And, Vanessa should know that. But I don't know, I'll think of something, someway to work everything out.

Right now, I'm planning for my flight to Japan, lots of complications because...I need to decide when I'm coming back at the same time, and whether or not my parents are coming over to site-see before I leave. My mom had wanted to go to HK over the summer, but because my dad just got back, he doesn't really want to go back so soon. So...apparently, I can't think about booking till my mom comes to a decision. D: But...at least I know I'm heading there I guess. ^^"

Can I just say, anyone who hasn't seen the trailer for BANDAGE, should really go and watch it. It just looks like a really good movie~! :D Then again, I'm a bit biased, I like movies with music bases. XD That and Jin's voice...Jin in general, makes me biased? XD And what's that? Isn't that the guy from Buzzer Beat?

It's weird...I went today, and after class, we had to go see our groups for construction so we could figure out who were going to be the group leaders. And I found one of my members, and then we all got together. And when I finally walked over to them, the guy in my group just looks at me and I'm like "So, who wants to be the leader?" Everyone just looked at me and he's like "You would be good as the leader" D: Apparently, I'm known in LA for being really organized, and giving people deadlines for things to get done by so we get done ahead of schedule. ^^"...and therefore, now I'm in a position like this, ne...?
Posted at 11:34PM

October 16, 2009
So yesterday was supposed to be the day where I would meet up with Angela for lunch at 1pm, because ...we were supposed to? I don't know, I guess we were going to clear up some stuff. Instead, I told her I could meet earlier, like at 12:30, because one of my group meetings got canceled. And she told me she still has a meeting anyways, so she'd just meet me later. How long am I supposed to wait to mean "later?" Anyways, so I went to work my design group, and we worked till about 1:15. I was getting really hungry, and I couldn't wait any longer...and so I just decided to leave...because when I looked around studio, she was missing, and around LA, but she seemed...to not be there either. So, I just left along with Anitha, and went home to eat leftovers. I don't know if that's bad or what to have done that, but I didn't get a call from her till almost 2. So, yes, I didn't call her because I don't like calling her, and because I can't use my minutes till I end up adding more money on my phone (even if I don't want to).

What else...I got my first 80+ in LA for a design project! We got an 83~! Either our sessional profs are extremely lenient with grading, or we just did good :D Either way, I feel so happy~! I'll be so happy if I can get into like a 75% average this semester...it brings me closer to my mid-B average needed for masters. XD I've pretty much decided after I finish my Bachelors, I'm either going to try my best to get into University of Toronto, British Columbia, or Calgary's Masters of Architecture program. And if that's impossible, I'll just start working. XD

I've also been thinking lately, that I should probably write more songs, and come summer, I'm probably gonna make a CD, and see if I can get accepted to any Asian recording companies. Life's too short. I might as well try...because you never know till you try, right?

Anyone been keeping up with Shounen Club? I'd like to know why Yonemura - the main vocalist from Question's gone..D: I can only say that, because I really like Question actually...surprisingly maybe? They're music's quite good :D And what's with the newest episode of SC, and they had this whole classical piano segment? Why? D: Not to say I don't like the music, I myself have played all those pieces before...I just don't understand why it's included there...and why HS7 was filmed just watching them play. XD

I met up with Jessie, Anitha, and Aisha in studio today, and then we worked on the design project a bit more. Then, I went to ask my program director about whether he'd signed my internship form yet, because I didn't want to book my flight to Hokkaido without official confirmation. And he said he did. And that he thinks it's amazing that I found such an internship, and that I would fit in fine, with how I look, and the "dumb bunny" on my bag D: But, he's weird like that. XD Anyways, he told me to go see the secretary to confirm that he's signed it, and yup, it's all signed and taken care of. Now, I just need to register for the course, and actually book my plane ticket over~ Kyaaaa~!

And then I left to go the UC with Anitha for a bit to see half price UoG clothes and stuff...but I didn't really feel like buying anything somehow...I would've bought a cap, but I decided against it...didn't like it enough, even if it was only $10. ^^" So, I wanted to go back to LA to print out lecture notes and stuff to study from for my quiz on Tuesday...but all the computers were being used D: So, I ended up going back to the office, and talking to the secretary about getting a key. She didn't even have to ask for my name, apparently, she already knew my name..or at least remembered my name from about an hour before, which was, kinda cool. XD
Posted at 3:49PM

October 15, 2009
Because you know...weird things happen. I got to LA around 12:30 and ate lunch that Anitha made for me - which, actually she's been doing a lot, because she realized I like her Indian stuff. XD Even if it is extremely spicy. But it's good :D She insisted...so, I ate it. XD Well, anyways, so, once class time came around, I sat in the seat I was sitting in, and Angela just decided to sit next to me because Vanessa was missing...which was due to her doctor's appointment.

Anyways, so like I said, Angela decides to sit next to me, and talks to me normally in class. And when she asked me where Vanessa was, I told her she was at a doctor's appointment, and she tried to be like quiet about it and whispered "I have something to tell you later." And, pretty much, she walked over to me later telling me that she found out yesterday when she was sitting next to her in class that it looked like Vanessa was pregnant. I guess...Vanessa didn't tell her yet.

And apparently, things with Vanessa and her boyfriend are not going well, according to Angela with her "easesdropping" on a phone call. I don't know if anything she says is true...but whatever's going on, it's not her business. This is a serious time for her after all...and I mean...seriously, people should be more supportive at a time like this, not scrutinizing her. I can understand if the news might be shocking...especially people that don't know. But...I'm sure there's enough people scrutinizing her already.

I ended up going downtown with Anitha and Jessie, cause I needed to deposit my reimbursment cheque from the university. Oh, and then I had to get US currency cuz I'm going to NYC already next week. AH~! So fast! I honestly, keep thinking it's going to be so far away...but everything's pretty much all set. AHHHH~! So little time so much to do...and apparently, I'm a day behind in entries again..will have to fix that tonight maybe...
Posted at 8:34AM

October 14, 2009
So, yes, I've officially given up hope for my situation with Angela.　Because I think we've come to the conclusion that we should just ignore each other.　Yesterday I think, was seriously an ultimate weird situation, because Vanessa wore this shirt, with a belt. Angela came in a few hours later saying "Hey~　We're twins!" They almost looked identical, it was creepy. And so a few minutes after I sat talking to Jessie, and Vanessa walked over and sat next to us. And pretty much, she told us about how annoyed with Angela she was that she seemed to continually copy her, as far as make-up and like...outfits go. XD So awkward actually...I'm quite glad people don't want to copy mine. haha

But yeah, yesterday was good, because I didn't have to talk to her. I said I was gonna confront her, and in the end I didn't. In her last letter back to me, which was...over the weekend, she'd said that she thought "as well as others" thought that I was crazy about how I wrote a letter to confront her with what I thought. But as far as I'm seeing...others probably just means her, her boyfriend, and at most her boyfriend's housemates that apparently know me. XD When I was in LA today...people acted the same way around me...and were still uber nice to me. So, yea, I don't know. I guess I just have a good rep in LA.

For Professional Practice, we even had to go into groups, and look over case studies where code of ethics have been breached. So, it was weird, because one of the girls in my group sat down next to me, and pretty much told me ever since first year, she thought my voice was really suited with presenting. *shrugz* I don't know exactly what that means...apparently, it means, that I seem to be a very confident speaker, even if I don't know what I'm saying. XD I just remember my last presentation when I was trying to talk about circulation, and I was trying to explain how come we placed a drop off in a certain area, and plantings and buffers in certain areas in order "to not have people be killed or something". Yes, that was the actual wording I used. And, I know, horrible use of my "good" english skills, but my profs just smiled at me so...and people actually seemed awake to listen to me, because I heard laughs...so, it's okay, I think. XD Either way, it was really random...and probably didn't mean anything. haha. But my friend agrees, that I'm loud when I speak...unintentionally anyways. ^^"

I finally got a chance over the weekend to watch that SP drama with Yamada Ryosuke and Yokoyama Yu, Hidarime Tantei EYE. Honestly, it's actually really good, in a really...odd way? I don't know I found it really random...and I kinda guessed it from the beginning. XD But, if the outcome of the SP drama is an actual series...I would probably watch it!

It was weird...that a guy in ACF MSNed me and asked me how things were, and I kinda spilled that I had a problem with Angela. So, he recommended we go out to eat on Friday. I'm trying to figure out what it's supposed to mean. I'm hoping, he's just trying to be a good time, and wants to hear me out or something. But I don't know...people have to realize I do things because I want to...and it's not like I get any benefit out of trying to bash someone else...if it's even considered that.

Oh yes~! I totally forgot! For Professional Practice, the writer of my textbook came to out class today for something like a guest lecture. Pretty much...he was just monitoring the class discussions. But either way, he was here. And everyone was busy at their groups working things out and stuff...but I asked my group what they'd have thought if I went to ask him to sign my book for me, and they said I should. So, I embarrassingly walked over to him, and asked him if he could sign my book. XD And my prof, who happens to be the book writer's wife, kinda laughs at me, and tells the class that if anyone wants to get their books signed, now would be the chance~ XD So random, yet, so cool at the same time. Which reminds me...I've got to go ask my other prof one day to ask him to sign my other book too. XD

But yeah...Angela ended up MSN-ing me to meet up with her for lunch on Thursday. I'm not looking forward to that, because I know...things aren't going to look good. The whole MSN conversation was...awkward, because I apologized to her if the letter had made her feel hurt or what not...because I hadn't meant it to be that way. That's the only thing I can apologize for, because I don't think I did anything else wrong...But, it's obvious she just wants to get on better terms before the NYC trip at the end of next week. Because I'm that kind of person I told her sorry, and she just said "ok........." Does that mean she doesn't accept my apology? Either way, I need to be more positive. Ganbarimasu~!
Posted at 11:25PM

October 13, 2009
I woke up really early today! I think I slept at like 12:30, and ended up waking up at 8. Though...if I think back on it, it's not really that I didn't sleep much either. It's at least 7 hours of sleep or so...AH~!

So much ahead for today. Class from 10-4...group meetings, maybe a nap, and then dinner. Then I run off to chinese class. D: I hate Tuesdays because of it. It always feels like such a rush. Even this morning...I don't know what's wrong with me. I just feel so clumsy this whole weekend. Even things like putting on a necklace feel like a chore. I keep dropping it when I want to put it on.

I went to check my mailbox yesterday, and my reimbursment for my doubly-paid tuition has finally come~! I'll have to go the bank soon..so that my dad can get the money...and then this summer, I'll have to start making more money so that I can pay it off. ARGH~! I'm in so much debt. Curse you Canadian government! D:
Posted at 9:30AM

October 12, 2009
I'm really sorry that you guys have had to hear me rant about all the troubles I've been going through the past few days...weeks even? D: So, I thought I'd side-step for a bit, and talk about something else..maybe about nothing...?

Anyone watch "My Girl" yet? I don't think I've ever actually watched any drama with Aiba-kun...but he's actually a pretty good actor~ As expected of a Johnny's, right?　But seriously, it's another tear jerker D: But how it took like an hour to go through two chapters of the manga is a bit beyond me. XD Ah~ The manga's actually has really pretty art. Even the manga would make you cry..D:

But yeah, like I said, aside from all my chaos, Thanksgiving has been a quiet one. Even though I've been talking to my mom over webcam, and msning my sister, and I got one call from my dad after he heard from my mom how steaming mad I was after reading Angela's last letter...He tried to make me feel better anyways. But I've been occupying my time with work...research, and studying...and catching up on reading.

So, since it's Thanksgiving, I thought I'd just say how thankful I am to all of you who actually read my blog and what not, and listen to all my ranting. Without you, I wonder if I'd still keep up with it. You guys give me great advice, and encouragement, for which I'm just extremely thankful for. I'm grateful to just have such great friends all around me. Arigatou~
Posted at 10:07AM

October 11, 2009
I'm not bitchy. I'm just blatantly honest. What am I talking about? Angela finally replied to me after so many days, and told me I was being irrational with everything I said, and that I was playing this innocent victim. Am I? No. Obviously I've been hurt, or I wouldn't have talked in that manner to her in the first place. Give me a break. Apparently, all she thinks friends are, are people that hang out together, and that's it. Friends don't tell each other what they're thinking. They don't tell each other what's on their minds. They just sit there, and talk about their friends, and gossip. Great, I'd like friends just like that. (yes, that's sarcasm people).

So, she tells me how I shouldn't be hurt, and that she doesn't deserve any of the "drama and tension" that I've sent her way. And so she brings out all the things that she's done for me, like hanging out with me when I went to Vancouver, and letting me live in her house. Sure, of course I'm grateful. But it's miniscule to the feeling she's making me feel right now. She thinks what I've been feeling are grudges and small conflicts. If they were small, I wouldn't be in this freakin' mess. Then again, am I making her feel the same way too?

Either way, she thinks I'm stabbing her in the back because I've "spread rumors throughout LA about her", which, obviously, I haven't done. Honestly, what the hell have I gotten myself into? Why couldn't I have made friends with a boy in 1st year, instead of her? D: Things wouldn't get this messy. So now, apparently, "I have issues" because I'm telling her everything over email, rather than face-to-face, where I'd probably punch her... Yeah. I'm bitchy today. Who wouldn't be after reading an email like this? There's obviously some issues here we need to work out, and sure, I'm always the person that's the "better person" and let's things go because I want things to be normal again. I don't know if I can do it this time. So, if people think there's going to be a good outcome to talking to her face-to-face....they've got another thing coming. I can't believe how stupid I was to think that 4 or 5 months away from her in the summer would solve everything. Obviously, it did nothing, but make things grow, for me anyways. And when this happened again a few weeks ago, she "added oil to the fire".

So apparently, I'm two different people after all. On one hand, sure I can look like this innocent, short, Chinese girl, who's happy all the time. But inside, I'm a person that's dark, and doesn't want to be freakin' stepped on anymore! Is there anything wrong with that?! Obviously, this isn't the first time, and it all needs to stop. People need to stop taking advantage of me. And yes, it hasn't just been Angela. Many people before her also. I don't think people understand, that obviously people that are happy all the time, have lots of problems deep inside. Everything's a facade. There's no way a person can be happy all the time. And if they are, there's something wrong with them.

You can't just tell someone "Happy Thanksgiving" after you've sent them an email spazzing back at you. Cuz sure it's over-analyzing, but it feels like she just wants to cover herself and act like a good person. There's only so many times a weed can be stepped on. That is, and keep on living. So like I said...I think, I'm going to end up meeting her, whether she likes it or not next week (whether I like it or not too). And so, if you don't hear from me, she's probably killed me. T_T"
Posted at 12:06AM

October 10, 2009
I think...what I've come to realize, is that friends that are your friends, won't leave you if they're really your friends. Even if something bad happens, they'll help you through it. So, yeah, apparently one of my friends is pregnant and I hadn't known. She came over to visit me before she went back home to Cambridge. Nonetheless, I was so excited to see her, because my excitement is going to get...only so exciting I guess. XD But we talked about life, and Angela, and everything that's just going on. But, I don't know, that's why I like talking to Vanessa, she always goes pretty deep, and gives good advice.

So, we went to Brass Taps, because she wanted to get lunch, so, yet again, for the 2nd day in a row, I've eaten "linner" at like 3:30. XD When she broke the news to me that she was pregnant - that is, in a good way of course, I honestly didn't even believe her. But I mean, I guess I should be saying how bad it is, because her and her boyfriend aren't married yet and all that...but, I'm really excited for her. :D So I guess, everyone has problems. There's only the fact that...there's a limit to how much people will tell other people. So she's telling me, that nothing's changing with me and Angela because we're both making way too many assumptions about each other. And, she's probably right. But the thing is, I've been telling Angela everything that's on my mind, yet she's not telling me anything...I've realized. She's just answering back what she thinks about what I've said to her. I'm obviously missing something here...

Yay~! Jun came to visit me today and that means...KAT-TUN photobook has come XD . I think what surprised me more was that the photobook is actually hard covered, and the hard cover is actually incredible quality. :D Yes, I can't get over how pretty it is~ (∩゜∀｀∩)ｷｬ━━ｯ!!


Because, I just felt like showing off my new earrings. XD I need more star earrings. :D


I was cooking rice, and freaking out because the cover kept like spurting water out D: And the rice wasn't all that soggy at the end either...but it worked. And then Jun thought it'd be fun if I took a picture. XD

Posted at 10:17PM

October 8, 2009
I finally got to watching Bandslam. XD I don't know why, but I was really looking forward to watching it in the summer, but never got the chance to. And, finally sitting down and watching it, I can't believe it got such low ratings. On the contrary, I found it extremely good for the type of music that's played. I think some people just don't quite understand the movie. I'm guessing some of the music played isn't what's really "in" right now...or something, and that's the reason why people didn't take the movie in all that well. But there's so much awesome...even I was surprised.

I think honestly, we were so lucky. Today was my field trip to Hamilton, because our next project's based on the downtown area. Like I said, so lucky. There was no rain in sight when I woke up this morning. It was amazing, and a blessing. Honestly, the whether was great this morning. And now it just looks like...well, that it's going to rain again. XD What's with all this rain? D:

Honestly, it was the weirdest thing. XD I was sitting in my Chinese class, and got my workbook and quiz back, and I open them. Yay~! I got a 95 and 98. :D And I heard this (not to be racist, but totally true) fat, white guy walk up to the prof to get his quiz from her. She pulled him over and asked how come he didn't write the pinyin for the characters in the quiz...that or the characters for the pinyin, and he was trying to make excuses about being like dyslexic or something? I don't know. But I just softly laughed to myself. D: Honestly, don't take Chinese, if you're not even going to make an effort. You can't blatantly lie and say that you can't remember characters because they look like pictures or something. You're in other courses too...if you can't study, don't stay in the class~ D:

Things with Angela...are well...awkward. After we came back from our trip to Hamilton, I went to studio to work on a project with Virginie, and Jessie went back to res. Later, I met up with Anitha and Jessie to hand in the 2nd part of our construction projects, and then Jessie and I ended up going to Brass Taps for "linner" (which by the way, is lunch and dinner). And she told me about how when I went to the lab, she ended up walking back to residence, and could hear fast-paced clicking of heels behind her, and all of a sudden someone shouted "Jessie!" She turned around, and Angela was there, and wanted to walk home with her. But Jessie told me how awkward she felt. That's what happens...when people who've done bad things try to make friends with people they know have done bad things. D:

Stop trying to steal my friends, they won't come to you. D: In some ways, I feel like I'm brainwashing them. XD But, I promise, I'm totally not, because they're backing me up. I asked Anitha and Jessie if they thought I was a bad friend, and they told me I wasn't. Though, Anitha says I'm thinking way too much about the problem with Angela to make me think so...so I should stop. XD
Posted at 11:20PM

October 7, 2009
I didn't want to make the previous post longer than it needed to be, and therefore...here I am writing another entry already for tomorrow, which I'm actually writing today (the 6th). :D So, Monday night was ACF's Scavenger Hunt event, which I admit, was a blast~ I should've kept the Scavenger hunt list. D: But, it's what they called a "Photo Hunt"...where we had to take pictures around campus under the things that were on the list. And so, our group had the least amount of people in it, and we ended up in 3rd place...but it's all good. It was fun~ :D I felt guilty for posting so many rants about my friend problems...so I thought I'd lighten somethings up with lots and lots of pictures.

So, I just wanted to share the pictures...some of them anyways...because they're filled with awesome~ Can you find me?

This was actually, a really random shot..that turned out really well...

Picture with the cow...if you look closely at the paper anyways...


Because Tif is awesome~


It was supposed to be a Sailor Moon pose...


Studying, and leading a bible study? XD


Being stalkers ^^" cuz we needed to take pictures with people in a red shirt, and a hospitality services worker...


GACF's Cinderella Story~


And the pure random~


Posted at 9:38AM

October 6, 2009
So, I did end up seeing Angela yesterday, before I sent out the letter, and she acted normally even though I ignored her all weekend. I sat in the lab cuz I needed to print out the requirements for the next project. Angela came in to ask me what I was doing, and I said that's what I was doing, and then I kinda gave her the cold shoulder, and she left.

Honestly, you know friends are creepy when...they talk to your new friends, and pats one on the shoulder saying "You're my new best friend". So just a bit of back story, our project was due today, so our next project, is to use the construction proposal package that we made, and have someone else look at it and analyze all it's fault. I was just glad that Angela didn't get mine. XD

But yeah, so I got Jessie's, and Jessie got Anitha's. Apparently, Kelsi got mine. But I'm honestly, not worrying all too much if it's just Kelsi. Honestly, thank God. I felt so blessed yesterday. XD And when Anitha went to get another for herself, Angela did just that...pat her on the shoulder and say "Did you get one yet? Oh, no?" And I don't know where the whole patting on her shoulder and telling her that she was her new best friend came in...but Anitha told me this.

And so, Anitha's nice, so she said she'd do hers, and signed her name on the list. But then, she wanted to reprint or something, so she went to the lab, and Angela followed her. Jessie was also with her, because they had to do research for their horticulture paper. And, wherever Anitha went, Angela seemed to go. So, apparently, she got creeped out, and told Jessie that they'd run to the library. XD I don't know, that's just not something someone should do. There's no natural-ness in it at all...especially when said other is friends with the latter. D: Hopefully she'll read my letter soon. I had to revise it, because my friends didn't want to be mentioned. I'll get most of the beating it seems. But, it's my problem anyways. And, it needs to be fixed now.

And honestly, I'm extremely pissed. D: Why? Because my phone only has $25 left on it!!!!! I know I can't blame all one person...but it's obvious, it adds to things. I put $100 on my phone, which was supposed to last me till August of 2010. $25 left, and it's only October? Beginning of October?! One freakin' month!? What the hell!? D:

So, yeah, I got the letter back from her, and what can I say? I'm somehow, not as mad anymore, because she actually replied. But she always somehow puts the blame on me, and this time, she didn't. Because there's nothing that she can blame me for...I haven't done anything wrong this time. All I've done is ignore her because I didn't know how to react around her. And so, yeah, apparently she told me my letter to her was extremely personal because I hit her in all the places, talking about her personal life, her working habits, etc. And she said I sounded like a lover trying to patch up a relationship. D: Anitha said that too, when she read it over. XD But..I don't know, all this crap needs to stop.

I don't think anything will ever change. To me it sounds like she just wants to stay my friend, in the midst of all the problems. But because she's in denial of all the problems that I mentioned to her, she's blaming me for all this "crap" that I started. And she keep saying she wants to be on good terms. But she knows she needs me to stay in "the group"...because she's the outsider so far this semester. But honestly, I can't figure out where we are anymore...

By the way, has anyone heard of Joe Chang? He's the guy who acted in It Started With a Kiss, and It Started With a Kiss 2. Apparently, he sings now...and he's not horrible at all~! Though, I watched one of his PV's, and I just started laughing, because it seems like such a different character he's portraying in the dramas he's in. He's dressed like such a...gangsta? No, that's wrong. XD But, he's quite good! You can here one
Posted at 9:12AM

October 5, 2009
I'm sure everyone's fed up with hearing me talk about Angela....but that's been my biggest problem as of late. And it's not like I can really get rid of her, cuz I'll generally see her every day no matter what. But honestly...isn't the point of a friendship to not want something to be reciprocated..to not feel used...to not feel like you can't be yourself. I need to straight out tell her what's wrong, and what she needs to fix. That's what I need to do..or nothing will change. And I can't be afraid of losing her...cuz I won't mind.

So I spent the better part of Sunday writing a letter to her. I didn't send it yet though. At least, my other friend told me I should wait till the current project's all over to send it to her, so it doesn't screw her up even more. But yeah...honestly, this weekend, she's just made me fed up. It first started with MSN-ing me questions, and then I appeared offline and started ignoring her. Then, she started texting me, and me answering one, and then like 3 or 4 more came after. I ignored them, and pretended I was asleep and at 10 something, she messaged me again, and I thought, I should answer her, and I told her I was going to sleep because I had church in the morning. I got to bed at 11, and she texts me again at 11:30. I ignored it, and just went to sleep.

And so on Sunday, after I got back from church, she texted me once, which I ignored. And then, she called my cell a few hours later...and then my residence phone twice in a row. It honestly scared the hell outta me that she's so persistent to get her questions answered by me. D: I'm not a textbook. Why didn't she go ask the prof? Why does it seem like she didn't go to class? There's a line between being a friend, and being helpful. Like I said, I'm fed up. I spent the better part of Sunday night randomly drawing in my agenda and reading...and hiding in my room. I literally turned off almost all my lights, in case she passed by my residence and could see a light on. Maybe I'm paranoid. Maybe she just wants to ask why I keep avoiding her. But I don't want to answer her. Not till she's read the letter I wrote to her. She needs to know that I'm not some person she can walk over...especially since I have a pay-as-you-go phone, and she's honestly stealing my money by doing what she's been doing all weekend. D:

Aside from all my random havoc...I've been putting more charms on my phone. XD I had two before, and it doubled. haha. Why? I don't know really...I was supposed to give these to people in ACF, and I just never found the opportunity, and decided to keeping them for myself. >.<" Well, the pink one that looks like a geisha was supposed to be for Angela, but I was pretty mad at her when I got back, so I never gave it to her. I think I need to get a stuffed one on my phone...and it'll balance everything out. :D Surprisingly enough, Jin's on my bag instead...

Posted at 10:55AM

October 3, 2009
Is it possible..that everything's just some kind of misunderstanding? Am I in the wrong? I don't know how to explain it. I just feel like...I'm somehow being blamed for everything...for not being a good friend. For ignoring someone. For hanging out with other people. For seemingly being cold to someone. Honestly, perhaps, that's what I did. But, it was never my intention to make someone feel uneasy. I'd thought that she didn't want to talk to me, and was mad at me. And, still it really seems like that even if she says that's not the case. I'm a person who'll apologize, because that's what I do, even if I know I'm not in the wrong. So, all I can do now, is try to bring her back into the group...and try to make things work. But, I can only give so many more chances...

Though on one hand she gives off an appearance that it's not her fault, I can't help but blame her too...for all the things she's done to me, or hasn't done. She'd told me she didn't answer me over the summer because her internet was down for a month. But I remember her posting pictures of her and Vince in Toronto together. So...her internet's down so she can post pictures of her and her boyfriend, but not to answer an email I wrote to her? So, I don't know what to do, and I don't know what to say anymore. I can't even figure out how to act around her. Because at the end of the day, she'll still use me, and will probably still be glued to her boyfriend 24/7. I don't think she needs me as much as she really thinks she does...she just doesn't want to feel like the only one in LA who doesn't really have a friend anymore.

Friday nights...and watching a horror movie? Yeah...not exactly the best...combination for me. Well, me and horror movies don't really mix anyways. But I found this horror movie with Horikita Maki and Meisa Kuroki, called "One Missed Call: Final". It's a trilogy, but I only wanted to see this one, cuz having them both together in a movie...is hard to come by...but the storyline itself was kinda retarded though, and I just ended up laughing through it. XD

I ended up waking early this morning at around 7:30, (yes, mind you, it's Saturday) made my AutoCAD drawings into PDFs, and headed over to Studio at around 8. I printing one paper, and then realized, "CRAP~! There's no more freakin' paper left!" So, I kept running up and down the stairs trying to find some...and I did. But, who wants to lug one of those huge rolls of paper down two flights of stairs? No one else was around yet, so I lugged one down by myself...and then realized, even if I brought it down, I wouldn't know how to connect it into the printer. *sigh* So...I ended up going to another lab in LA, and using that crappy old plotter to print. The problem was, that one ran out of paper too. D: Lucky thing is that that printer can feed paper, so, I printed with no problems. It just took a long time because it's an old plotter. And I didn't finish printing everything, and re-plotting everything till 10:30. D:

My dad's in Hong Kong right now...got over there on Tuesday I think. He sent a package to me before he left, and woah~ it's here. Sorry for the crappy blurring attempt...I wasn't really trying. XD

So, yeah, generally, I want to say this is the outcome of me guilt~ing my parents, because they aren't coming to visit me for Thanksgiving after all, for the week and a half they told me back in September. Instead, I get a nice package of food. I don't know, it tends to happen when I'm in res anyways...and they probably would've sent me food either way.
Posted at 4:17PM

October 1, 2009
Yeah...so I didn't get the desk job after all...but, I'm sure it's not all bad. Late hours...there are bad sides to it also. I'll just hope I get a higher paying job over the summer, so it covers what I couldn't make during the year, or during last summer ^^"...

Anywho, today was the presentation for out first design project of the year. We were supposed to go 7th, and then apparently some other group had printing difficulties or something, and so the profs asked the class if there was anyone willing to go in their place. Somehow, my hand just automatically went up, and I could see that Anitha and Jessie were a little mad I did that. But honestly, they were happier when we were done :D ...haha I don't know if things went well or not...but, apparently, we'll get some sort of koodos or something for being prepared enough to take their place. ^^"

I went grocery shopping with my friends around 2pm, and just got back...at 3:20-ish. It was fun though...definitely. Shopping with friends is a lot more fun than shopping by myself. ^^" Apparently, I learned that Vanessa somewhat mad at Angela too. I found out that Angela's going to NYC with Vince. She was telling Lise that she wanted to make her own way to New York, because it was cheaper, and because someone else was coming with her, that wasn't in LA. I don't know, she makes it so obvious...Honestly, to me, either she's too clingy to him, or vice-versa. Vanessa said that the other day, Angela ran out on her when they were working on their design project, because it was their anniversary or something. And Vanessa said, "But like every day's her anniversary."

I only feel like a bad friend, because I feel like...since I was the first to try to break ties with her, everyone else seems to be trying to follow and do the same. That's not really what I wanted. But the attitude she's showing, makes it purely obvious, that she's feeling left out of everything, and trying to replace it with her boyfriend's company.
Posted at 4:17PM

September 29, 2009
Yay~! It's confirmed :D Jun bought me the KAT-TUN photo book~! XD Though, I laughed extremely hard, when he asked me what was wrong with Jin, because the AnAn magazines were apparently all over the front shelves of the bookstores. haha. November is coming closer and closer...and in general, there's never a present I can buy myself to satisfy the fact that it's actually my birthday. But this year, I don't know, with the coming internship...maybe, that'll make me happy. I'm already happy in knowing that my tuition for next semester's only $1400. ^^"

I've been late in blogging...mostly lots of projects that I need to finish, that I've mentioned time and time again. And so, I actually skipped out on church on Sunday, ACF yesterday, and today's girl's group. D: MAN~! If only the stupid project was done already...and didn't have so many parts. The only thing I'm pissed at, is the fact that my prof keeps changing the assignment, and the requirements for it. >.<"

Apparently, the hotel me and my friends booked for NYC, is no longer a requirement. What we found out was, that the reason why she didn't contact any of us for the last meeting, was because she'd lost the lists that everyone signed up on. Vanessa got a call during class today from one of the policemen on campus, asking if she was going on a trip to New York City, and where to return it to. It sounds sketch~ And, it just shows, how much of a retard the case study advisor is now....even more so than we thought before. My dad thinks that I should file a complaint to the school about it, because if some random person got hold of that information, it'd be a HUGE problem~!

Lastly, yes, lastly...what's with Johnny?! D: First, it's news of NEWS's Winter Party Diamond Concert DVD's release, and me knowing I'm broke so I can't get it. I mean, seriously, I just bought KAT-TUN's photo book. XD Then, there's the whole, Yamapi having his first solo con~ And then, Yamapi's new CD release~...all in November. Honestly, being able to go to his solo con for my birthday would've been a blessing, but why does it have to be in November D: Anywho...I'm sure I'll be happier once I get my photo book in hand, and say "Yay" It was worth my $25-30.
Posted at 5:28PM

September 27, 2009
I realized that my memory sucks, because I can't remember anything. My parents asked me where I put the cellphone charger for HK in my room...and obviously, I can't remember. So, I tried telling them all these things, and in the end, I don't think they found it. But honestly, they should know me by now...I'm not going to remember. Even when they were looking for the cellphone itself, I couldn't remember, and had to give them a whole buncha options. D: It's not my fault if something mysteriously disappears...if it did, I wouldn't remember...I know they're not mad at me or anything...they know I'm stressed out with school.

Why can't people become editors without having to be an arts or english major? D: Then again, editors probably don't make a lot of money anyways...but I liked editing...well, along the lines of proofreading, and stuff like that. Like...so maybe my english isn't amazing, and I won't be writing a book anytime soon. But, I love picking up people's mistakes and typos.

I'M TIRED~!! XD I've actually been getting pretty good sleep...well, sleeping late, and waking up late. But, either way, I'm getting the sleep I need. But, it's been pretty much work non-stop since Thursday or Friday. I honestly, can't remember. D: But, I'm finally done with making my resume and portfolio, which I'm extremely happy about. During the week I'd been planning to finish, and I actually wasn't procrastinating with it. I just couldn't think of a good idea to use, that would look professional...I mean, I am getting graded on it... On the other hand, I feel like my CAD project is going nowhere. >.<"

On Saturday, we ended up having a group meeting for the design project that's due Thursday. Apparently, Anitha thought I was fuming mad at Aisha and PJ because they didn't get anything done over the night, and that when they came, they weren't going to do anything either. D: Okay, who wouldn't be mad!? It's better to tell me, I'm not coming today, I need to work. I'll still be mad, but at least not to your face. Well, I guess everything worked out in the end...Jessie and Anitha were supposed to meet today, and apparently got stuff done. I'd asked them the night before on the bus whether they needed me to come, and they told me I wasn't needed. I'm guessing...they're realizing I'm stressed too. I'm the one that formed the group. I'm the glue that makes it stick together. I'm the screams at people when things aren't done so we can finish on time. *sigh* Well, I'm sure...it'll work out, right?

Afterwards, Jessie, Anitha, Anitha's housemate and her friend, and I, ended up taking the hour long bus ride to Woodlawn so we could get to the Ben Thanh. It was fun-filled, even if I didn't know Anitha's housemate and friend. But everything seemed so natural...it was cool. We'd been working in studio till a bit before heading down to Woodlawn...and I was nice, because I did invite Aisha and PJ along, but they said they didn't want to..which I'm okay with...they're busy. It's not my fault if they haven't started their portfolios. Honestly, I procrastinate, but not that much...I mean, I'm the kind of person that procrastinates while working, but in the end I still get things done ahead of time.

I'd asked Angela if she'd wanted to come the day before, and she'd said yes. Then I texted her a bit before the time we'd meet, and she told me she wasn't coming anymore. When I got home from the night, she apparently wrote an email to me a few hours before I'd texted her asking who was going, and that she wasn't going because it was raining outside. Seriously...I was just trying to be nice...because she wanted to hang out. Not everything I do is surrounded by ACF...is it?
Posted at 9:23PM

September 23, 2009
I've been wondering...is it bad to be too happy all the time? I just remember the other day my friend and I were talking, and suddenly she said, "You always seem so happy all the time now." XD I've said it before...that people like hanging out with people that are happy...because in general, they also become happy too.

Yup, so I had my interview today, yes, this isn't the bar position. I think the job I interviewed for is a bit more sketch...cuz I'd be like working night shifts, that start at least at 10. Anywho, I ended up emailing the housing people about the position on Friday early afternoon because the posting on the website had been removed. The lady in charge emailed me back right before office hours ended, with the necessary forms to be filled out. That's when I noticed that the deadline was for the Friday that I had inquired about the job.

So, in the end, she emailed me back Monday morning, with another form she forgot to send, and a reassurance that they were still accepting application forms. So, I got my prof to sign the reference form, and emailed everything off to them, and set up my interview for today. And so...that brings me to today, where I walked out of my dorm at around 10:30 and arrived at the office around 10:45, and I pretty much sat there till 11, when the lady who was going to interview me came over to me. Apparently, the people who interviewed me, weren't actually the ones hiring me...*shrugz* That's kinda weird...but, if I make a good impression, maybe it'll carry over? So, yeah, pretty much, the job's a desk job at the residences...where you like give out keys, and make people sign papers..probably more, but that's all I really remember. And apparently, working in one residence doesn't mean I'll work in the same one another night? Ah~ My schedule's going to be so screwed. XD So, yes, hopefully I get the job :D

Overall today's been a really crazy day, because apparently, there was a meeting for the New York trip, that no one really knew about. Because the teacher in charge that's bringing us is their prof, only the 4th years knew about the meeting. So, me and Jessie got uber worked up and went to find her. I think in general, she almost wouldn't let us go on the trip. But we'd already written our proposals and handed them into Nate, so there's no reason why we're not allowed to go. So, she wrote our names down on the list, and we had to rush off to get money. But in general...she's evol. Apparently, I didn't make it back in time to give my cheques to her, and she told my friend that I should just slide the cheque under her door. That sounded so sketch~! So I ended up asking the program director, who's also her husband, to help me open her door so I could put them on her desk. D: Strange day...I guess...
Posted at 10:47PM

September 22, 2009
Firstly, I just wanted to say how sorry I am for having such long entries these days. When I have a lot on my mind...apparently, that's just what happens...I rant lots. And like I previously said, I'm constantly thinking. And in a way, I'm constantly writing.

I wonder if it's bad...if I like giving people advice? I don't always give good advice...but I feel happier, knowing I can help someone. ^^" I suppose, it's a little saddening, because it was one of the guys I used to have a crush on. But I was trying to help him get the courage to ask this girl he liked that's studying Engineering at UofT, I think to be his girlfriend. XD He doesn't think he has the confidence, but as a person, he has way more than enough. But I don't know...whenever I give people relationship advice, people generally end up together...for a while. It's weird. It's like I'm a match maker...but I can't have my own relationship...maybe I'm destined to be like...eternally single after all? XD

One thing I realize that I don't like people doing...is telling me that they'll do something, and not do it. Someone told me in the morning that they'd go to ACF, and by the time ACF came, she didn't show up. I don't know, I'm told that she's been having family issues all last week, but I find that highly unlikely....it'd be more like...she was extremely ill, which is why she wasn't around for a few days. I don't know...maybe I'm not a very nice person after all...

Honestly, I just feel like she's putting her nose where she doesn't need to be. If I talk about me having an interview, just say, oh, an interview. I think she's really feeling left out lately, because people in general, like being around me because I'm happy, and apparently, happy is more fun to be around then...depressing? I don't know. Anyways, so today during the break (during class time), she pretty much kept trying to talk to me, and she was sitting behind me. I didn't mind it, I in general, have been trying to be...more normal around her. But some times, it doesn't come out normally...I guess. Anyways, I feel like she's trying to steal my possible job options. D: I don't mind her trying to get the job, but if she was one who would tell me to give her the forms, send them to her, and tell her about the job, etc...I'll feel like I'm being used again.

In general, I can't get rid of her. I can't ignore her. I can't just not be friends with her again. I can't feel guilty if she doesn't have a good group of friends in LA anymore. There's only so much I can help someone, without feeling used. And my dad says, that I shouldn't get back into a relationship, if it's going to be like that again...the whole me being used. She randomly stopped over at my room with her boyfriend, before they headed off to the bus for dinner. She said she wanted to see my room...and compared her boyfriend's room size to mine...saying mine was bigger. *shrugz* Well, I think my way of dealing with relationships is...getting harder and harder to understand...and even I'm not understanding I guess.
Posted at 8:56PM

September 20, 2009
I was so sure that I'd started writing this earlier, but I lost my file, I think. D: So, anyways, on with my awesome rants. XD I've realized, honestly, that I space out a lot...in general have become uber scatter brained a lot of the time, I'm extremely forgetful, and I've been stressing a lot in the past few days because of possible overload. Most of the work that I needed finished for the weekend is done, and my group project for design is way ahead of schedule. I like to say, "better early than later". And so, in general, I've put myself somewhat ahead in all of my LA classes, at least for now anyways. Though, that also means, I put myself into a horribly stressful, sleep-deprived situation, but I'm at a good pace nonetheless.

Have you ever just thing, I think I have a social anxiety disorder? In general, I don't know what I have, but maybe just a phobia? Or at least, if I don't have one, I kinda wish I could blame it on that. Like, the whole reasoning behind me being extremely hermit-like, and not really getting out of my room a lot, not wanting to really initiate conversations with people...really depending on the people I'm with sometimes, I really do have supposed symptoms of said disorder.

I've realized I can't really talk to new people unless I'm introduced to new people by people I already know. Sometimes, I just have this unexplainable feeling when I'm with strangers, crowds are horrible, and I do get extremely hot and red when I have to talk in front of groups, small groups are even worse...unless I know all the people really well. And...what else, I guess my ability to talk to people I don't know, kinda went...down over the summer. D: What I've realized sometimes is that the more you think of something being possibly true, the more it becomes true? Well, I guess that's only in some cases. Let's hope that's not the case here...

I realized, I'm really hating this guy in ACF. >.<" He's just...being evol. Firstly, it was on Thursday when I was looking at clubs day booths, and he randomly called me over to sign the sign-up sheet. That's fine. But, I was with friends, and was holding a big roll of paper for my design project. So, I told him to hold it, while I signed. And, he was evil, and wouldn't give me back my papers, so I threatened to whack him if he wouldn't give it to me.

So then...today after church, he pretty much walks over to me puts his arm on my head like a arm rest, and starts talking to me about why I wasn't around on Saturday. I told him how I was working like crazy all weekend, and apparently people don't believe me. Honestly, of all programs I've heard of, I think Landscape Architecture is one of the most looked down upon professions in the world. Or at least to that dude, because every time I tell him I've got three projects due in the next 2 weeks, he's like, "Pfft~ It's just LA, no big deal."

I mentioned the other day, when he was trying to get me to go to the 1st years dinner after ACF, and practically ran across the UC to catch up to me to force me to go too. I don't know...too much teasing, and joking involved maybe? And according to two of my guy friends, told me I should just be straight forward and tell him that he's being an ass. Apparently, my dad thinks that guy just likes me, and I'm totally against that idea. So, I'm a hermit. That's me..."ka-hermit". Perhaps, that's what I'll always be thought of in ACF. In general, I do what I have to do, in order to stay sane. I can seriously feel myself already losing it...which is why I can't wait till January.
Posted at 9:19PM

September 18, 2009
It's weird when you don't notice the transition from Mandarin to Japanese. D: Pretty much, I went to class last night, and then afterwards, I finished my Mandarin homework as well, having to listen to the CDs that came along with it. After I finished, I was watching some trailer for "Mai Mai Miracle", and I seriously still thought it was Mandarin. D:

I spent the better part of today at the UC, figuring out what went wrong with my Work-Study forms. Then, I went to the library to print all the stuff I needed to print as far as projects and pre-proposals go. Then, I went to the grocery story by bus. I quickly finished buying my stuff, waited for the bus to come, and went back to res just in time to meet Jessie at res and walk over to LA together with her. for the meeting about the NYC trip.

I ended up not getting Work-Study, which also means I've got a fairly free schedule. Apparently, I got denied, because my loans that I'm getting are higher than the amount needed to pay my tuition for one semester. D: Even though, I need to pay my tuition for both...it's kinda retarded. But...whatever. As long as they give me financial need and my travel grant I'll be happy...T_T" So, here's hoping?

ARGH~! So much to do this weekend. I've got to finish my proposal for my independent study, for my trip to NYC, so I can get credits for it. And then....I need to finish making my sample portfolio for Professional Practice..and then, I need to finish my base map for my CAD project. D: AH~! And I have a meeting with my group members for my design project tomorrow. Why's there always so little time, but so much to do? It's not like I'm leaving everything till last minute either. >.<"

What can I say...Well, that's all for now. I just realized, I get really tired on Fridays. D: Need to snap out of it, and get back to work....yup, back to work.
Posted at 3:44PM

September 16, 2009
With one thing I can say, I'm extremely disappointed...maybe disappointed is the wrong word, but I'm just sad now. My parents put so much happiness in me, when they told me they'd come visit me in October for Thanksgiving. Instead, because of all the happenings with grandma and all that, dad decided he'd fly to HK for that time period, and mom'd stay home. *sigh* Things...well, I don't know. I guess I misread the email my aunt sent to my dad. Pretty much, the meaning was my aunt wanting my dad to get to HK ASAP. Well, either way, I'm sad. D: I was really hoping my parents would come...and Thanksgiving of all times, when everyone's gonna be in Toronto. I'm gonna be stuck in Guelph, alone, like always...

Right now, I feel like an empty hole, but I'm sure I'll be fine by tomorrow...It's just that, they kept telling me that they'd be coming, and they gave me so much hope. And in the end I know I shouldn't be so selfish, but it hurts. But either way, like I said, I'll probably get over it in a few days.

But, in brighter news, the plan right now, is that I'm missing a day of school, and going to go to New York City for a few days in mid-October. It's going to count as credits for a course, so I won't have to worry about writing a paper while I'm on internship in Hokkaido, which would be awesome. Sure enough, I'll have to pay for the bus down and back, as well as hotels for the few days. But it sounds like Vancouver trip all over again, and it's gonna be awesome~! :D

I told my dad about it, and he said, he'd priority mail me my passport if I really wanted to go. I'm guessing, he's feeling a little guilty about abandoning me after telling me time after time that they'd come see me. So, I can go to NYC~ AH~! I haven't been in so long, it's gonna be awesome! XD

In the mean time, I have to write my proposal to go. Apparently, my program counselor's been getting weird messages from the admin people at uni, saying that our case study courses don't seem like real courses or something. So, now, we have to write proposals to go, which is like, the intention, and what we hope to get out of where we go; as well as what we'd like to see and do. In general, it's easy..I just need to write it..finish writing. D:
Posted at 6:07PM

September 15, 2009
So, yeah, Angela's boyfriend ended up asking me if I wanted to go to his birthday dinner. That is, he asked me in front of Angela...so, either he wanted things to be better between us, or Angela is oblivious to fact that I'm still a bit edgy around her. Well, either way, I can't go, because tonight I have Chinese...In all honesty, even though my dad tells me it's not worth my time to keep thinking about it, it's hard to stop.

I remember way back when I watched Saiunkoku Monogatari. :D I spent the better part of the weekend downloading the 1st season. Well, I love the art~ And, it's rare for me if I watch oldern time anime...wasn't there another one...what's it called...Haranaku something something...XD I still have to finish Tsubasa Chronicles too D:

I guess...I've got to be more open to people? I did end up rushing through today. I had myself booked from 10 till 8:30. I pretty much had straight class from 10 till 4. I went back to res afterwards, started cooking dinner, and next thing you know, I was late for Girl's Group. That's right, apparently, I'm a bit of a hypocrite, cuz I decided, 'what the hey...' and just kinda got up and went. And, yeah, as for icebreaker events, it was quite fun. But honestly, Tuesdays are my busiest days, so I don't know how often I'll go. But we'll see. So, around 6:45, I rushed off to my Chinese class. Honestly...maybe I should've taken conversational. XD Or maybe I'll take conversational along with the follow up one of the one I'm taking in 4th year? I'm running out of time. D:

I've been pretty much saying it since forever, but grandma's not doing all too good. She's still doing the whole...changing of her blood every week..I'm not sure what that's called...but someone always does know...XD And so, I guess things are getting worse and worse, so even my aunties and uncles who are Catholic want to convert her to God before she dies. Apparently, my aunt sent an email to my dad to ask if he had friends that could come and talk to her. It's like...dude, we're in Canada, you guys are in HK...um...something wrong with that picture? Well, either way, my parents plan to come pick me up from Hokkaido when I go, so, they'll probably go to HK first. Hopefully...grandma will hold out till then?
Posted at 9:14PM

September 14, 2009
What can I say...except that I'm spazzing because the mp3 of Jin singing Bandage at TGC (Tokyo Girls Collection) was leaked (and uploaded by . Either way, I'm seriously (∩゜∀｀∩)ｷｬ━━ｯ!! right now...and no joke. XD Now, for hopes someone will post the video of it soon. :D It's a surprisingly good recording for...well, the way most fan recordings are~ I guess it is a lot different than what KAT-TUN usually sings...but maybe that's what I like about it...well, that and of course, it's purely Jin's voice alone. XD

Okay, so aside from me totally spazzing, and kyaa~ing like crazy...on one hand, my internet has been a little whacked out because my FTP stopped working, my keyhole stopped working too D: But, my internet speed is like wicked...and I don't have a bandwidth limit seemingly living in residence. :D Yeah...I'm still trying to figure out what's wrong...but I can't figure it out, and my dad's checked with one of his co-workers again...but it doesn't really seem like it's my computer's fault either. I think it has something to do with the type of connection I have maybe? I'll have to try disconnecting everything over the weekend, and see how things go, I think...It takes up too much time to do it now. XD

Today's the first ACF meeting of the year~ What can I say...really, I just find ACF depressing sometimes. D: They almost always go to dinner after, and sure, I know that ahead of time. But, maybe I should've lied and said I had a night class? *shrugz* I don't know. But when I've already eaten before before ACF, and continually, people ask me to go...it's not gonna make me want to go even more or anything. So, no, I honestly don't have anything against ACF. But, seriously, can't they let me off the hook, if I want to be a loner?

Icebreaker games are always fun...yeah...not much to say about it. I realize, that in groups, I end up being more...well, not open. When I'm one on one with people, I tend to be friendly...maybe, without trying? But I'm the kind of person that'll be friendly when I want to be, and a loner when I want to be...as contradicting as that may sound. I should stop talking...I'm making myself confused. >.<"

It's not weird for a person that's normal sized, to go on a diet, is it? So, mid-way through the summer, I've pretty much stopped eating snacks, and stopped eating after 8. Pretty much, have been on this minus the bananas. XD I should really go buy some...bananas that is...I think I've been having way too much green in my diet, and not enough fruit. D: But, that's what I get for trying to finish all my veggies my dad bought for me before he left. Though...finishing one pack in like a week..eh...I'll have to buy more soon, probably. XD
Posted at 8:32PM

September 13, 2009
After church, I ended up going to Mountain with a 1st year, because...I don't know. XD To me, when you meet 1st years on the first Sunday, don't you think they should all go out to eat together somewhere? At least, that's the kind of impression I get. So, everyone generally seemed to part ways from church. Alex went with Shirley and her sister to get free lunch. XD And I was left with Vivien = 1st year. Anyways, it sounds like I'm talking as if she's just extra baggage, sorry.

No, she's not like that at all. I just thought it'd be nice to eat lunch on campus, so I didn't need to make lunch either. XD And, I did this last year too...from what I remember, even though I didn't even live on campus. Anywho, we ended up both eating mac & cheese. XD Either way, it was yummy. :D

Once I got home, I ended up watching two episodes of Sekai no Hate Made Itte Q. I've never actually sat through an entire episode of it, but it's quite interesting. Apparently, it's a show for like kids to watch? But, yeah, it's pure awesome :D It was the episode with Miyagawa Daisuke, and the thrill rides. Ah yes, while I'm at it, Can Jani! Is awesome too. XD Honestly...NewS needs their own show too...even if they'd be bad at hosting one. You can't get better at something, if you don't try, right?

I've learned to make congee with my rice cooker. I've learned to make rice with my rice cooker without burning. D: The first time I tried cooking rice with this rice cooker, there was a burning smell coming from it. Now, there's no smell. I'm not sure what was going on that time...but it was scary, cuz Aisha and Pojing were over too. XD So, I ended up making this big bowl of congee, and then some dumplings, bak choy, and cut mushrooms...oh~ and some kind of beef fish-ball like things. That was lots! I'm amazed I finished it all. XD Do you ever find, that if you don't intend on making leftovers, you somehow end up finishing what you cook? I've still yet to eat my grass jelly D: OH~! And I still haven't opened my soy sauce either. XD I need to cook something yummy soon~ ...haha, not that, what I've been making lately isn't. But...I'm sure once things get busier, I'm going to be eating cafeteria food a lot more. D:
Posted at 6:31PM

September 11, 2009
I've officially moved my blog. That is, not that my LJ isn't really my blog...but, my FTP's been acting up like crazy ever since I moved into res, and I can't deal with it failing on me. If I can't update there, I'll end up loosing my hosting from my hostess anyways...so I decided, I'll just move my entire site over to a free server...that is, even if popups or ads will probably pop soon...And so, TA-DAH~! I moved it to here. Now, I just need to remember I'm no longer using FTP, but just uploading, like...I did back a long time ago when I was using geocities...eck.

I guess...the move doesn't really affect you guys, I just felt like putting that out there. The blog, generally has the same stuff you're reading here compared to over there. Just that my writing site is over there too. :D

First day of classes. Wow. XD Well, honestly speaking, nothing really happened. I left my res at around 9:10 and got all my loan forms signed and sent. Then, I was going to get the new bus sticker...but there was such a long line, since it just opened when I got there, I ended up heading over to the LA building, and sitting there waiting for class to start. It was design class, and now we get two new profs. Well, they're nice, I'm sure it'll be fine. Anitha cut her hair, and it's mad short. XD But it looks good nonetheless.

I did end up seeing Angela, and so many things seemed to have changed. She did get her ears pierced, and she got braces. I don't understand why she needs them...but okay. So, there wasn't any like...WWF smack down or anything. She acted normally like I was still her friend. But I know she's trying to make a bit of distance. When we chose desks in studio, she chose one near us, which is like, PJ, Aisha, and all of us that we've been a group since 1st year, she ended up sitting on the other side of the room with someone else. *shrugz* So, I'm not all to sure what's up with her, but the fact that she didn't talk to me after that...means she's not happy about something. But...I don't know, I think she's mad at me, because I made new friends in LA and she doesn't like the fact that I'm seemingly talking to them more. Anitha and Jessie ended up living in res in east also, which I think puts her off a bit too. *sigh* My dad told me I should just stop thinking about her...and all the fuss. It's not worth my time anymore rotting out my brain trying to figure out what's going on.

Chinese class was...well, interesting. The prof speaks in like really broken english, which I assume is common in Beijing. So the first class was pretty much...introductions, overview of the course, and like..watching a video about China. Yeah...well, hopefully, it gets more interesting once we actually start learning. ^^" Apparently, lots of people want to get into the class, but the prof doesn't want more than 25 people. XD Ah~ And there was no Chinese people at all from what I saw. It was majority koreans, white people, and three Japanese people. It was...well, somewhat awkward to sit there and realize I was the only Chinese...perhaps, if there were other Chinese people, they didn't pass the prof's evaluation when they tried to apply for the class?
Posted at 1:11PM

September 10, 2009
Generally, I find that if I see other people in LA that I don't really talk to, randomly on the street talking to me...I find that strange. XD Perhaps, it's because we're starting 3rd year, and now it's okay to talk to everybody in the program. XD Jun said it was because I have this "aura" or something...that somehow I kinda stand out now and when you walk up to me it's like..."It's Kat." Mmm...that's the only reason why, I don't think...more or less feel like I'm in 1st year anymore, even if I may still look like it.

So, Jun came up yesterday :D Ended up having lunch at the UC, and then talking till like 4-ish. I stole his laundry card. XD So, I guess...I thought wrongly...because I'd thought that I'd have to buy the card, and then add money on it. Anywho, Jun still has money on it XD I don't know, I was sure in first year, I had to buy the card and then add money on it, which was why at the end of first year, instead of keeping it, I put the card with no money on it, into a contest-draw thing, and I didn't win anything. XD Well, either way, I have one. haha.

I miss watching Music Station. But apparently all those clips of Bandage are driving me insane. T_T" It doesn't come out till January. D: I suppose the CD release will have to be something to hold me off till then...that is, when it does actually release, right? XD It's rare when I listen to THSK/DBSK. Either way, somehow I'm hooked on Jaejoong and Yoochun's Colors ~Melody & Harmony~. It's just really pretty...the song and the lyrics.

Ah~ First day of classes today~! So, I'm headed to the UC to get my bus sticker and get my loan forms signed before my classes. Ah~ Design class and Chinese~ Well, I'll probably post again later about how things go.
Posted at 9:04AM

September 9, 2009
The room I'm living in is surprisingly quite soundproof. The things I can hear though, are ths sounds coming from outside. If I turned my music on, and walked down to the kitchen, I wouldn't be able to hear it, nor would I if I walked to the bathroom. So, I was impressed. XD Cuz, I'm still debating whether I'll be singing/recording it while I'm at uni.

Anyways, today, it's September 9, 2009. :D My dad pointed it out to me yesterday, so I thought, I'd have to post. XD Apparently people have learned how to find my blog now. Some people have even found my youtube channel where I post me singing. XD Anywho, I was surprised to find out about that.

I got woken up this morning, because I thought I heard people talking next door really loudly...next door as in the townhouse over. But I was totally wrong. The towers had a fire alarm, so all the first years came out and were standing outside talking at 8 in the morning. Yeah...nice way to wake up I suppose...but I would've gotten up eventually anyways.

The plan was to go buy a laundry card, and scan more projects. But...a friend's coming up from Toronto, so I can always do that later. Or...later on in the day I suppose. XD I don't feel like getting out of the house yet. XD Tomorrow's the start of school...yeah, one day of school, and then a long weekend.
Posted at 10:31AM

September 7, 2009
So after my dad left, I spent a bit of time in my room just trying to figure out my internet. Ends up, I was trying to use wifi, when I should be directly connected to the phone. XD I totally forgot I was connected to the phone, which would mean, I should be connected to the resnet. *shrugz* Anywho, I had to borrow a cord from a friend, and in return go with him to watch the pep rally. Anywho, I got somewhat black-mailed into going with him to watch from about 5:45-ish to around 7-ish? It was fun, I admit. XD Though, sometimes I wonder if having random guys strip and run across the field during such an event a given in most circumstances. haha.

But seriously, having to go through two hours to get a cord to have better internet is so much more worth it, then to have to buy a new one, or have to live the rest of the semester on sucky wireless. T_T"

What's with first years, and them wanting to buy the wrong book? T_T" Honestly, I have things to do, don't waste my time. *sigh* So, I ended up not being able to sell my bio book after all...I'll really have to figure out what to do with it, or hopefully, somebody else will buy it. Anyways, I'm just glad that there was another few people that asked me for the same book...so, I'll have to sell it to one of them instead some time this week, hopefully.

It was weird, yesterday, I watched a news clip on Dream Boys, and the song they had been singing was Real Face, but the news people had named it Seishun Amigo. XD And then at the end of the clip, they mentioned that it was wrong. Does that sort of thing usually happen? XD

Can I just say...everyone's kyaa~ing to the fact that Jin's having a solo debut because of his movie Bandage. :D Yes, Lands to release a debut CD coming out this autumn. XD Is that even possible? I didn't realize Johnny's could do that. XD But either way, I'm totally excited. :D I think...honestly, this is like, the year for Jin. So many good things coming for him ^^" Ah~ But I suppose, it's also kind of a given, being that Jin is the main vocalist in the movie too, right?

I only just yesterday was finally able to find time to look through the entirety of KAT-TUN's "Break The Records" Live Document Photobook. :D Yes, it's most definitely, worth the buy...now I have more stuff to add to my checklist, when I go back to Japan. XD
Posted at 8:33PM

September 6, 2009
It's been so long, have you guys forgotten me? XD Pretty much, the last few days I've been running around doing everything from moving to buying stuff for my new dorm room. Anywho...yeah, I guess I'll do a short recap.

Sept. 2nd - The Flight:
Pretty much, once we arrived to Hamilton, we rented a car, and drove to my school to put down my luggage that I'd brought, and then drove to Brantford and went out to East Side Mario's for dinner.

Sept. 3rd - Brantford:
We got up early, and drove to my old house and moved my stuff out to move into my dorm, unpacked everything, and packed everything that was needed to be brought back to Edmonton. We went to buy a bit of drinks and stuff at the Walmart, then went back to Brantford. I'm highly regretting not bringing my DS. T_T" Why? Because I bought a game, and I want to play it. XD That, and I could totally get it modded and buy more games at Pacific Mall later...or so my cousin says.

Sept. 4th - Toronto:
Got up early, to go to school again. We left the drinks and a bit of luggage, and went to Toronto to have dim sum with auntie and uncle. Apparently, my cousin was sick, so he was worried he'd get kicked back out of his school, because his school sent them a checklist of all the stuff they have to bring to prevent any H1N1 outbreaks or something. XD Afterwards, we ended up going to CNE, and went to someone else's house to stay the night.

Sept. 5th - Toronto:
We ate brunch, which was dim sum again at around 11, and then went to a Chinese Christian book sale. Afterwards, we bought a bit of groceries, and back to Guelph we went. My dad checked into the hotel across the street, and I got the keys officially for my room.

Sept. 6th - Guelph:
I woke up uber early, if 6 counts as early, and called my dad's cell, only to find that his phone is no longer in service. Well, the plan was cut, I guess. So, I lazily got out of bed and used my computer to find the number for the hotel, called my dad, and he came over to pick me up. I had free breakfast at the hotel, and then we watched TV til about 9:30-ish, when we checked out and headed to church. I saw a few people I hadn't planned to see...I mean, there is a reason why I haven't given out my number to some people yet. T_T"

So, dad wanted to do a bit of filming on campus, so we parked the car, and started walking around a bit, and I showed him LA. It was totally empty! So strange, though, that's when I realized it was a Sunday. XD Anywho, then, we went towards Johnston, and back towards the UC. There was free cotton candy, so I went over. So, yeah...they're all frosh events. XD The guy asked me if I knew what college I'm in, and no, it's not referring to what the name of our uni is. I just said mine, and smiled, and kept walking, grabbed it, and left. XD I feel old now. XD I bought my Chinese books, which I'm pretty happy about, because they were supposed to total $80, and it ended up around $75. Not too much of a difference, but it's something.

I need to go sell my bio book tomorrow too...but, generally, I've got nothing to do. T_T" I'm so bored!! Oh yes, and I'm getting absolutely sucky connection to wifi. I have a feeling, I'm going to be spending a lot of time at the library. XD
Posted at 9:33PM

August 31, 2009
The start of my weekend was filled with...first getting a supposed virus, then getting it checked on Friday, and not getting my laptop back till Sunday night. I ended up using my back-up laptop for a bit, but it was extremely slow, so I didn't reply a lot, nor even post. So, sorry about that. But, it seems all's fixed, and my laptop fan's fixed too. :D Yeah, all in a nick of time....I'm quite happy I guess...I have a feeling I'm behind on a lot of things...but, that's okay. All I can say is, the first clip I watched was Imoto getting to the finish line, and it was...me = cry. XD

I downloaded all of 24hr TV, and will watch it probably throughout the rest of the week, if I get time. I'm also leaving on Wednesday so I won't be updating after that till probably the 6th or the 7th? I even downloaded 2006's 24hr TV, for the heck of my having nothing to do. XD So, yeah...I just felt like seeing what it was all about I guess.

I'm still crazily packing, but I've been thinking weird thoughts again, like I always do. Why is it that people come to talk to you, to ask you when you leave, right before you leave? T_T" It's weird, but it's been seriously happening to me the last few weeks, and it's weird. Do you want me to leave that much? XD haha, I know they don't, but, I just don't understand why you leave things till the end...
Posted at 11:26PM

August 26, 2009
Yup, nice and short this time :D I promise. It's almost as if every time vacation's about to end, about a week or two before school starts up again, LA decides to screw me over. What do I mean? For those who don't know, LA = Landscape Architecture, the program I am in. And, so, last year before going back to school, they sent an email saying we had a project and it was due the day after I flew back to Guelph. And now, this year, they've sent an email telling me to get ready hard and soft copies of previous projects for first day of classes, that I think are best, in order to create a portfolio for a project due at the end of September. Sure enough, you may say that gives you lots of time. When in fact, I don't start school till September 10th, and all my projects are in Guelph! T_T" So, I've got a total about 3 days to get all that done. Great. In the end, I'm always able to make the impossible, possible. But, I just like to spazz and rant, and worry all the while till it's complete. T_T"

In other news, my new phone makes me smile. It's a "Pay as You Go" phone, therefore, not as amazing, as I'd wish it to be...it's flat...and bright blue. XD So, I'm gonna be cautious of who I give my phone number to, because I only have $100 to use for the whole year, and I pay for everything - whether it be incoming calls, long-distant calls, text messages, etc. T_T" And, I have a feeling, I'm gonna be paying a lot for long-distance. XD

Posted at 11:26PM

August 25, 2009
Please someone tell me, how can someone be considered a friend, if all they do is make fun of you, and tell you all your faults, and criticize you all the time? T_T" I can understand if they tell you when they see it, so that you can change, but there's just a point when it gets too much. Anyways, I've got this friend who just keeps saying things like "You're being lazy," "You're gonna get fat," "You're doing nothing all summer," and "Why didn't you try harder to get a summer job?" Honestly, it's no wonder things have led me to go on a diet. T_T"

And, it's not even like I think I'm really fat in the first place. It's just how things turned out in the end. Wonder why I debate friends? Maybe, that's why...Anyways, it's either he's just being pure evol to me, or he likes me, that's the only conclusion I can ever get, after all. I've realized that guys are generally always really nice to me at the beginning, then we become friends, then they start being mean to me. T_T" What's with that? I mean, it's one thing to tease, it's another thing to say something offending. Maybe I should just go back to being a loner after all?

And, I can admit, I'm extremely unhappy with the news of there being no NewS winter concert dvd after all...T_T" But, at least 24hr Terebi's coming up soon, and I'll have something to watch soon? I miss seeing them all together.

I went bowling with my parents for free (because one of my dad's companies was paying for the day, and we got to go...I guess?). Anyways, we ended up playing less than one game of bowling, and I suck, big time. XD Playing on Wii seriously, is so much easier. :D I get strikes a lot easier, at least. XD I kept getting gutterballs, and, I realized how much I suck...not that I didn't know in the first place, I guess. When I had to bowl for one gym class, I was generally just as bad. XD So, after our time was up, we couldn't extend the time limit, because more people wanted to play. So, we ended up playing pool for the rest of the time we were there. Honestly, I miss playing it...we used to have a mini-version at our house in CT, and it's mad fun. :D

And lastly, I thought I'd post one my solos (which technically, I posted somewhere else first, but...), that I'm adding into my covers album. So, the first track's Sawajiri Erika's Stay With Me, from the Taiyou no Uta J-drama. I actually didn't like the drama all that much, compared to the movie, and I an't sing the other song that she sang in the drama at all. T_T" But, I guess I'm trying. XD You can listen to it here.
Posted at 9:12AM

August 24, 2009
So, yeah, about a week left (9 days to be exact) before I'm off. :D Honestly, it's only really started hitting me today that I'm going to be going into my 3rd year at uni, and that I'm getting old. XD Sure enough, everyone's still telling me I look 12...T_T" But, that happens I suppose. I hung out with my friend the other day, and apparently, she thinks I don't try hard enough to look older, and this is the result. But, *shrugz* maybe she's right, and that's why I'm still single. XD But more than anything, it's still a choice, right?

Somehow, I feel like writing again...as in stories. I mean, I started when I was 10...and, okay, they were horrible stories. But, it was a way for me to just express myself. And, I've got lots of ideas again. :D Though, time on the other hand, is something I don't have a lot of. So, the goal for this year (As in...the school term, I suppose), "Keep going forward, and enjoy doing things, as if they were your last." Though, not literally, but...you know what I mean.

I find it odd, when you haven't seen friends in forever, then you realize over a year, they have a boyfriend. A year's a lot of time. Perhaps, I'm just out of the loop...a lot. People apparently have been mad at me again, because I haven't been on MSN. It's not my fault, honestly. It's just something I don't like doing all too often in the summer...because I'm trying avoid people that I know from Guelph. It's not like I hate them and never want to see them again, or something like that. It's just...it's summer. I need a break from the facade...this good girl facade.

Someone once told me, that there's no point in having friends, if you have to put up a facade. And I like being in Edmonton, and at home, because I can be both. My parents have seen both. Sometimes, I feel like...what's it...like Tommy heavenly7 and Tommy february7? Mmm..like, that you have two sides, but you can't really see it, but you're still the same person. At times I may be like this quiet, shy, fob-by, Chinese girl. Other times, I'm just your average, everyday, somewhat nerdy girl. And maybe others, I'm just pure evol. XD But, you know....it's hard I guess...after a while. Putting up so many facades, and you start to wonder, which one is the real you? And if you don't know, how is anyone else supposed to know? But in reality, you're all three, but you only show people one side. So, when people see you acting another way, they think something's wrong with you. That's my conclusion really for the summer...somewhat, discovering myself.
Posted at 12:41AM

August 22, 2009
I had thought about taking on a project that I'd call "One Kat a Day", which would be me posting a picture of me everyday, probably on my facebook, because if I did it on LJ, I'm sure you guys would be creeped out. XD After finally getting through a 3rd of the memoir "Julie & Julia", that's the idea I came up with. XD But that's when I realized, the idea sounds extremely narcissistic, which would probably be the reason why I wouldn't do it. XD I'll have to come up with some other idea to keep me occupied throughout the year.

And so, a week and four days left till I go back to Guelph. :D I don't know really, whether I should be happy or sad. I just know that having time away from my family might be a good thing...I won't get mad at them as quickly as I do when I get back. Though on the other hand, there's lots of other worries that'll come about once I arrive back in Guelph. There are friends that are friends. There are friends that seem like enemies. That's really all I can say. Let's just say, I'm glad that I found out my exam dates already, I'm done on December 8th, which means I'll probably be back in Edmonton the night of the 8th. :D That also means, I get a good month in Edmonton till I'm off in Hokkaido - well, here's hoping...cuz I am still hoping.

I'm always amazed how well I pick courses, so that I leave so early. And, this time, it was entirely unintentional...because I had assumed that my Chinese course would be on the second to last day of exams, like it always is, but apparently not this year. :D So, yeah, I've only got one exam officially during exam week, and I probably have one more exam for LA Construction and another for LA professional practice the week before that...but all's good, for now anyways. ^^" And of course, I always get envied by other ACF members who always complain to me asking, "Why do you always leave so early?" and "Don't you want to hang out with us?" Well...I want to go home. It's not my fault that you guys live like an hour away from school. I like about 4-5 hours away by plane. T_T"

Why are there so many "Bring It On" movies? I watched the 5th one just recently, and was laughing my way through it. That and, you can tell that it's extremely low-budgeted. The cheerleaders couldn't even cheer properly. They couldn't jump properly. T_T" And the big battle at the end, like always, on both teams, you could see people falling on the sides. What's with that? I suppose, that's the reason they go straight to DVD now. But, really. I wasted my time.

AH~ AND...I finally got my cooling pad for my laptop, and I'm extremely happy. That way, I don't need an extra fan to cool it off on the side and make me cold anymore. XD And, hopefully, my laptop won't automatically turn off on me anymore. :D But, it also mean another thing that needs to be packed..*sigh* honestly...it's coming a lot quicker than I realized. Now, it's just my phone left...and hopefully, I get that back soon. T_T" I just hope all goes well, and it gets unlocked, and I'd go buy my SIM card, and then I can figure out if my phone has an alarm...which it should, right? XD

So, yeah, it's probably really early for a head's up - which I'm probably going to say again later, but I'll probably be not updating for a week once I get settled into res (Sept. 2-6). Mostly because once I get over there, I'm going to be living off my relatives for those few days, and I don't officially start living in res till the 6th. ^^" But I think...if I didn't tell you guys, you wouldn't have really known...XD
Posted at 9:45AM

August 19, 2009
Haha, so the other day when I hung out with Silu, it was pure awesome. XD My dad drove us to the Southgate mall, which we did actually walk around for a bit, but didn't really go into any store. We ended up taking the bus to South Commons, grabbing lunch at Montana's, and then going to watch a movie...or 2. XD So, yeah, we couldn't really decide on a movie, she wanted to see Ponyo, and G-Force...and I wanted to see Bandslam - which is mostly because I'm a sucker for movies with Vanessa Hudgens in them...and I guess a plus, was Alyson Michalka ^^" But...yeah, I still didn't get to see it. XD Hopefully soon. ^^" Anywho, we ended up buying tickets to go see "The Ugly Truth" which has Katherine Heighl. I just happen to like her because she was in one of my favorite Disney Channel movies...That and it's rare to see famous people with the same spelling of my name. XD

Anywho, we went to watch "The Ugly Truth", which I shall say, is extremely perverted, and filled with sexual inuendo. XD But it was funny..in a...weird kind of way. The funniest part, I'd say, is that we'd here weird "Oh, God" and "Oh, come on" complaints from behind us, and we'd keep laughing at them. And at the end of the movie, we waited till we were almost the last out of the theater, and we found out, there was a group of elderly ladies sitting behind us. XD I don't think they understood what kind of movie they were paying to watch. XD Then again, we didn't either. Silu had just suggested it to me, by saying chick flick. XD

So, after the movie, it was already 4:50-ish, so, we walked around to see what other movies were on, and were like "OMG~! G-Force is on at 5!" And we'd need to steal 3-D glasses...so, maybe we shouldn't. So, we ended up going into that theater and when there weren't any employees around, she opened one of those recycle-your 3-D glasses boxes, and saw all these glasses. So, I just laughed and told her, if she's getting them, get one for me too, and we ended up going to the bathroom to wash them, and then going in to watch the movie also. XD It was seriously a hilarious process. I only ever do watch more than one movie at a movie theater when I'm with Silu or Jade. XD But yeah, now we have a highlight for the summer - stealing 3-D glasses. :D

Anyways, so once the movies were over, it was already about 6:45-ish, I called my dad to pick us up and drive us back...yeah, that's the sorta thing that happens when you're neighbors. XD But apparently, we have perfect timing, because we missed the thunderstorm that was happening when we were in the theater, and then we got home right before it started up again. ^^"

And so, I'm happy because the first PP (i.e. Personal Project) I was in at Breaking Records was released. XD Well, it's kinda like an ero-ero song....and a really high song. So, if you feel like hearing me totally fail, or just feel like trying to find my voice, you can follow the lyrics here, and listen to it here. In general, the plan was to finish off the summer with creating an album of my own of covers. I'm not sure if I'll post it, but I'm sure some of you will find your way to it, if you're really interested.
Posted at 6:05PM

August 18, 2009
The weirdest thing you could ever find out about yourself. Honestly, what could it be? For me, apparently, it's having random bruises appear throughout the day...randomly. So, when I was brushing my teeth a few nights ago, and looking at the mirror, I found out I had this big bump on my forehead, which pretty much indicates that I've somehow hit my head somewhere...at some point that day, doesn't it? So, yeah, that's what I've learned this summer...I'm really clumsy.

I'm trying to study kanji, but I've lost my will to continue. XD But, someone, please, can anyone tell me the difference between "仲間" and "友達"? Like, where's the line between the two? Cuz, I think I know what it means - the differences between the two...yet, at the same time...it seems like they kinda can be used interchangeably. It was ...just a random thought...it's not exactly what I've been studying. XD The only good news about having nothing to do all summer is that I went from Level 1 to level 3 in kanji. Though, it's one thing to say that you're at a certain level, it's another thing to actually be at that level. I can't remember from where, but someone told me that Japanese gets harder and harder to learn, the more advanced you get, or something like that? Generally, I find basics easy, it's the speaking it without an accent (or, speaking it so that people can actually identify what you've said), and reading kanji that I find to be hard. XD

It's been really weird actually, that I've been into dance music so much lately. XD ...or at least, what I think to be dance music. Seriously, Big Bang's new Japanese album is amazingly awesome. :D Though, I'm trying to figure out if they're considered techno as well. XD But, yeah, I find it strange that I won't like Korean bands, but I'll like Korean bands that'll end up singing Japanese songs. XD Like, that's how I ended up liking DBSK, aside from the fat tha I really liked 'Rising Sun'. BoA...I think the first song I heard from her was like 'Atlantic Princess', but the only melody I can remember is 'Shine We Are'.

I'm going out today with Silu and I think Jade too...to Southgate. But, yeah, I didn't want to mention that I've been there at least 7 times since the new section was opened. T_T" But, it's okay, just for company I suppose. We live on the same street, so, it's bound to happen at least once each summer. ^^" This is probably really repetitive, but I've started doubting friendships a really long time ago. What is a friend? Someone you can just label as a friend, or someone that's actually there for you when you have troubles, that you can tell things to? Cuz, currently, I feel like I don't really have any of those ('cept maybe one or two, in real life anyways), and that's why I write everything into my blog.
Posted at 10:14AM

August 16, 2009
So...what's to say? My sister came back on Friday. I got a wake up call on Saturday morning, because my sister didn't seem to have slept, and my mom woke up early. Therefore, they were talking lots about her trip. That, and somehow after her coming back, she's been talking really loud. T_T" And, my mom's weird, because when someone talks to her loud, she'll unintentionally also raise her volume. In the end, even though my door was closed, I was woken up at 9. Therefore, it was the second day of me having 6 hours of sleep. 6 hours of crappy sleep.

Nonetheless, there are good sides to having Kim home. One, I got cute goodies. Not much though. XD The thing about mission trips, is you can't really buy a lot...in a sense that you really shouldn't be showing off the amount of money you have on you, and stuff like that. Two, Kim's good at buying stuff for other people. So, I've somehow obtained Fahrenheit's newest album, as well as KAT-TUN's Cartoon KAT-TUN II YOU and Queen of Pirates albums. Unfortunately, the KAT-TUN CDs are definitely bootleg, but it's cool to have it sit on my shelf. That and it only cost like $4 :D Apparently the Fahrenheit one only cost what...$7...and it came with a nice big poster that's now on my wall. But now...I guess I'm debating whether I should sell my Cartoon KAT-TUN II You CD that I have...hahah, nah~ not yet. XD


And yeah, it's almost already that time, with less than 3 weeks, I'm going back to Guelph. T_T" Which means, I'll have less time for singing. XD But yeah, I didn't realize how fast August has passed. And it's been so cold and rainy lately. It sucks. T_T"

On the hand, I'm getting a little uneasy with how fast things are coming, and how much I've got planned for when I get back. XD I still need to find a date for my interview...I still need to move in, I still need to finish packing. This is how bad my room looks...when I'm too lazy to clean it up and pack it. XD And...which stuffed animal should I bring back to Guelph with me? Help me decide? XD Cuz I only have room for one. T_T"

Posted at 4:11PM

August 13, 2009
Lately, I've just been playing with my DS maybe way to much than I should be. That is, and I only have two games of Brain Age. I spent the better part of yesterday singing like no one was around again. I ended up watching Hannah Montana The Movie, and went OMG~! Those pink speakers in the movie are the exact same ones I was showing off at the beginning of summer that I had bought for like $7. XD



>.<"!!! Kyaaa~!! So apparently the release date for BANDAGE is finally out~ January 16, 2010~ I'm excited now, for Hokkaido....haha, not that I wasn't before, but, you know what I mean. ^^"

My sister comes home tomorrow from her almost-month-long mission's trip~ Well, that'll make it harder to sing XD We still have yet to paint the deck, but there's been a lot of random raining lately, so it's been hard to think of a time when that wouldn't happen. I'm sleepy. And to think I'm gonna have to change back to Ontario in only a few weeks...*sigh* Well, maybe that's why I'm always tired...I never get a stable time zone to stay in for a year? I don't know. I'm justifying myself I suppose...even though I know it's not true because other people I know from other places don't have that problem.

Apparently, I've broken my mic, and I'm really sad. XD It still works, but just creates more sound in the background than usual...it's annoying me.

EDIT: Apparently, firefox hates me and my emoticons, because I'm using the Japanese encoding...and no matter which ones I use, apparently, they don't show up properly on here. T_T" Gomen. They seem to show up on my LJ fine though. XD
Posted at 4:40PM

August 11, 2009
Honestly, I think I went a little Buzzer Beat obsessed. I downloaded the 5th episode right when it was released, and watched through it last night. Seriously, I think the thing is that the characters are actually pretty relatable, even though they do seem kinda out there at times. I'm not sure whether it's because I'm a musician or not, but once I heard the violin, I started crying. T_T" Seriously, stop making me cry Pi. XD And I was amazed that I understood every bit of it easily. I did find that though, my pronunciation when I speak Japanese is a little bit still like a foreigner though. T_T" So, yeah, I need to fix that. haha.

That makes me somewhat depressed I suppose...remember how I'd said I get sucked into characters...yeah, I suppose that's not just for books either, dramas too. Apparently, songs make me like that too...T_T" I've been listening to Disney Channel Stars's new song Send it On. It's totally supposed to be an upbeat song I think, but I totally picture it being sad now...Yeah...I should really stop. But like, if you listen to it right after watching Buzzer Beat, it's totally something that would make you just want to cry more. XD

I've already started packing for Guelph. Have I mentioned that already? I've already started repacking also. haha. I'm still wondering how everything'll fit, but I'm sure it'll work out. :D That is, if only friendships could be fixed as quick as a luggage repacking. ^^" I even finished a book last night, it was "The Undomestic Goddess" by Sophie Kinsella. Seriously, I've been uberly amazed with myself, with how much I'm reading. I'm breaking some sorta record or something, in my own life anyways. XD Somehow, I just didn't want to sleep and stayed up to finish it.

Anywho, at the end, all I can really say is, NEWS needs more love, and perhaps more dramas. XD Because Pi's hair can grow on people, and Ryo's acting may be sub-par compared to Nino's, but it takes real acting ability to move you to tears. Well, that and I watched Karei naru Spy with Massu yesterday also, and am totally missing Massu's acting. XD Dramas get so much more addicting, when people you actually want to see are in them. ^^"
Posted at 10:05AM

August 10, 2009
Yesterday, I was filled with evol pains, and because my parents went to a wedding the night before, my parents to skip out on church today, and give everyone a break. So, once the came back from shopping, we ate lunch. I practiced guitar for a while...and that's when I realized, I can play probably, but all I'm learning are chords...I wonder, if that's the way I'm supposed to be going? But it's cool to know that I'm playing the right chords, because the right sounds are coming out at least. haha

I had a crazy recording spree of me singing. T_T" It's an embarrassing thought. XD But, yeah, I've decided, I really need to make a sign for my door that says "Recording: Don't Disturb~" or something. And I was thinking, that when I get older and have a house of my own, I'm totally turning one of the rooms into a sound-proof room. That way, I could totally make a recording studio out of it. :D Now...yeah...I'm broke, and I'm always thinking too far ahead, but that'd be pure awesome~

Apparently, I'm always thinking ahead. Because my dad asked me where my friend would be this year, and I told him I didn't know yet. And that's when I mentioned how I was wondering how much uni would cost in the US. Like, there aren't very many uni's in Canada where I could get a masters in Architecture...that I really want to go to. And the only one I can think of for now, is UBC because of it's connections to Asia. And now...because I want to avoid people, I don't know if it's really worth it.

So yeah, I'm at a cross at whether I should buy a new acoustic guitar, or a new camera. Either way, I'll be spending a good $500 or so...okay, so maybe the guitar isn't that expensive...but, still. But, thinking..on a reasonable level, I really don't need either, at least not yet. T_T" I guess I'll just wait on a new canon camera that I can by exchangeable lenses for once I'm...more rich? XD And I suppose my acoustic can last me a few more years, that is, if I actually keep on playing it.
Posted at 2:10PM

August 7, 2009
Honestly, I get so lazy in the summer. This summer especially, with the fact of me not having a job. Currently, I'm trying me best to find a job on campus for fall. It's the easiest way to go, and I seriously need one. The other day I emailed my resume off to Brass Taps - the restaurant/bar located within the university center, which is like the main building where the food court is, and...like, where all the administration stuff goes on. Anywho, they emailed me back :D Though, the guy told me to sign up for an interview on August 24 or 25 and I'm not even back in GUelph yet. T_T" So, I ended up emailing him back telling him that I didn't live in the area, and wouldn't be back till September 2nd. Therefore, I happily received an email this morning that said that I could schedule an inteview once I'm back in Guelph. :D Hopefully, I'll get the job. Cuz, it's either this, working in the food court in the cashier, or finding a job at the mall. *sigh*

I've been watching Gossip Girl. Why? Because I had totally forgotten it was located in NY, and it makes me smile with awesome memories. XD Well, that and you get lots of hinting towards New England, and it makes me feel special. haha. I fast-forwarded through watching the anime Romeo x Juliet. Seriously, finishing it all in one night...I'm amazed myself. But, I'd watched it once half-way through before, and I wanted to finish it this time round. The only problem I have with the story line...well, it's beyond strange...and totally awkward. Even the ending is mad crazy. XD


I think I've found my new favorite store. It's not like I didn't know about it before...I mean, I would've liked H&M too, if all their clothes weren't colors I don't really like. Anywho, the other day, me and my parents decided to go to Southgate for the opening of the new section of the mall. But anyways, Zara is my new favorite store. It'll make a hole in my wallet though, if I do ever do end up deciding to buy something. Unfortunately, everything I liked seem to have a standard price of $39.90...which I suppose is a lot better than say LuLu Lemon or something.

Apparently, my dad will honestly buy me anything I want...even if I tell him not to, and I'd have to convince him not to, to not buy it. That's what happens when my sister's not here I guess...He feels like spoiling me? I just like Zara's clothes, because to me, it feels closest to something I can make to be asian. XD That, and, my dad says I look like an artist when wearing either. XD Maybe, I just like good comments. D: My dad doesn't think $40 is expensive for a shirt. But, I'm used to buying clothes for like $20-25 tops, so when I see a price tag that says $100, I go "woah~"...
Posted at 11:59AM

August 4, 2009
So, the past weekend was spent mostly doing nothing. XD But I did get sunburned at Heritage Festival. We parked our car, hopped on a bus, and got there on Saturday at about 12:30, I think. We saw bunches of people my parents knew, including my neighbor. One of those people even gave us 8 food tickets T_T" There was only 3 of us, so it was kinda hard to finish all of our tickets...cuz we'd bought a full sheet of like 30 before we left at Save On. Anywho, yeah...not much to say about Heritage Fest...I just get more disappointed every year we go. All I can say is...whoever was in charge of the HK booth, I'm ashamed. Seriously, just because almost every other booth has performances, doesn't mean HK needs them, especially with two little girls, that aren't actually dancing a dance that's considered to be from HK in the first place. They were literally just swaying back and forth along with their uber long sleeves.

And so, also with the Chinese booth...what's with the freakin' performance being break dancing? Nonetheless it was cool, but that's totally not Asian at all~ Don't even get me started on the Japan booth. Seriously...there was only one Japanese person within the whole area. That's extremely sad. Anyways, since Monday was a holiday and my dad had it off too, we ended up going back again just so we could buy something, and left right after. So...yeah, nothing much happened over the weekend.

And so, while there I found Turkish delights, a girl that willingly let me take her picture, and a crappy Taiwan booth banner.



Just so we all know, just because we get a new McDonald's item, and their commercial was pure awesome...doesn't mean the food is equally awesome. Well, I was somewhat disappointed with it..the teriyaki burger. Why? Because it's honestly not a teriyaki burger. It's just either a McChicken or a Quarter Pounder with a dab of teriyaki sauce...literally, a dab.


Apparently, after watching the 2009.07.06 episode of Nakai Masahiro's Super Drama Festival, I got hooked on Brain Age. XD Well, games of the sort anyways. And so for fun, I'd even watch the 1 hour+ clip over and over again, because I found the activities fun. And so, I finally got a DS yesterday, and it came with Brain Age. :D So, I've been happily playing that since yesterday. And now, I can bring something to play on the long plane flights. XD Hopefully, Brain Age 2 isn't too expensive, and then I'll go buy that one before I leave for Guelph.
Posted at 2:57PM

July 31, 2009
Yeah, so I didn't get a new phone after all. Seems I'm probably going to end up using a phone I got as a gift from one my relatives in HK. I'm not sure if I need to unlock it to put a sim card in it though...But, well, we'll see. Either way, my old number will be gone in a few days to weeks time. ^^"

This week in general has been pretty uneventful. And all I can remember right now, is the fact that I need to get a new cellphone for when I go back to Guelph. T_T" And so me and my dad spent quite a few hours at Southgate the other day questioning all the cellphone companies about their services. We got a notice on our door one morning telling us to remove dirt that was placed by the mailbox or we'd be reported to the city T_T" So, yeah...we had a bit of dirt and pieces of wood sitting out there for a while because the deck builders didn't come back to pick it up, even though my dad called them multiple times...and it was their leftover stuff. *sigh* Anywho, we got it removed yesterday.

In first year of uni, I had taken bio, dropped it, and tried to sell my book. In 2nd year, the class wasn't provided anymore, which was replaced by a zoology requirement, which I took and completed. The class wasn't being offered, and I couldn't sell my book. T_T" But apparently, as weird as things go, now in my 3rd year, and I still have that stupid bio text book, that same bio class is being offered again, with the same book, and with the same profs, and someone wants to buy my text :D Of course, I can't officially get paid till I get back to campus, but I'll be $55 richer~ haha

Have you ever read a book, and got sucked into the book? Like...not literally, but everything a character's feeling, you feel while reading it? And, so if all of a sudden the character's depressed, you end up being depressed for a few days? T_T" That happens to me a lot...it seems. My dad told me I was weird, if that was the case, and I really shouldn't be delving so deep into a book like that. XD On the other hand, he's glad I'm reading so much this summer. haha. But yeah, I remember reading about head trauma for a good few hours straight, and when I stopped for dinner I ended up feeling dizzy. My dad blames the book. I blame the fact I was just sitting there for too long, looking at a book. ^^"

Lately, I've been waking up really early. For almost all of summer, with me not having a job and all that, I've been regularly waking up at around 10. But recently, I just keep waking up at 8-ish, and it honestly sucks. With or without my sleep generally, I'm tired all the time....and have always been since at least grade 9 from what I can remember. Something's wrong with me, I think...That and, I think I got slightly depressed from reading another book. XD
Posted at 9:17PM

July 29, 2009
So, on Monday morning, after what I felt was a horrible sleep, I ended up waking up at exactly 8:50 and my back hurting like...a lot. Anyways, I turned on my laptop like I always do, and went to check everything. And, yes, there it was. ♪(*⌒ｰ⌒)o∠★:ﾟ*PAN! :D The firm in Japan sent back my form, so in general, I just need to register for my course now, and give the form to my program counselor, and I'm set to go off to Hokkaido :D So what can I really say? I'm just extremely happy that things are going well. A lot of things happened this summer...but it seems to have worked out pretty well still. So, yes, I'll be in Otofuke, Obihiro, Hokkaido, Japan :D That's long. XD

I wonder if anyone noticed that problem I had the other day, and all my pictures had a "bandwidth exceeded" sign. I got mad. T_T" But, seriously, the pictures all still work, so I only fixed some of them. XD The rest of them...I gave up on.

Is it just me, or is this summer, the year where a lot of people are getting braces? Friends that I thought had perfectly fine teeth, getting braces...it's weird. T_T" My sister had them for some time, and it didn't too much. When I was on Connecticut, I was supposed to get them too, but I moved. And so, once I moved and went to a dentist here, they didn't say anything of the sort about needing them. *shrugz* It's one thing to actually need them, but it's another thing to actually have them...well, hopefully, if you have them, you need them, or the pain is pointless. XD

Yeah...apparently things my parents are going...weird. In general, my parents are getting mad at each other easier...and they're always both blaming it on old age...or one doing things without thinking. *sigh* That's what I get, if my sister's gone for a month...me stuck in the middle. I'm going to get a new phone today. It's gonna be a somewhat crappy phone though...because it's a non-contract one. T_T" I'll have to go to Dollarama and buy stickers to decorate it again, since I can't use my other phone.
Posted at 11:15PM

July 26, 2009
Honestly, I feel proud after I finish a complete set of translations. But that's really all you get afterwards. I envy the type of people who can make earrings, or jewelry...or creative crafts...or can do anything really, if they can make a profit. Because that's what I've been trying to do all summer...that is, try to find something that only I can do that people will buy. But nothing seems to come up. In general, I'm not all that creative as I wish I'd be. The things I like to do that I find creative...generally all revolve around writing. My parents think that it's because my late grandfather was an english prof at HK University, and therefore for some reason, me and my sister just love to write and write...and write. I love photography too...but even with these sorts of things, you can't get an income from them, unless you win some sort of competition. I mean seriously...I can't even sell of unopened official anime DVDS T_T"

So in general, the past few days have been me trying to find a job for the coming fall, as well as looking for scholarships or bursaries that I could apply for. And honestly, I haven't found much. *sigh* But there's always hope, so I won't give up now.

The other day, me and my parents went to the west side to a liquidation warehouse. I mean, honestly it looked pretty old and run-down, but they did have some pretty cool stuff. I kept walking through the aisles, and my dad was trying to scare me, telling me that I shouldn't leave his side in case someone would kidnap me, and no one would know. But I ignored it and walked my way through the aisles and stumbled upon some really cute notebooks~ :D I also saw quite a few really sturdy kendo sticks in a box. They were only $5! Anyways, I grabbed one in my right hand, along with the many notebooks I was carrying in the other hand, and continued on my way.

When I went closer to the back of the store, I realized that the lighting in different parts of the store were different. Like, it was darker in some corners, and lighter in others. So, I grasped the kendo stick tighter. XD Then I found my dad and he laughed at me cause I was carrying it with me like that. The rest of the time I was carrying the kendo stick, but seriously, you never know! But yeah, with about 3 large notebooks, 10 smaller ones, and a kendo stick in tow to the cash register, it was only $13 plus tax~ Haha, though $5 for a kendo stick...tends to make you wonder if there's a defect. But it's pretty sturdy so far...then again, I haven't used it properly yet. XD


It's a cute cup stacking/balancing game that I bought at Daiso while I was in Vancouver. XD I don't know, I find it lots of fun...but I like balancing games. :D


This'll probably be the last ramune I have for the summer...I bought a bunch of them twice at T&T, but I've finished them all now T_T", though I suppose it was good while it lasted?


Last but not least...the $5 kendo stick. XD LOL~! Totally ignoring High School Musical on my bed and the crazy amount of CDs and DVDs under my CD player...yes, we see the kendo stick ^^" There's...not much else to say really. XD
Posted at 5:40PM

July 24, 2009
To anyone who reads my blog, you'll realize that this is my way to rant about things that go on around me. Literally, that's all I do...T_T" and that's what this post is all about. Gomen.

So, apparently, one of my best friends in Guelph decides to accuse me of something I didn't do. I admit, we got into that big fight back in February till almost the beginning of April. But, I assumed things were better once we left. I guess she still doesn't trust me all that much. Anywho, here's how things went. I told her I got residence after all in the townhouses, and then she told me I shouldn't be like that, to just tell her now, when we could've moved into together into the same townhouse. It's not like it was my fault. I applied at a different time as her, and I don't get a choice who I get to live with because of my late application. T_T" I know she simply misunderstood me, but...accusing me of lying to her because I didn't want to live in the same house as her...is a bit over the top. I mean, she was one of the first people I told that I was going to be over there, and I thought she'd be happy to hear it. Instead...this happens? *sigh* Well, I'm sure things'll work out.

Sometimes, I guess there's a reason why I only have a few friends. In general, its hard for me to trust people, especially in cases like this. But I was right, the summer gave me time, and I'm totally over everything now. Apparently, she's not though. It's honestly no wonder why I have more guy friends than girl friends. T_T" It's a scary thought, but guys in general are a lot easier to talk to than girls. I never know what to say anymore. It's not like I'm trying to say something wrong either, and I guess I'm sorry if I'm being too direct, but that's just how I am. What I've realized, friends are the reason why I'm mad a lot of the time as well. And today, I got mad, and I ended up hurting myself (that is, not the cutting-ish stuff, the being clumsy and walking into wall-type). T_T" But I'll be fine in a day or two.

After talking to Anitha, I'm feeling a bit better. But of course, I won't feel completely better, until Angela replies to me, and realizes she was the one at fault here. T_T" Seriously, distance was supposed to get everything back between us. And it seems, it's just making things worse.

I was talking to my mom the other day, about the reason why me and my sister are still single, and still have never been in a relationship. I've mentioned it before, this "curse" that my family has, that all the cousins that are girls have still yet to be married, even though they're in their late 20s or 30s already. Only one cousin's ever been married so far, and he's a guy, and that's because he got his girlfriend pregnant. T_T" My mom explained to me that either 1) people think I already have a boyfriend, so they don't bother to ask, 2) I look way too young and too short, or 3) I'm overly sensitive to guys that talk to me that are older than me. Apparently with guys that are older than me, and talk to me, I get nervous talking to them. But with guys that are younger than me, I have no problem telling them anything.

Is it wrong to say, that all I wish I could have is a relationship with a guy, that would last forever? I just want to be happy with a guy. A lot of people to a certain point, I wouldn't say fall out of love, but they act different as time passes, and therefore so does their love. Sometimes I doubt if that even exists, cuz I've still yet to see a couple that that is true for, but if there is, I wish I could see one, so I realize, there is hope.

I've liked Perfume for a while now, but unfortunately "I still love U" is stuck in my head, especially the ending with the weird 'swishy' music. So, why am I thinking stuff, like that of the above? I think I've been listening to way much music on love lately. T_T" Tegomass brainwashes you, and apparently, so does Perfume. XD
Posted at 1:07PM

July 23, 2009
I was gonna rant about how much I hate the new Nakayama Yuma w/ B.I.Shadow group, but, there's even better stuff to hear about then my evol rants. Yes, after living off-campus for a year, and all my friends in ACF telling me that I won't be able to live back on campus, I've showed them. When they all tell you it's impossible, you start losing hope. That's all I can really say. And I'm just glad my LA friend told me that I should be able to get housing no problem, because she got it last year as well, after being a returning student as well.

I didn't realize that it was Monday...I actually thought it was Tuesday. T_T" But, I went to go check my uni email account for any updates, either on the Hokkaido firm replying to me, or housing people to tell me if I get anything. Along with the email about housing saying "Welcome to Residence", I got an email from one of my new suitemates. They're quick. XD Anywho, all I can say really is that I'm extremely happy and feel blessed that things are going my way so far. Anitha was right, I got housing after all.

It kinda makes me doubt my friends in ACF now...a tad bit. Though, I think everyone was telling me that it was probably impossible because they wanted me to live off-campus in one of their two houses. T_T" And, that was costing me way more than living on campus, because they kinda jipped me off when it came to food and utils bills. They apparently like to split the bill with the occupants of the house, and there being three guys and one girl...obviously, the girl gets jipped, because I don't eat as much as them ever. And half the time, I spent my meal card instead anyways. T_T" I don't think I'll be living with them again any time soon. So yes, once I get a reply from the firm in Hokkaido with the finished paperwork, everything will be all good :D

Today, I've been busily downloading Cardcaptor Sakura and Marmalade Boy. XD I find that complicated plots bore me. I've realized, I've never actually watched the entire series of CCS or Sailor Moon, but that shall change ^^" To me, they're classics, and because I grew up with them, it's hard for me to watch new anime that have a lot of episodes, and a really long story. T_T" Anywho, long story short, I think I have a virus on my external hard drive or something...because videos that were working before are all screwed up while playing now.

I've been watching old episodes of the Utawara Dance competition thing. What I've learned? Jin is awesome with kids, and is pure awesome. XD Though, I kinda wish there were more available episodes for download...because you can't really find anything else. T_T" There's no end.
Posted at 1:44PM

July 18, 2009
The first time hanging out with my friends in Edmonton this year...yeah, an interesting experience, that's for sure. We ended up going to Capital Ex. The idea was to have lunch beforehand, and then go...but apparently only me and Linh decided to grab some lunch. So around 12:50-ish, we piled into Ozair's van, and went to south campus to catch the LRT over to the Northlands. We headed over to the Shanghai circus show, which was pretty intense. And the music they used was pretty cool...but I'm biased, I loved the main theme for Pirates of the Carribean. ^^"


We didn't end up actually playing any carnival games...I think the were either afraid of using money, or not wanting a prize? *shrugz* I don't know, but none of us did end up going to try one.


They did have an Egyptian King Tut exhibit, which I thought would be pretty cool...but really, if there all just replicas, eck, sorta...*shrugz* I don't know. It looks cool nonetheless I suppose. Does that mean we're nerdy? XD


At around 4, Ozair and Ali left, and then there was only five of us left. So three of them decided to try this hang glider ride...yes, it's hard to get a picture. XD



And then afterwards, it seemed that Linh wanted to go on another ride, so we all somehow got convinced to going on this 30ft. slide. I'm okay with heights, cuz seriously, this wasn't actually all that high. But the stairs were horrible to walk up. T_T" I'm sadly really out of shape. And once we got up, we waited till everyone was seated, or tried to anyways, and we wanted to see who'd end up at the bottom first. Apparently it was me, and I didn't want to go down first. All I remember is like me starting to scream after the 3rd bump because it seemed like it was going faster and faster. But, sure, it was fun. It probably won't be something I'll do again though. XD

Yup, we got home in a knick of time too. At around 7:30, it started thunder storming. No rain yet though, as it seems. And my neighbors having a BBQ outside with his friends. ^^" Imagine...one of those flipping burger things in his hand....bbzzzttt~! XD All I can end off with...er...I think I was a bit more hyper than people think I am. XD
Posted at 8:28PM

July 17, 2009
I ended up completing "Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac" this afternoon. It was an awesome book. But of course with the ending, you kinda wish it just could've been a bit more satisfying. That and...the book seriously got me so stoked for the movie...a lot more than I was before, when I had no idea what the movie'd be about. And if Tego's Will, :D!! But yes, finishing a book in 3 days. Seriously, I think it's my record. So, one more book to last me the rest of summer. T_T" That is, unless I'm lucky enough to go to another bookstore, and buy another book I'll find interesting. Might I add, I've spent a total of about $30 on books I've bought just for the summer already. And that being said, that $30 was of course not mine, but my dad's.

So, I finished the first episode of Buzzer Beat and watched it twice, once without subs, and then another time with subs. Honestly, all I can say is, Keiko's acting seems extremely fake. That, and her character is either extremely tomboy-ish, besides for the way she dresses, or she's actually like that in real life? I don't know, her character gets me a little annoyed too. But I suppose...a lot of musicians are like that...the insecure part I mean.

Aibu's character is evil, and so is that new basketball player - Yoyogi's. It's understandable if you're unsatisfied with your love life or what not, but it's seriously wrong to just decide to have sex with someone you just met, behind your boyfriend's back. And the only genuine characters...seem to be Naoki, Shuji, and Coach Kawasaki. When I heard the name Shuji, cuz like seriously, after all the basketball being played on court, and the first thing out of Yamapi's mouth was "Shuuji!!"...XD Of course I end up thinking "Shuuji to Akira"...and Nobuta wo Produce. But in all honesty, the extra 30 minutes didn't make the story any clearer than I thought it should've been.

Like, when you look at DramaWiki, and see the summary that's listed, it states that Yamapi's a "salary man who belongs to his company's basketball team"...but from what I've seen, isn't he actually a pro basketball player? And just not making very much money? Or...am I just missing something? T_T" I've never really thought of listening to B'z, but after hearing the theme song to Buzzer Beat, I think I'd totally be able to get into their songs. Because seriously, Ichibutozenbu is an awesome song. :D

Though on one hand I can say I'm glad that I had time to hang out with friends. On the other hand, it's pain just to set things up, and it's no wonder I usually don't do these things. And yes, if you're reading this, this probably has nothing to do with you, so don't worry. This why my friend in Guelph probably hates me. So yes, my headaches have been back...with a vengeance lately...and that's really all I can say. I like to think that if I do think too much, that's what happens. I also hate last minute planing...and much of the time just jump in and start things...or you never really do end up starting. Yes, which relates back to the school year, and group projects, and me being the leader to make sure everyone does what they're supposed to be doing...and getting humongous migraines because of it all. I'm starting to wonder if school on top of expectations that people have of me, and what people think of me as....as all these different ways of acting and what not, as well as I don't know...everything else that's going on, there's only so much I can really do. And, just because a person looks fine, it doesn't mean they are.
Posted at 6:47PM

July 16, 2009
The other day that I posted an update, I totally forgot about what I did the other day. I wonder, did I mention that I bought a yukata when I was in Kyoto? Well, I thought, I should at least try wearing it once, even though the obi is a pain, and I didn't exactly know how to wear it properly...than again, I still don't know if I did wear it properly. I didn't wear it because it was Tanabata, or what not. I just felt like wearing it one day, and no one else was home. XD Easier to pose the multiple times in front of the camera, without feeling embarrassed. :D



So yes, on with the pics...I felt like showing off the school bag I found in like a small corner of Nakano Broadway. ^^"...yes, ignoring the fact that there's magazines beside it, and NEWS on the cover, and a fake Otsuka Ai bunny charm on my bag. :D It's just so durable and prett-ily blue-ish that it makes me really happy. ^^"


I just took a rather crappy picture, sorry. T_T" But yeah, I wanted to show my Zoom-in mascot, and the cute little sticker I won during Golden Week there at Shiodome. Oh yes, and the little Music Station keychain that I got over in Roppongi. Apparently, when I'd seen t, there was a nice little sign above it saying something about it being one of the new goods, and I just felt like buying something of it since I watch so much of it. ^^" So, when I got back home to Edmonton, I searched the site for any news, and it seems they really were new goods that were just released that week.


The book and a half that I still have to finish before the end of summer...that and...sure enough I still haven't gotten very far in Ryuusei~ But I totally should be, ne? XD


I don't know how well the picture can be seen, but yes, it's a Mango Tapioca cup. I saw it the other day at T&T for like $2.79 or something along those lines. And the first thing you think is...woah, seriously, that's so expensive for a cup. But it was worth it because I couldn't finish it in one go. It's quite thick. And it reminds me of something I ate in Hong Kong a few years back, which I haven't actually eaten in a while.

Okay, so pictures aside, I'm glad I'm finally getting a day out of the house, and yes, seeing friends that I haven't seen in forever. Would one consider friends to be forever? In a sense what I mean is that if you don't talk or see them in a really long time, after a while, wouldn't you just start doubting you were friends then, or were ever to begin with? That's seriously how I felt at the beginning of the summer when I came back from Japan, and realize I didn't know who to talk to. Friends I didn't consider friends in the first place talked to me, and I wasn't even all to sure why. He was quite wanting me to go to church with him for youth group, and I've been gently turning him down because I don't like the people who head it. But seriously. After a while, you just start thinking and you can't really stop.
Posted at 10:24PM

July 15, 2009
I can't remember if I'd mentioned it, but a few weeks ago, perhaps even a month ago, I randomly turned on my external hard drive to find out that I was missing two folders: one with all the music I've kept, lyrics, etc., and the other with school notes, and stories and poems that I've written. So, yeah, all completely lost. I even asked one of my friends to see if he knew what was wrong and if it could be recovered, but the program he gave me somehow wouldn't work for me. T_T" Anywho, it just makes me sad because sometimes I'll click on random folders, and I'll see the missing ones for like a second till they load properly into the right one.

I officially finished "Confessions of a Shopaholic" this morning at 1am. I stayed up till late, because I was reading the book throughout the day, and realized I should just try to finish it. There are so many changes from the book to the movie, it's almost like it'd be a disappointment for fans, like "The Da Vinci Code" and "Angels & Demons" were for those fans. So, yes, I'm off to start my next book, "Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac". (And, if anyone's interested, I uploaded the audio books that I found for it here.) And, it is after all a teenager book, which makes me kind laugh at the fact I'm reading it, but it's quite interesting how it starts, and Will's character makes me smile. I'd say, I seriously can't wait to see the outcome of Tego and Maki-chan's movie. :D Ah~ That reminds me, I wonder when it's going to be released, cuz it looks like all the filming's been over for a while now, and the listings all say 2009? ^^"

With the lack of something to do lately, I've been downloaded music, and uploading them to my gmail accounts...because that's just what I do. Ah~ And as I mentioned beforehand about the missing folders on my external, my listing of what was where disappeared along with them. Therefore, I've been trying to recreate a new document, though I feel as though I'm not getting anywhere due to new music that's being uploaded. XD

Summer brings out the creativity in me. Or, perhaps it's Edmonton? Nah~ haha. Well, I find that the times when I can write poems, or songs, or music the most, are times when I should be putting my full attention to something, but can't. During the school year it's the same. During lecture, I write, or draw whilst taking notes. And during church sermons, I sit there writing songs and poems whilst listening to what the pastor's saying. Honestly, I think something's wrong with me. XD It's like ADHD, where you can't just do one thing at once...always need to be doing something...eck, something like that anyways.

It's rare if I download bittorrent to download something off of it...but recently that's what I did, because I somehow love watching full episodes of Music Station. Anywho, somehow, I accidentally didn't un-click something, and my firefox automatically made ask.com the default search engine. Seriously....ask.com is freakin' retarded, and I got stuck using it for maybe a week or so till I finally found the "cure". It sounded so sketchy, but it worked, so...yay? That's enough, ne? Till later~
Posted at 5:01PM

July 12, 2009
So on Saturday, we woke up early to send my sister off to the airport for her missions trip. We got back home around 9:30, where I spent the better part of the day stuck in my room. People came over to our house for bible study, and I'm not very fond of their kids...that or I can't seem to keep up with them. But tell me, what's considered something that 8 year olds can watch? I'm a bit biased, I think, because I really love animation movies, disney movies...the like. So I burned 'Kung Fu Panda' and 'Meet the Robinsons' for my mom for them to watch. And apparently, when they watched it, the girl said it was too 'baby-ish' for her already, so she didn't want to watch it. I have four Cardcaptor Sakura dolls still sitting on the bookshelf downstairs, and when they caught her eye, she asked my mom if she could play with them. (That...is an obvious 'no'. XD)

So, apparently, the little girl is beginning to be obsessed with anime, and wants to learn Japanese, and go to Japan. When I finally came out of my room for dinner, her mother stood opposite of me and told the little girl to ask me to teach her Japanese! T_T" But, I wasn't trying to be mean, I just know I can't teach her. XD When I was getting food to eat, there was like ribs or something and I tried to grab it with a fork. I don't know if I'm dumb or what...but I couldn't grab it, and dropped it, so all the parents kinda just looked at me and were like 'You don't have to shake when getting it'. Duh, I know that. You try grabbing one with a fork. I told them I usually use chopsticks to eat them, and they looked shocked. Seems their kids though know how to use them...or aren't willing to learn.

The other day, I was amazed to look through old photo albums, and found a letter from a friend nice and typed out, and I couldn't even remember who it was from till I read to the end. At the end, I found myself smiling, because I think through all my friends I've ever had, he's the only one who's ever voiced that....so, here's what he said. "...I had always thought you were shy and a bit withdrawn, but I found out after meeting you that only the former was true. Te latter was not in any case true to the people you know. You are a lot more forward than most people would believe you to be, and honestly you can be as annoying as I am, though you're to cute to be considered annoying, so it equates to cute...." What am I trying to say....nothing really. XD I just found the letter yesterday, and realized that was the first anyone had ever said somethng like that to me.

Happiness to me...mmmm....Jin's movie "BANDAGE" premieres in January, and I'm in Hokkaido :D Hopefully...I'll be able to find a movie theater nearby, even if it's a small village I'm staying in. I just don't really understand why there was seemingly so much news about it so early, f it doesn't get released till then. XD Perhaps, it's just the fans' excitement, ne? ^^" Ah~ That's all for now. I'm sure I've begun boring people with my long entries.
Posted at 2:33PM

July 10, 2009
Honestly, it's just been a really long since I've written...it's about time I started again. That and...writer's block's been horrible. T_T"

Once Upon a Time
Dusting off the pictures
That sat upon the shelf
Seeing your face
Remembering that day
But now it's all changed
And not a word from you
That's all it was
Once upon a time

The things we went through
I can't remember anymore
The feelings we had
When we talked like old friends
The missing piece
That was inside of me
It was once upon a time,
Once upon a time

I wanted it to last
I really thought it would
But here we are today
In separate worlds
When one calls the other
Names are forgotten
That's all it was
Once upon a time

And even now
I wish we could go back
To that time when
We'd see smiles and tears
A forgotten time
A missing piece
Something I wished to keep
Posted at 1:21PM

July 9, 2009
Yesterday, my dad ended up staying at home and took the day off. And so we ended up going to Costco together and buying a bit of stuff...including a new wii game thing. It's...well, supposed to be an incentive for me to not get lazy, and go work out some. XD Rather than the punching bag I have, which I just punch when I'm mad or if I feel like it. XD Mom got off work from Save-On early, and when we got home, we pretty much got a hissy fit from her...stuff like, the new manager told me to go home, they cut my hours...no it's not because I'm not feeling well. Anyways, when my mom thinks about stuff really passionately? She usually ends up talking about it for a good week or so. T_T" It's only imagineable because she's a full-time worker, and that being the case, she shouldn't actually get any hours cut. Well...whatever. T_T" I've got enough crap about work to think about. XD

Then last night, I'd thought about getting new glasses, because it's almost the two years mark, and usually after two years, I need new glasses. So, we went to Southgate to the optometrist place, and the lady did the testing and all that. At the end of the exam, I found out that my eyes are pretty much the same as before, and I didn't need glasses after all. :D I only found that weird, because since two years ago, if anything, I've been staring at my laptop screen more and more. XD But, whatever, it's good news. ^^"

Some how...for some strange reason, summer time, I always think reading. I'm a little less than a third way through 'Confessions of a Shopaholic'. And when I went to Chapters the other day, I was randomly searching for another book to read. And then I kept walking till around the back of the store, till I saw 'Memoirs of a Teenage Amnesiac'. XD I honestly wasn't expecting to buy it. But I'd mentioned the movie before with Tego in it...and that'd be my incentive to read the book. XD Oh! And Costco yesterday also...I'd thought about buying that Julie & Julia book, which is supposed to come out in theaters soon too. ^^" And there was another book called 'Remember Me' by the lady who wrote 'Confessions of a Shopaholic', and the storyline was wicked! Like seriously...a lawyer going crazy, and then somehow ending up at as an interviewee as a maid, and that's what she became. I suck at summarizing...can anyone tell? But my dad thought I had too many books piling up and should finish them first. T_T" So...that's what I should do, I guess. :D During the school year, reading is boring though. XD Perhaps my talk today is also rather bothering....haha, gomen, ne? ^^"
Posted at 10:07AM

July 5, 2009
Apparently, no matter the circumstance, once can yell at you. When you do something wrong, you get yelled at. When you do nothing, you get yelled at. When you're just trying to stay out of people's ways, you're still getting yelled at. Then can someone please tell me, what the hell is considered the 'right way'? T_T"

I think dad's just stressed at the news about grandma...that he's been quite easy to start yelling recently. My mom blames it on old age...but I just think he's over stressed with work and the news. Mom's been well, kinda 'telling' us to do this and do that since I came back. We're not sure what's up with her either. This weekend, my sister's been out of the house a lot. One was because of her fellowship...something about helping at a yard sale, even though there was like another 5 or 7 people there to help to apparently guard a few vases and other Chinese furniture stuff...and it was for fundraising for China...*Shrugz* And, of course my dad was mad, to have to drop her off, because there really wasn't a need for her to be there, except for her to hang out...that and it was mad raining that day. But secondly, because one of her co-workers got really sick, and so she had to cover his shifts. In a week or so, she's off to China for the rest of the summer too.

I still have yet to hear word from the university about residence, and even if I find something for off-campus, people do not reply back. I'm just hoping, I'm not going to be homeless for next semester. Like, seriously, what am I gonna do? T_T" There's apparently a lot to be worried about on my end, especially with September drawing nearer and nearer.

With a Christian family, you'd expect Sunday afternoons to be quiet, calm, and relaxing. That's exactly what they used to be when we were little. There were times when we'd come back from church, and then maybe take a nap and then watch a TV show together. And now, it's more of...us coming home, going to our separate rooms, eating lunch together, and then all of a sudden a dispute breaks out, and the house is silent for the rest of the day. It's not the awkward silences either. Just the kind where you know if you say anything at all, it'll just bring more dispute.

I volunteered to help my parents sand our deck, and later stain or paint it. About a week before I started, I suddenly woke up with a pain in my shoulder, and with sudden certain movements, it will hurt, a lot. And so, I just didn't think too much about it because because it went away after two days. So, starting from Wednesday, I started scrubbing down the new deck with sand paper. Thursday and Friday, the same thing. Yesterday morning, I woke up with the exact same pain in the same spot. And this morning, I could even feel the pain crossing. It seems, either 1) I've become incredibly clutzy, or 2) I bumped into something with my shoulder without realizing it twice.

Yes, that's not the end. Sorry, this post is long today. XD Like I said before, my parents were having some sort of dispute...and I still have no idea what about. But, my dad went outside to dig or something, and my mom told me, more like literally in a forcing tone, to go out an help. So, obviously I told her, "How would I be able to help when my shoulder's out of commission?" ...Cuz I can't even lift anything. I can still hold stuff, and type though. Straight is okay, to the sides, my arm will want to cry. So, I went out and asked my dad if he needed help, and he said, he didn't need it, so I just went back inside. Maybe, it was a bad decision on my part? And I should've at least talked to him and sat outside or something? *shrugz* But either way...when he came back in...or whenever it was that he was calling for me, and I was on my computer with my headphones on, I couldn't hear him, and he starting flipping out. So, later he came to my room, and asked me if I was okay, and I told him it was fine. I think...maybe he just doesn't want me to have an ear problem later or something. But, whenever I use my computer, I use my headphones, because I don't like people knowing that I'm watching/listening to JE like 24/7. XD That and, I'm not my sister. I don't like being loud...and I don't like bothering people with my stuff at full blast.

Anyways, ever thought, you just wanted a break from your own life? Perhaps, a day in someone else? T_T" Today, that's exactly how I'm feeling. Surely enough, I'd only want it to be only for a day, because even through all the crap that's been going on, I do like my life. It's just been hard...and it seems to be harder to say "Yes, I can!"
Posted at 2:07PM

July 3, 2009
What can I say...it's past Canada Day..and next is July 4th. :D So, since I love July 4th to bits, I thought I'd spam my own journal. XD Happy Birthday Jin! :D

Firstly, this clip makes me laugh every time I see it. :D


There needs to be more of Jin's English courses :D


Yes, why Jennifer...why?


And yes, his screams are incredibly high...And apparently the host gets joy out of torturing him...


And so, what would he do on his birthday?


And stealing lyrics to be love proposals...XD


Because he makes me laugh:


And he really is a baka


And because I love Jin to bits


Usually in these cases, I write lots and lots. But honestly, nothing's happened. T_T" Summer's boring like that. XD And so....I've been playing speed-war by myself for the past few days, reading, translating...and that's really it. XD I really need to go practice driving some more...I've only done it about 4 or 5 tops. And the most I can do is drive straight with confidence. Turns make me scared...I get scared using the gas...cuz I feel like my eyes aren't fast enough, and somehow my eyes aren't connected to the gas pedal and the speed gauge.

Apparently, my last living grandparent isn't doing all that well. The last time we went to see her was about...two years ago, before my mom's mom died. And my dad went to see her last September for my cousin's wedding. And so my dad called them today to talk to her, and found out from the helper person that she's not doing so well, and she had said something about grandma not having much energy left. *Sigh* Well...so, I don't really have very good news on what I count as a usual joyous day. But, I'll leave with a quote, that is from Jin: "There's been a lot of sad news lately...but whether you cry or smile, today is just one day. Everyone, since it's all just a day, let's live it with having a smile...until we can meet again..."
Posted at 10:19PM

June 30, 2009
I've been trying to get back into K-pop lately...anyone can convince me? XD Like, I went through all of SHINee and SS501 discography to only like four songs. T_T" But, then again, when I did listen to Korean music when I was younger, I listened to like Taebin, Rain, BoA, and DBSK. So...maybe it's a bit..different? But I didn't end up listening to anything new after I listened to a bit, and ended up switching over to J-pop. XD Unfortunately, Koreans lose to Japanese when I think of appearances, that help me start to like songs. XD I did on the other hand watch DBSK's recent appearance on Tokyo Friend Park, and laugh my head off. ^^" And, they actually did surprisingly well.

I honestly don't have much to say, I've been busy keeping up with helping someone do translations (cuz I joined a group), and just a lot of other random crap that I can't even remember anymore. T_T" Gomen. Life goes by so fast, and I have memory loss...haha So I thought, maybe...if I can't think of stuff to say, I'll kinda force it out? It might be reoccurring, but we'll see.


Firstly, the old calendar that I bought when I was in Japan. XD I don't care too much about the date, I just like the fact that I can switch them every month and their faces are on it. haha. Though, I still think I should've bought the new one too while I was there...'cept there's no space for that one...


Yeah...I'm trying to figure out why it's still sitting in my room too. My parents bought it for me so I could bring it over to Guelph, but there wasn't a need for it last year, and so...it's still sitting here. Probably this year, I'll bring it over...


And lastly, It's my current three favorite books. I just bought Confessions of a Shopaholic yesterday...I really really wanted to read it. XD My Japanese dictionary isn't actually all that great, but it's cheaper than that other one, and I use it like crazy nonetheless. And thirdly is Ryuusei no Kizuna - the novel. And, yes...I think I'm still only on the 20-30th page or so. T_T" I'm extremely slow at reading Japanese novels apparently.
Posted at 3:22PM

June 25, 2009
Once you get someone's attention, would you still want it? And no I'm not talking about intentionally, and no, I'm not talking about boys. XD When you don't go on MSN for while, people generally swarm to you, because they think either 1) you weren't friends with them anymore, and wanted to confirm that you and they were still friends, 2) ask you to hang out because you haven't talked to them for years, or 3) think you were dead.

Well, anyways, I don't have much to say, so, I'm gonna talk about random things in my room. XD I've found the "fun" in taking pictures and talking about them...

...I've been really into aloe drinks lately. XD I don't think they're all that healthy or anything, they're just yummy. XD And, I was watching a whole buncha old clips from the ONE DROP promo era...XD


My fan is not located there because it's hot, it's to cool my laptop until I buy a laptop cooler. It's on the way...or something like that. 'Cept the one I'm waiting on is...like, $40 or so, so, I hope it ends up actually working. I'm just waiting for my dad's friend to come back from vacation so he can find it at a cheaper price and buy it for me. XD


I've mentioned these before, but these are the Audio Technica headphones that I bought while I was in Kyoto. ^^" Plus, white headphones make me happy. :D


Pink speakers...which can connect to my laptop or mp3 played. :D Well, I've been wanting to buy new speakers since my sister stole mine ever since I moved to Edmonton. T_T" So...I found these the other for about $7...they're...ok-lah...I just like them, more or less because they match with my laptop ^^".


Lastly, the stack of anime dvds that I have sitting in my room, that I really want to get rid of but no one seems to want them. XD They're all still like, brand new too. T_T"
Posted at 4:18PM

June 23, 2009
Ever find it weird when you have friends that you haven't talked to for a while, and at one point you decided to cut ties with them without telling them because you were really mad at them...and then later, you still remember why you're mad, but you can't stay mad any longer? That...and then you find out that friend still thinks of you as a friend, and keeps trying to keep contact with you every once in a while...? That's what I've found...something along those lines. Because I've found his LJ, and no, he's not gonna find mine any time soon. XD So shhhh...!!! (＞∀＜) I'm just glad...people in Guelph that I know in real person, don't seem to use LJ. I'm lucky, and I really want it to stay that way, ne? Maybe my problem is that I have some scary friends? T_T"

After watching "SMILE", drama Matsujun and Gakki are in...I'm insanely in love with the buta keychains.

I was hoping to make a few for myself or something...but I have a feeling they won't turn out all that good. When I'm done with it, I'm not gonna show it, I'm sure it'll be embarrassing. XD I wish I stayed around in Tokyo for a little longer! That way I would've been able to buy them, rather than making them! XD

I've been watching old episodes of Utawara...but I've been quickly skipping through them, just for the KAT-TUN parts because, I don't know, the other parts are strange and boring. The whole show was to show top 10 hits, and then either the real person will song the song, or comedians will sing the song...I find it odd? *shrugz*

I was invited to go to see a movie with someone on Saturday, and well, I'm not allowed to meet with him ever again. Therefore, I turned him down. If it was during the day on a weekday, and I get back home before 3 or 4, then it would be okay to meet with him. But in all honestly, I don't think I do want to see him again. Like, even if it is in a group with people I know...seriously, I don't know, I don't think I can do it.
Posted at 7:42PM

June 22, 2009
I just kinda need to rant...XD Sometimes, I wonder if my life is screwed up the way it is because of how I go about things, friends I make, and things like that...Like, I remember all throughout my life so far...all the friends I've made have somewhat been...not so long-lasting. I'm not sure if it's my fault or the other, but in general, contact always ends up lost in the end. Even if you tell someone you want to stay in contact, it doesn't happen in the end. Any friend that I've known back since 5th grade has already been lost to the time when I'd moved. Though I'd been friends with up til then, and invited them to my going away party, I never talked to them after that...or, rather they never responded again. Perhaps, people like ending things soon...when they find no point.

Then, there's the possibility, that in general, to any of my friends, I usually don't get into things all too deep with them. Perhaps that's my problem? I don't like telling people things about myself, unless it's necessary. And perhaps, it's because I don't want to show weakness because of it...but I myself am still unsure. When in the summer I don't use MSN..or, rarely use it, I know people still care, and wonder what's going on with me, but I tend not to stay in contact. It's not that I don't want to of course, I promise. I've just never liked using things like MSN, and for school, I use it because it's necessary, rather than I need to talk to someone. T_T" But, yeah, that's one thing I'll have to work on, trying to keep better contact, and trying to get deeper with people. In general, I find myself telling people all the same things, and no one person really knows more or less about me...unless they rarely talk to me.

I just felt like ranting. I even wanted to talk about how maybe even in high school that I'd been making friends with the wrong people, and that's why my grades dropped dramatically compared to when I was still in CT. Honestly, it kinda scared me, and I couldn't figure out the reason. And to this point, I still don't understand. But, it doesn't matter. I'm getting through everything. And almost every year I hear that a "friend" gets kicked out of university or is put on probation....or something of the sort. It's odd. I didn't think it'd be that easy to do that.

When I was in first year, I was so afraid that I'd fail a course, I dropped it half-way through the semester. Then, in second year, I had another course, and just passed it luckily, because of all the group projects...that or the prof felt bad for me. I re-took the first year course and passed it. And even with a low 69.9 avg, I'm glad to be able to where I am today. Because there's no 100 in LA, if you get an 80, we're all impressed. So, maybe I think my life is screwed up, but...I guess when I compare it to others that I know, sometimes, I'm just glad I have something to believe in, at the end, that gets me through the day. :D

Ever had a dream about...someone you havent seen for years? I didn't have a nightmare...or maybe it was, because I don't like the guy...T_T" Anywho, weird things happen at weird times. But I suppose it all started with my sister yesterday finally telling us who it was that was the guy she liked. That's when I wondered...how come I can't think of any guy I'm close to that I'd even consider dating. Somehow, perhaps I'm judgemental, but once I know someone...I generally understand their personality and their ways of doing things, and there's always at least one thing that I don't like or agree with. T_T" That or I have to high expectations with Jin and Pi in mind. :D *sigh*
Posted at 11:58AM

June 20, 2009
Things have been better recently, I'd say. The other day we went to West Ed, and maybe it helped? I don't know. But in general, I feel a little bit happier. ^^" I woke up around 11 today. My dad came into my room about 1:30, telling me he'd lost his wallet...or misplaced it, and that he had to go back to work to get it, because that's where he thought he put it. So, anyways, we ended up going with him downtown and going up to his office to look for it. After not being able to find it and getting back into the car, my dad called my sister to ask if she knew where it was...because he dropped her off this morning before he came back home. Next thing I know, he opens one of the compartments next to the seat, and there the wallet was. So, for the rest of the day, I kept making sure he had it.

So, from his office, we headed over to White Ave, and apparently, today was the last day for the Christian bookstore at one of the churches on the street. So, my dad wanted to go, and wanted someone to go with. XD Apparently, today was a special day - $10 a bag. We stuffed a plastic bag like crazy, and somehow ended up with about 25+ books. :D So, in general, it did end up a pretty happy day, besides for a crappy morning. I guess I didn't really talk about that...well, mostly my parents were fighting since yesterday and I'm still unsure about why. T_T" But, they're husband and wife after all, it happens...
Posted at 6:03PM

June 18, 2009
I've been feeling a bit empty lately...yesterday, I got a "mail" from my workplace. And really...what's the point of having it? It's like a government issued form that says that my company hasn't given me enough hours, and it seems like something's wrong with it. But it's not like I can do anything, nor can I apply for unemployment, since I only worked there for a week. T_T" The system is retarded.

Lately...nightmares have been plaguing my sleep. Luckily, I forgot them once I wake up. And, even if I do try to remember them, I can't. Even when I try doing something for periods of time, I get easily distracted, and easily bored. Then again, that might not be true. I think I watched like two seasons of Kamen Rider the other day. Eating's been whack...headaches have been on and off...and just today, it's been weird, because since maybe three or four ago, I've been feeling kinda sucky...in a sick way at least once each week. So, in general, my dad thinks I'm depressed. And I think my parents can tell...because my tolerance level is like none, and I get angry pretty easily these days.

...I blame the fact that I'm doing nothing all summer...and it's not like I can randomly find a job to do. Though, my dad did suggest me painting the deck, and him giving me $500 to do it all...T_T" It's a big deck though, and it feels like cheap labor. Well, if he offers it again, I'll probably end up taking the deal. XD So the moral...just because people aren't sad...and are smiling, it doesn't mean they aren't depressed...and vice versa? I think the problem with me is that...after all these years with so much that's happened in my life, I've learned to put up a mask about things. Generally, people that haven't known me for very long, or don't know me very well, won't notice, while others will...But, I guess that's just me. I'd rather not people know about the things I'm suffering through...well, even if I do rant about them. XD Is it...wrong to not want people to know?

Honestly, a lot of free time just means a lot of time to think. The only thing I think that's getting me through all this right now, is the fact that I'm singing to my heart's content...if that makes any sense. I've got a crap load of anime dvds that I was trying to get rid of...but apparently no one I know wants them...and in the comms too *shrugz*. Perhaps, I'm just not a very good sales person.
Posted at 10:35AM

June 16, 2009
I guess it's time for an update...XD Ever realize, that if you're in seclusion for long periods of time, and talk to almost no one, you get a bit depressed? I guess...when things don't go my way, I get a little depressed too.

Well, there's that, and waking up to a dream, where somehow I couldn't get back into my own apartment, something about being chased, and somehow being in a different time, and then finding a house, and somehow coming back to my own time. T_T" My dreams are weird. I suppose, that's why I usually try to forget them. But usually at times like this, is when I feel like something bad's going to happen...and I just don't know what it is. My intuition...? Is that the right word? I don't know, whatever that seemingly weird gut feeling is before something happens.

Our second deck is finally completed. :D It's a second deck...because my dad's too lazy to make the whole backyard grass...and didn't want to have to mow it...therefore, he decided to make a second deck around the first deck. It turned out a lot different than what I had thought it'd be in the first place. But, it's fun to walk on. XD So pretty much it ended up looking like a catwalk...you know, those runways for models? XD

Posted at 10:51PM

June 13, 2009


Can I just say how much in love with Tegomasu's Boku Rashiku I am? :D I find it weird that the B-sides to their new single are so much better than the main song itself. But...^^" So, I finally got the chance to sit down and listen to it today, and I've been listening to it pretty much non-stop. The melody's nice. :D

I ended up getting a haircut today. I didn't even realized my mom made me an appointment with her til I got woken up at 9 this morning saying we're leaving soon for it! T_T" Well...at least, it's a little lighter, in the heat wave we've been getting lately. That is to say, that 27 degrees counts as a heat wave. XD We haven't been able to turn on our A/C yet because of like duct cleaning or something...so I've got a nice little fan next to my laptop. Which reminds me, I still need to buy me a laptop cooler. ^^" For some strange reason, it's been heating up pretty quickly lately. And my dad's friend helped me check it to see if there was any hair inside or something blocking the fan inside...but nothing! But, best to get a cooler, and hopefully, it'll help.

I've been thinking a lot lately. Because for the fall semester, if my schedule is the way it is, with only four classes, and I don't take another elective (because I don't have to, since I did an extra course last spring as a trip to Vancouver), I'm planning to take up a part-time job. Hopefully, it'll make up a bit for me not working in the summer...and I can at least make some money that I can use in Hokkaido. XD So, I'm taking like 3 LA classes, and then Chinese...so, that also means no exams except for Chinese, and mostly projects. When I mentioned that to my dad, and how I've been thinking about getting a job, (which hopefully I can actually get!), he agreed. :D

OH! And so I think I mentioned decorating for the grad night thing at my church...so, I thought I'd show you guys how it all turned out:





Posted at 7:13PM

June 11, 2009
So...yeah, apparently I lucked out and the company is not willing to pay for me to go on the internship, but they're willing to lie for me. XD They said they'd tell my university they're paying for my room and board, and when I get there I'd still pay. It sounds a little sketchy...but...I'm all for it. XD So, for me, yeah, it seems like I headed over to Hokkaido. :D I just need things to get officialized between Maurice and the company...a bit closer to the date, and it's all set~ I don't mind paying for the housing...only because it's only like 5000-10,000 yen a month...plus another 5000 yen for fuel for heat I'm guessing? So, that's only like around $60-120 CAD a month...plus another $60. So my rent tops would be $180. That's like, less than a third of what I pay in Guelph~ :D Anywho, my dad said it'd be fine. So, at least I don't need to go searching for another internship.

I've realized, that somehow, I've been extremely obsessed with KAT-TUN lately...maybe with their debut the most. I remember I'd read something about someone saying that they didn't like KAT-TUN, because they realized they ended up only like Akame, and they didn't consider liking a whole group to be liking the group. To me, I agree...but I kinda like all of them, they all have crazy characters. Though Jin just stands out either way. :D It's gotten to the point where Cartoon KAT-TUN is my highlight of the week, compared to this season's dramas. But...perhaps that could be blamed for the spring dramas being kinda...iffy? So, yes, it's come to that time again.

Buzzer Beat
Starting in July 2009 - Monday 21:00 (Fuji TV)
Summary: Yamashita is playing a salaryman who belongs to his company's basketball team. Despite his appearance, he is completely weak under pressure when it comes to work and romance. Although he has a girlfriend, he falls in love with a spirited and cheerful woman who is unable to be straightforward.

I think...mostly, I'm looking forward to this because it's a Yamapi drama, and I've felt deprived for a while now. XD

Koishite Akuma
Starting July 7, 2009 - Tuesday 22:00 (Fuji TV)
Summary: Ruka is a young vampire who has entered the human world. Although he hates humans, he begins attending high school and falls for his homeroom teacher.

This is the one with the new junior debut person, Yuma, ne? Well, no offence...the summary didn't sound all that interesting to me. And why is akid falling for his homeroom teacher, who seems like it's going to be the girl from DOOR TO DOOR that acted with Nino. XD And apparently one of those HSJ members are in it too

Dandy Daddy?
Starting July 9, 2009 - Thursday 21:00 (TV Asahi)
Summary: Izaki Ryunosuke is a widower and popular romance novelist whose books are always bestsellers. Despite that, he is overprotective of his daughter Akari in matters of love, constantly monitoring her activities.

Well, mostly I saw the name "Tachi Hiroshi" on the cast list, and that's the guy who played the dad in "Papa to Musume no nanokakan" and "Minamisawa Nao" who was the girl in "Akai Ito"...though I didn't really like her to be honest. XD Well...it's supposed to be a comedy anyways...

Ninkyo Helper
Starting July 2009 - Thursday 22:00 (Fuji TV)
Summary: "Ninkyo Helper" stars Kusanagi as the boss of a yakuza group. As part of training, his group's parent organization orders all of its subordinate bosses to work as nursing helpers at an elderly institution. This includes Kusanagi, as well as Kuroki, a female yakuza boss who starts out as Kusanagi's rival.

...I guess after all those weird news reports about him, SMAP's Kusanagi is back with his new drama. But their cast list is what surprised me. Kuroki Meisa, Yamamoto Yusuke, Yabu Kouta.

Orthros no Inu
Starting July 2009 - Friday 22:00 (TBS)
Summary: Takizawa plays the role of a mysterious and ambitious man with a wicked heart, who possesses the power to heal pain and illness with the touch of his hand. Nishikido, on the other hand, plays a high school teacher with a gentle heart, but who has the ability to kill with his touch. The two happen to meet, resulting in a battle of good and evil.

I think...I might actually be loking forward to this one the most. It has what seems to be an incredible...plot...and cast too.

Otomen
Starting August 1, 2009 - Saturday 23:00 (Fuji TV)
Summary: The story centers around the popular high school boy Masamune Asuka, the top kendo fighter in the nation. However, beneath his cool exterior, he is actually fond of sweets and shojo manga, and is skilled in sewing and cooking. When he instantly falls for the transfer student Miyakozuka Ryo, his secret is in danger of being exposed

I'm not all too sure about the cast, but it's based off a manga right? I think I saw it the other day when I was at Indigo. Sounds pretty interesting...maybe?
Posted at 10:24PM

June 9, 2009
I've been trying to figure out...what's so great about this new Johnny's group that's debuted - Yuma w/ B.I. Shadow. Can someone tell me maybe? I've always found Yuma to be one of my favorite juniors, outside of Kis-my-ft2 and A.B.C.-Z. What can I say? Whenever I watched Shokura and saw B.I.Shadow...I found their faces extremely forgettable. And the ones that I did remember made me feel annoyed. T_T" Yeah, it was the annoying one who seemed to be all "hey I'm here" once he got a role in HSJ's drama, the one with the big smile? And so, what's with people being mad at the fact that B.I.Shadow acts like back dancers? That's pretty much what I feel like they are already...because their names "Yuma w/ B.I.Shadow" after all...So, no surprise there. Anywho, I wasn't trying to make enemies, just saying what I felt about them. Then again, I haven't really been able to keep up with Juniors...there's way too many of them.

Anyways, with annoyances aside..and thinking...what exactly is Johnny thinking about, with debuting these kids...I even went to the JE site to go see if I could find anything on this new group...but I believe it's been a few days since their "debut" and I haven't found anything. Are they a real debuted group then? Or is this just like another temporary thing? Cuz if it is, I'd forgive Johnny. XD Well, a few days after their "debut", I'm trying to warm up to the idea...that's really all one can do, right?

I finally convinced myself to buy Hot Gimmick, well, the manga that is. It's the nice little 3-in-1 special edition, which is cheaper also. Heavier too. But yeah, honestly, it's because I've got nothing to do lately. Surely there's been a bit of drawing, and a bit of randomly re-reading through manga..and studying kanji, and a bit of translating, but other from that, I've been extremely bored. At least Friday's the CMC's graduation party thing, and at least I'll have fun decorating?...and I guess being out of the house. XD

I went out of the house this morning to go to the dentist. Yeah, that's pretty much the highlight of my day. XD Sent my letter to the landscape architecture firm in Hokkaido about asking if they could pay for something...so hopefully I get approved sometime soon. That way, everything will be set, and I can stop worrying about at least one thing. Like for housing, the worst that can happen is me finding an 8-month lease and paying 8months when I get back anyways...so, *shrugz* I guess I've ranted enough for the day. Laterz~
Posted at 12:15PM

June 5, 2009
Nothing's really been going on since I last posted. My sister's friend came over yesterday from Calgary, and I'm assuming she's staying with us for a week or so. Since my sister's going to China with a few other people from her campus fellowship, they're trying to raise more money still before they go. So anyways, once she got here, they had already planned that they'd be baking for the night. And because we didn't have some of the ingredients, they went to Save On to buy more. Oh right, the ingredients are all to make like cookies, and chocolates, and stuff like that, cuz it's a bake sale fundraiser.

Anyways, all I can remember is being extremely annoyed, because I feel like I can't even go out to my own kitchen, which is central to my house and right outside of my room...literally, locked up in my room, because I feel like I'm being a disturbance if I'm somewhere else. I woke up to a blender this morning at 8am, and I don't think I slept till about 1 or 2 because they were cooking and laughing. T_T" Dude, I don't care if you don't want to sleep, but don't let it affect me. A cranky Kat is not a happy one. Anyways...last night from about 8-ish till maybe noon or so this morning when the two left to apparently West Ed.

Why is that I'm always the last to be told everything in my house?! First, I didn't realize she was coming to live with us till two days before, and apparently everyone already knew a week or two before! Then, there's the whole my parents helping the Cantonese ministry plan/decorate the hall a grad dinner. And so, I've been pulled into helping. BUT...I didn't even realize it was next week till they told me two or three days ago as well. The past week, that's what I've learned, my family doesn't tell me anything, even though I tell them everything.

Anywho, why I'm extremely mad right now? Cuz apparently around 10-ish, my dad called the house and my sister's friend picked up the phone, and let my sister listen. It was my dad. And he told me just now when he got home that he asked my sister to give the phone to me, and she told him that I wouldn't talk to him. I didn't even know that he wanted to talk to me? So, how can she make the decision herself for that to be the case?

Lately, with my boredom, and being locked into my room, I've been randomly scribbling. And what I've learned? Don't watch NEWS's Never Ending Wonderful Story DVD when you're hungry...I feel like eating takoyaki now. XD I don't know that's wrong with me lately. I'm starting to hate sweets...and I've been really into eating things that are salty-ish?...more like soy sauce flavored.
Posted at 5:10PM

June 2, 2009
Something to get me out of depression came by email tonight when I got back from West Ed. Apparently, in January 2010, I'm headed to Hokkaido! :D I still have to figure out what they pay for...but it seems like it's a definite maybe. ^^" I just felt too happy...and decided to post that much. XD So yes, finally some good news out of all the chaos that's been going on lately. It's horrible that when bad things happen, I start to doubt, and when something good happens, I love my life again. T_T" I should really try to change that...Anyways, my short update. :D
Posted at 9:39PM

May 30, 2009
I'm happy. :D Well, the only reason really is the fact that I found out I finally got direct-deposited my complete first week check. I've officially made $455.48. Unfortunately, it doesn't get any higher because of lack of work. I've been out the last wo nights trying to search around for work with my dad, but only two places seemed to be hiring. It seems, I'm screwed if I'm trying to find something this summer? One of my friends tried to find a job for the summer, and is working every Saturday only, because that's all the owner would give her. T_T" I even heard a few of my friends that are doing door-to-door sales because that's all they can find. Is it because of the recession? Me and my bad luck. I shouldn't have quit Save-On, if I knew that the nursery manager would hate me.

So...what I've been doing for the last few days...reading...watching dramas...normal stuff? XD Playing darts...boxing...teasing my sister. To be honest, that's the fun part about having an older sister. You get to tease her like crazy about boys. XD That is, unless she's in a really cranky mod, and she'll be scary. T_T" Oh yeah, I totally need to learn how to drive this summer. XD That's one goal that'll need to be accomplished, ne?

Recently, I talked to a friend that I haven't heard from in a while. That's only sad, because she lives down the street from me. XD Ah, that's the friend that I mentioned before, about working only Saturdays! Did anyone realize, that when you mention you're depressed to someone, people tend to think that there's something wrong? My mom told me, that I probably was giving off the wrong impression when I say things like that. Cuz, it's not like I'm looking for consolation or anything, unless I ask for it. I feel like lately...I've been randomly ranting, and thing's really making sense. XD So, if I'm unclear, just tell me. XD
Posted at 1:41PM

May 25, 2009
After church yesterday, I went over to the nursery to figure out what was up with my job and everything. It was insanely busy, and when I found my manager, turns out I'm not fired. I've become a temporary worker as a part-time worker, because they hired 3 extra people, and "supposedly" now have too many people. To me, it feels like an excuse not to let me work...but, I'll let it go for now. I picked up my first check, which is like, literally my first day pay check, because it was only for about $80. Though, what it means is that I'll have to go this week also, just to get my first week pay check. *sigh* Seriously, so much running around...T_T"

My sister recommended me try to get a job at Starbucks in the mean time, because she thinks I could probably do it. I just think I'd be too slow...but there's no hurt in trying? I don't know, I'm just siting around, I should try to find a job in the mean time, so I'm not just sitting at home doing nothing...

I'm hoping to go on an internship in Hokkaido for the winter semester...did I mention that before? Probably...anywho, I still need to send in my letter/application/resume ting.and hopefully, I get it...and then I get to be there till maybe the end of May. :D I'm guessing another friend of mine from LA is also going there for internship...but I should really find somewhere to live for fall semester first, ne? XD It's either that...or hopefully finding something in Edmonton..or...I don't know. But either way, it'll work out in the end. ^^"
Posted at 3:23PM

May 22, 2009
I must've realized it a long time ago, but I felt like talking about it now. XD Anyone realize why NEWS's first single didn't really count for anything? And that it was only sold in a 7-Eleven? I was watching old episodes of Shounen Club (the one in particular being 2003.10.05), and apparently, "Peace Sign" was a song that the juniors sang, with the exact same melody of NEWS's debut single "NEWS Nippon". :D Apparently, "Stand Up" was at one point also a juniors song.

I've been bored the past week with not having to go to work, and so, what've I been up to? Re-reading Fushigi Yuugi...listening to music, watching old clips, starting to make my video documentary of japan, and downloading Sailor Moon. XD Oh yeah, and trying to teach myself guitar even though my mom's old books aren't making any sense, and I can't figure out if I tuned the guitar right. XD That and my fingers hurt. My documentary isn't much yet...and probably shouldn't even be considered a documentary. But I can't figure out another word for it.

So, yeah, aside from fandom...family friends from Calgary are here for the weekend because of a wedding. I spent the better part of today doing nothing, and waiting and waiting till they arrived at 6:30-ish. XD With the eldest son still yet to arrive, we went to go have dinner. Apparently, he and his friends got lost twice. haha. And then the couple are staying over tonight in Kim's room, because Kim's away at ASK camp...and their kids are staying with friends at the university. :D A little awkward. XD

I ended up calling my work place, and trying to get a hold of the manager that I don't like, to see what's up with my schedule, because she still hasn't contacted me. The person that picked up tried to find her and couldn't cuz apparently, she was busy working. And so, the lady took my name and phone number and said she'd call me back. Dude, I called at like noon, and it's already past closing time, so what the hell?! T_T" My dad says that my manager should not be allowed to use the weather as an excuse to fire me without knowing...that is, she can't fire me without me knowing. *sigh* Anywho...if life gets interesting, I'll keep you guys posted. :D
Posted at 10:08PM

May 19, 2009
Whenever I'm back in Edmonton, my want to update is always greatly less compared to when I'm in Guelph. T_T" Perhaps I'm way too bored over there? XD Anyways, Monday morning I saw snow, and arrived at work at 10, like I was supposed to. And apparently because of the snow, they haven't put out a new schedule yet, nor have they called me back since Monday to tell me about a new schedule. So, until the weather gets warmer, and less snowy, I'm at home. I spent most of today burning files off of my external hard drive onto DVDs to make room for the coming year. XD

Yesterday, I spent the day with my dad all around town. And, apparently popcorn makes me hyper. Totem, which to those who don't know, it's a hardware store like Home Depot, has free popcorn at the door. And somehow, the popcorn brought back a 'past-like' feeling, and I felt like a kid again. XD Anywho, afterwards, we did all the shopping we had to do, and my dad asked if there was anywhere I wanted to go. I suggested Future Shop, the new one in South Commons that I still hadn't gone to even though it probably opened a while back. XD So, while inside, we looked at phones, cameras, monitors, laptops, blu-ray player, and last but not least, an acoustic guitar.

As weird as it feels, I really want to learn how to play a guitar. It's just a lot more versatile to carry than a keyboard. Seeing as my paycheck should be coming soon for the week I've worked, I could totally buy one. But it's more about commitment, I guess, because I don't know if this is just a phase, or if I'll stick through it. T_T" I mean, I wanted to pay back my dad for the trip, at least, for the amount of money I used. But my dad obviously spoils me like crazy.

Work is dull compared to music and singing...and even learning the guitar. That's the only reason why I've hated my job, well...besides for the fact that on my third day my manager threatened to fire me, which I believe I mentioned before. I'm just hoping, she's not using the snow as an excuse to like 'postpone' my working? or something?..does that make sense? XD But seriously, snow in the middle of May. It sucks.
Posted at 9:43PM

May 14, 2009
Today in general has been a bad day. I woke up at 7:15, meaning I had about an hour to get ready to get to work. When I got out the door, I found out it was snowing, and freezing. Finally got to work at 8:50. Then, the snow got worse and worse, and it started to rain at the same time. So, two other people in perennials started moving those humungous steel swings, and asked me to help. So, when I got to help, somehow, I ended up getting hit in the head with one of them, and not feeling it till a good 2 or 3 minutes later.

Yes, the good news gets better. Then, more and more rain, and the manager decides that we should move all the pots and color coat them. Anywho, while helping my manager calls me over and tells me to sweep, and so I sweep. And 5 minutes later, she comes over and tells me, that I'm working too slow, and if that's the case, she'd have to "let me go"...what the hell? Dude, the area she told me to sweep was humungous, and yet she expects me to finish sweeping it all in 5 minutes? What am I? Anywho...with all the working in various weather, I'm officially sick now. So, I think I'm calling in sick on Saturday, because I don't know if I can do it...
Posted at 5:31PM

May 13, 2009
What's there to say...I find that honestly, in the summer, if I don't travel, and I'm home in Edmonton there's nothing to talk about except for work. T_T" I'd get bored reading my own entries too. >.<"

Pretty much, yesterday was spent at work. I biked to work at 8:15, and got to the nursery at 8:35. Let's just say, it was mad early, and the doors weren't even open yet. But it was clear and sunny, maybe even warm when I arrived at work. And about twenty to thirty minutes in, the weather changed drastically, winds picked up for a while. And so, since I'm working in a nursery, and in the perennials department, all my plants are outside, and you're not allowed to leave your department, unless it's like raining or something. So, we spent the morning till about 11-12-ish arranging the perennials in the shade in alphabetical name by common name. So, yeah, anyways, it got really cold, and started to rain and snow...and so we went into one of the greenhouses, and just pretended to work. About an hour or two later, my boss came in and told us that we could leave early if we wanted, because of the weather, and I ended up leaving around 2:30, biking home even with the extreme winds and rain at my face. Once I finally got home and walked in though, my legs were extremely numb! T_T" It's expected, right?

Today, I wore more...XD Biked to work again, and once I arrived a big surprise!!! Apparently, someone had left the sprinklers on overnight 'deliberately', and so almost all the nursery stock = trees, and our strawberry plants were iced over! Whoever was the stupid person who thought that icing over trees to help with the coming week and a half of cold is retarded. Why? Cuz the guys spent most of the day getting rid of the ice. Though it was pretty, and definitely isn't something you'd expect to see in May...

Anyways, so because of the cold weather, we were told to soak everything in perennials bceause the soil was frozen solid and apparently still needed water. After wards, we made lots and lots of boxes, and went to one of the managers to find out what more we needed to do, and they told us nothing! T_T" I stayed for my whole shift this time, but seriously, the whole I was either talking to people, or just dead-heading plants...and pretending I was in annuals and that I knew stuff about them...XD. mm....that's about it for now. I honestly, am surprised I get paid for this, but whatever. It's a job, ne? :D
Posted at 9:58PM

May 11, 2009
^^" I haven't posted in a while, so gomen, ne? It's been an interesting weekend, that's for sure. So, I ended up starting work at the nursery on Saturday from 9-5pm, and to be honest, it was fun. The only problem was that I was so sore after work, I seriously almost couldn't move.

Oh yeah..that and I somehow managed to make my dad's eye go pink. T_T" Because I was sore on Saturday, my dad helped me rub Bengay on my arms and the result was him accidentally getting it in his eye or something. He washed it out with water, and apparently, it spread instead. So, the first thing I woke up to Sunday morning was my mom telling me my dad couldn't open his eye...of course he could though...she just likes making people feel guiltier than they already are.

So, Sunday arrived, and everyone was in a tense mood, even though it was Mother's Day. I gave my mom my present silently, because I didn't want to say anything, cuz I was still mad. The present ended up being...like a hard message board thing...not sure what they're actually called. But just imagine a sign board, like the kind Johnny's throw during concerts, but perhaps a bit harder with a picture of irises on it? XD I bought it at the Daiso while I was in Harajuku the last day. My mom after the first few minutes of looking at it kept asking me how much it was, cuz apparently, it doesn't look like something from a 100 yen store. *shrugz*

Anywho, whenever my sister feels 'sick', she throws a tantrum, and therefore, yesterday morning was not fun at all, especially since we were going to church. Luckily, she was only like that on the way there, and nothing else bad happened...

I bought a bike helmet so I could bike to work. And, I'm kinda afraid to bike over...only because..not that it's far, but because it's really close to the highway, and I have to go over a bridge, and probably start riding my bike like I'm driving a car just to cross over to the nursery. T_T" Well, I'm sure things'll work out...I've got a jam-packed schedule. XD At least I get more money this summer than last, I suppose because I have more hours. I'm making about $400/week, which isn't horrible, seeing as I made less than a 3rd of that last year. T_T"
Posted at 7:29AM

May 7, 2009
My dad said I'm at the age where I should get life insurance. *shrugz* Anywho, I'd already filled out all the forms and what not before I went to Japan, and today, the nurse came over to do all the testing stuff i.e. the blood pressure, samples..etc. Anywho, and so to think it weird, I only learned of what my blood type was today when I asked my mom.

Well in Japan, it seems recently, the latest trends is blood types, and yes, it has nothing to do with the fact that NEWS's new song is a song about bloodtypes. XD Just coincidence, I promise. XD

So yeah, while the nurse was here, she had to see my license and said, "Oh, you're a scorpio. That means I shouldn't cross you, because scorpio's are fiesty." And, so I thought...hmm...then what's my blood type? XD So, I checked out what scorpios are like, and O-types. The below is what I found, and the comments I had about them. ^^"

Other from that, I have nothing much to say. I'm still looking for a fall sublet so I only have to pay four months rent...that and I've been downloading, and then clearing a bit on my external hard drive, and it's taking a lot longer than I thought it would. Cuz I'm not even half way through my clearing process. Lots of fanfics and dramas to catch up on..:D OH! "Smile" is exactly how I imagined it to be. :D "Shiroi Haru" is a lot more interesting than I thought it'd be too! I love Toda Erika, and her character in "BOSS" is extremely fun to watch. But the show overall is perhaps quite similar to something else I've watched before, therefore, somewhat boring in my mind. "The Quiz Show" is actually a lot darker than I'd imagined it to be, and a lot more repetitive also. But it's quite interesting how things are developing, I suppose.

"Atashinchi no Danshi", I've actually been quite funny so far. XD Perhaps a little boring...but again, interesting. "Konkatsu! on the other hand which I was hoping to be a little more eventful, has been pretty boring. T_T" Perhaps it's my high dislike of Nakai-san... "Godhand Teru" is repetitive, but extremely funny and cool to watch. XD "Ghost Friends" sounded like an interesting plot when I first read it, but also extremely repetitive. But the guy from AAA's in it, and I was curious how he was as an actor, even if I hadn't known who he was till I got to Japan. XD "Boku no Imoto" is also one that I wasn't looking forward to. The story moves extremely slow. T_T" And I'm somewhat confused about the story line. Lastly, is "Majo Saiban"...but honestly I haven't watched an episode yet...will once I get the chance. But I'm not a big fan of suspence.

So, in total, while I was in Japan, I was watching....7 dramas, and I'm trying to keep up with 10?!?! T_T" *sigh* Well, more will probably drop once I get bored.

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For Scorpios:
Character:
Scorpio needs to delve beneath appearances to reality. Nothing superficial will do. Try small-talk and Scorpio will move away to look for more fertile pastures where its emotional intensity can be engaged.

That's....sadly true. XD When I can't make conversation with people, I just go find someone else I can talk to. T_T" So, in other words, people who just try to scratch the surface and just 'see how I'm doing'...I'll quickly find someone else to talk to that really wants to know more. XD

Pitfalls:
Scorpio's insight can give it great power and there can be a temptation to use this to control and possess others so that they become dependant. Prone to intense jealousy if they then manage to escape and show attachment elsewhere.

Which I guess would come into play the whole me being at my friend for a good two months T_T" Not the jealousy part though...XD

A word of advice:
Your can penetrate to the faults and sore spots of others. Use this power to heal, not criticise. If you do not forgive and accept others as they are then yours is the greater fault, and you could find yourself isolated and feeling lonely.

XD It's scary how apparently, now I feel like a stereotype...

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I think this one was based on a Sailor Moon concept or something. XD

TYPE O:
People with this blood type are powerful leaders, goal-oriented, enthusiastic, optimistic and good at business.

Traits:
Positive, negative, suitable careers, healthy, status-seekers, idealistic, jealous, leader, goal-oriented, greedy gambler, clear-sighted, unreliable, good at sports, obsessive lover, sexy, can't shut up

I laughed when I read 'can't shut up'. I find myself long-winded only when I feel passionate about something, and feel like I have to finish my story, or I'll be unhappy. XD That's why I rant a lot maybe?

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Type O: Type O's are outgoing, and very social. They are initiators, although they don't always finish what they start. Creative and popular, they love to be the center of attention and appear very self confident.

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Type O:
Advantages: confident, strong-willed, judgmental, dedicated, self-deterministic

Disadvantages: workaholic, insecure, emotional, stubborn, uncompromising, cold personality, over-confident, self-centered
Posted at 8:59PM

May 6, 2009
haha, yeah, firstly I wanted to say that I'm so sorry for spamming you with all my back-entries. XD I'm probably going to upload all my pictures on facebook, just because it's the easiest way to upload so much. My room has honestly become JE-ified. XD I don't find it a bad thing, but it's...XD...funny? Anywho, just wanted to make that note, that and I'm back. XD So, I'll properly go back to commenting and what not :D

I got a call yesterday from Ellerslie Garden Center, so I officially start work this Saturday because they need people for the Mother's Day weekend. I don't know...exactly what I'll be doing yet though, or what I'm supposed to be doing. XD But, it'll be fine.
Posted at 9:14AM

May 4, 2009
I left the new ryokan at around 9:15, and got to the train station at around 9:45, through all my stops and breaks along the way, lugging my luggage. I sat at the station till about 10:30 though and somehow ended up at the airport at around 11:45 >.<" I somehow took an express Keisei Line train, but that's okay.

So I've been walking around aimlessly till about 3, to check in my luggage, and then walked around a bit more till about 4 and went into departures. mmm...now it's just waiting for boarding time at 6:15...ah! And it's only about midnight over in Edmonton T_T" I hope it's not a full flight? I'd be happy with an empty seat beside me. :D Oh yeah, and so while sitting here waiting, some Korean lady came over to me and apparently thought I was Korean? er...well, she started talking to me in Korean anyways.. XD

What can I say? It's definitely been an interesting experience. I feel like I've used so much money, and perhaps wasted so much time. But it's been happy and relaxing. And next week starts work at Ellerslie Garden Center. ^^" *sigh* Well, I'm sure things will work out, they always do. I made it to the airport, with both my luggage in hand after all. XD

Now, next decision...would be whether or not to do an internship in Hokkaido or not. I mean I think it would be extremely cold...that and, I want to stay at home. XD I'd be an awesome experience for sure, and lots of fun, but I think I should try at home first? Mmm...just because I've used so much money already just for this 3-week trip that and...I'd just feel more and more guilty, though know my dad said he'd let me take this trip as an early grad present! ...*shrugz* I think too much, ne? "それでがんばります！"
Posted at 5:40PM

May 3, 2009
Firstly, went to Harajuku and then over to Shinjuku. Nothing really was there though. From what I saw, it looked like only host clubs, bars, and karaoke places...and maybe a few electronic stores. XD

Made my way back to the ryokan about an hour or two ago, and they'd told me that apparently, I'd miscounted the days, and it's 11 nights till the 4th, since mom when back and not 10. So, I'd under-booked. T_T" So they had helped me book another 'ryokan' while I was gone and helped me across the street that newly opened only yesterday. Well, it's Sunday, ne?

But it's fine. I'm fine, that is. And the people at the other inn were very helpful. Did I mention, my eating habits or...timing I suppose are all over the place? >.<" Well, I'm only eating brunch now and dinner...will probably not be til a lot later. And seeing how things are going, mm...I'm probably going to leave the inn at around 10 to go to the airport, and then...I'll probably get to the airport around 12:30, and wander there for a bit? *sigh* My flight's not till 7 though. XD Anyways, It'll work out, I'm sure.
Posted at 3:37PM

May 2, 2009
I really don't want to think about how much money I've used! >.<" But I feel like I really did use at least $50-100 a day because of food and trains. That and..I probably spent at least a good $200 on JE stuff alone, which I think includes the 5 CDS that I bought. I hadn't planned on buying Tegomass's AiAiGasa or NEWS's Hoshi wo Mezashite...or NEWS's Koi no ABO...or Kanjani8's PUZZLE...but >.<" It's hard when they're right there in front of you, and you need to make the decision. XD

Anywho, I ended up at Suidobashi around 10:30, and spent the rest of the morning at Tokyo Dome City. There wasn't really any advertisements at all about KAT-TUN's Dome Con, but I assume it's because of Tsuruno's ads on new attractions, and the fact that there was an X-Japan tour going on there for two or three days.

After wards, I made my way to Akihabara and walked a bit. Found an electronic dictionary fr only 14800 yen! So yes, that's mad cheap! XD The other day when I'd gone, the cheapest in the store had been 24800 yen. But, I debated for a few seconds, and decided not to buy one, and left to go back home. Somehow, I found Waratte Iitomo Spring Special and Canjani on TV. XD I debated some more about splitting my luggage into two..mm...hopefully, I'll be able to bring them to the station by myself.
Posted at 4:20PM

May 1, 2009
Yo! ^^" Apparently dad's worried about me. But that's normal, right? ^^" I ended up waking up around 9, but not leaving the inn till about 10:30. By the time I got to Roppongi, it was already 11:45-ish? Taking the metro was long! But it got straight there, so whatever. XD I bought my ticket for Crows Zero II, and walked around TV Asahi till around 12:30 to go back to the theater.

They have an interesting way of saying all the things you can't do in a movie theater. XD And the movie itself was unexpectedly pretty god! Though I'd been hoping to watch either "Oppai Volley" or "Yattaman", but *shrugz* I just hated the fact that the people I knew in the movie, had so few scenes. XD But it's okay. But seriously, what's the point of Kuroki Meisa and Miura Haruma's characters anyways? They just kinda stood there. XD Perhaps, when I watch it with subs later, I'll get it? ...haha that and rewatchinte first part. XD
Posted at 4:46PM

April 30, 2009
The morning started back at the Johnny's shop, because I'd heard new photos were out. XD Whoever said that the top floor and bottom floor were different lied. Because they're pretty much exactly the same...just direction of things being placed are different, that and upstairs has a flashy light thing that sends like a light to the ground that says Johnny's. So till about 11 I was there. Then, off to Meiji Shrine for about an hour. Apparently, someone was having a wedding or something. It wouldn't be uncommon at least. I just saw video camera,s and other people taking pictures, and I did the same. XD

Then, I went back to Takeshita-dori to see the unofficial goods shops. Apparently, you can't buy only buttons, you have to buy at least a picture or a poster to buy buttons. >.<" I stumbled upon a store selling tickets for Dome Con. Found a crepe store, and ate there for lunch. Then, I walked over to Shibuya towards Tower Records, found it to have 7 floors! No wonder people could go on dates there. :D

I actually spent a good 2 or 3 hours there just listening to CDs. I took the train to Shinjuku and took the Odakyu line around 5 - rush hour, to Sobudai-mae. I forgot if anyone mentioned the exit, but I had a 50-50 chance, and picked the North Exit, and somehow looked right, saw the yellow flashing sign already!

Since I went by myself, I didn't have to wait, and sat at the bar. I got there around 7:30-ish and left around 8. A lot of people were waiting outside to go in! Extremely surprised! But I guess I shouldn't be. XD But OMG! Koyama-mama really is the splitting image of Koyama. Same face, and just a girl version of Koyama. XD At first I didn't realize it, cuz I didn't expect her to look so young! She looks like she's in her late 30's? Oh, and actually very pretty :D Got back to Minami-senju around 9:20, and somehow when I got off the train, the supermarket guy got off also. SO, yes, another surprise. XD
Posted at 10:15PM

April 29, 2009
Yo! I lied. XD I was going to go to Harajuku, and to the ramen shop, but I decided that yesterday was a big day, and I should take it easy today. Therefore, instead, I went to Shimbashi and walked around the NTV building. I didn't realize so much would be going on there until I got in though.

So I got to the lower level, and first thing I saw was the NTV store. I walked around in there for a bit. Next thing you know, that Zoom in bird, well, someone dressed as him anyways, was walking down the large set of stairs. So apparently, the hosts were going to do a little broadcast and then sell their books or something.

After taking like a gazillion pictures, I walked over to some game show booth, and saw people handing out pamphlets along the side. So, for Golden Week, NTV is having a special Treasure Hunt. You have to go all around NTV Tower to find the treasure boxes, and fill in the word, go back to the "Goal" when finished, and unscramble the word.

Honestly. XD I had no idea what I was doing. I was generally following people, and then looking at the paper reading "イーズンム" for the longest time until I realized that they'd probably ask you to unscramble it to "ズームイン", Zoom In, the name of that morning show.

So, you get to pick from three boxes, picked the blue one, and wah lah! I got the blue Zoom In! bird sticker. XD I'm assuming the red box was the pink bird, and the yellow box, must've been the green one.

I'd been hoping for more coverage on maybe Cartoon KAT-TUN or NEWS hosting 24 hour Terebi this year, but there was nothing on both! Though I did find some stuff for "Music Fighter".

So, I went to Nihombashi to find the bridge, walked in the wrong direction and walked back. But I did find it. :D I went to Kanda hoping to find some good second-hand books, but I think I might've went out the wrong exit or something? All I saw was restaurants and a Lawson's. So I went in to buy lunch and then off to Ueno JR station to buy CDs. But sadly, I'd forgotten today was the 29th, meaning of course KAT-TUN's CD would be sold out. >.<" I'll probably have to wait another few days to not have to fight someone to get it. But I did find the RE NEWS single, so I bought that. XD I was surprised there was less of the RE left than the LE! Oh yeah, and getting off at Minami-senju station, someone gave me tissues. XD I feel like an adult. XD
Posted at 2:22PM

April 28, 2009
I'm thinking of going to go watch a movie one day, because I have so much unexpected time on my hands. I thought Golden Week meant everyone on vacation. But that doesn't seem to be the case at all! People are still going to work, and to school! I don't quite get it! >.<"

I got home about an hour ago. Went to Odaiba today. Uwahh...it was amazingly fun! Agreebly, it can get really lonely, but it was so many levels of awesome! Firstly, I got to Daiba station, saw the Statue of Liberty and walked the promenade a bit, and then walked over to Fuji TV building and spent a good two or three hours over there. I bought the 500 yen ticket to go to te 25th floor inside the little ball thing, and slowly went down. I went back down to the 5th floor to see a bit. Unfortunately, no shooting or anything was going on in the studios, but it was still pretty cool.

Then, I went to the first floor, and saw a Lawson's. So, I bought lunch, and then ate lunch there, got back on the train and over to Aomi for Palette Town. Venus Fort's inside, looks a lot like a place my family went to in Las Vegas. XD But it was cool. And I think some Korean program or something might've been filming cuz I saw so much film crew and what I thought I heard was Korean being spoken. After walking the 2nd floor, stumbled upon some Toyoto Museum or something.

Even that was awesome. XD I'm a car fanatic...well, more models than anything, so when I walked in, and there wasn't very many people, and only a handful of guys, I just continued to walk in. But man. XD The way they set the cars up could look a bit creepy. >.<" Like some crazy clown could jump out behind one at any moment.

Then I walked over to a huge arcade, played once, and gave up. XD I suck at UFO catchers. :D I just though, I should try it once since i was there. Ten I bought the 900 yen ticket for the 16-minute giant ferris wheel ride. It was actually so many degrees of awesome. :D That and...not many people were riding, so each capsule, or whatever those things are called, were separated by like two or three and me documenting myself was not embarrassing at all. XD

Then, I walked the lower level of Venus Fort, and walked the Tokyo Teleport Bridge, over to the Odaiba-Kaihinkoen Station to ride the train back to Shiodome to transfer back home. ^^" It was almost 5, so I just missed rush hour on the way hoe. XD Lucky! Tomorrow's plan...mmm...to go to buy the 2 CD's and the JE shop again...and Koyama's ramen shop ^^"
Posted at 6:02PM

April 27, 2009
I don't know how, but I somehow passed all my courses from the winter semester.
Zoology - 62
Sociology - 60
Construction 70
Landscape Architecture I - 75
Urban and Regional Planning - 80

I'm currently sitting on a 69.71 average for all of the semesters up til now, which means I'll most likely be able to go on internship after all! ^^" I'm extremely happy! Especially since I thought I'd failed sociology for sure, especially after the final, which was worth 35%, and my writing was literally all over the place for it. I got through my bio credit! And I didn't fail either :D Life has again become awesome, and sometimes, I really am just so glad, to be me. XD

Sure enough, my grades aren't great, and my parents probably kow it to. But everything's being done at my own pace, and as hard as I can. Like I've said before, I don't purposely try to do bad on exams, it's just...my crappy memory? *shrugz* Anywho, I'm very hapy overall with my LA marks. They keep me happy, that's for sure. Especially since I did a lot better this semester than last, even if I was stressing so much more too!

I am either using the computer too much, or staying at the ryokan way too much, because the lady at the counter asked me if staying by myself was lonely. I'm not denying it, but it was interesting she mentioned it.

Today started with me going to Todai! OMG! Their campus is amazing! Not only is it huge, but the architecture and the crazy trees...uwahh! amazing! :D After wards, I went to Akasaka, where TBS is located. Accidentally went into their building, assuming the store would be inside, but it wasn't. XD Either way, I went back out of the building, walked a bit further and found the store!

Surely, looking for the earrings from Ryusei, is to long ago. >.<" They didn't seem to have them anymore, only the curry. On the other hand, I bought a cute little TBS mascot and two bears from "Boku no Imouto"...because they matched so well1 ...and they were so cute. XD Too bad they didn't have the two pigs from "Smile" yet though...T_T"

After wards, I was starting to get hungry, but made my way to Ginza. I'd written down Wako, but wen I saw the building, I knew for sure it was definitely something I couldn't get into. Like they might not let me into the store. XD

So, I walked around the streets stumbling upon a waffle store, and bought some for lunch, and made my way back to the station. Since it was only about 1, I went to Asakusa, trying to find some souvenirs and later decided to call it a day and go back home. Mainly because it was getting really windy, even though there was no rain yet.
Posted at 5:10PM

April 26, 2009
First stop today was Ropongi! ^^" I'd wanted to see the spot that I'd based my final project on. And I hadn't realized, it was the location of TV Asahi til I got out of the station and signs direction to TV Asahi started popping up. There was the all-famous spider, and then lots of escalators down. I somehow ended up doing a 360 around the entire TV Asahi building, cuz I didn't know there was another entrance from the one I saw. TV Asahi's located next to an extremely pretty Japanese garden, I believe it's called Mori garden? Well, it's small...but, it's pretty. XD I spent the morning there and at the shop. It seemed we weren't allowed to go any further though inside cuz they were prepping for something.

Next stop was Ebisu, I spent...a long time just trying to find it. >.<" Cuz I took the metro there and you come out a different direction. So, after 2 wrong ways of walking, and asking a police man who couldn't seem to understand my Japanese or my english...or me just saying Ebisu Garden Place, I finally found the Skywalk and made my way there. It's a lot prettier than I'd imagined it to be. :D

The whole plaza is absolutely breathtaking. XD Definitely worth my geting los twice to find it. By then, I was already tired, but decide to go to Ikebukuro and was famished! 1 large slice of bread apparently wasn't enough for lunch, and I got bored of the department stores I went into fast, and went to Okachimachi. It's a nice little district called Ameyoko?...a lot like Osaka's Dotonbori. I found a crepe shop and bought one, and made my way back home from there. Honestly, 7 hours of being out a day, I think is all I can take! >.<" But there's still so much time, so I'm sure it'll be fine. ^^"
Posted at 4:03PM

April 25, 2009
Went to Akihabara and spent the morning in an 8flore store, debating buying an electronic dictionary for the longest time. XD I found a Chinese restaurant for lunch, and ate gyoza which is amazingly good! :D And then went to Nakano to go to the "all-famous" Nakano Broadway" It's weird...XD I was taking pictures and video-ing all the way up, and when I was about to leave and take a picture, someone told me I couldn't. XD I blame the fact that they make the signs that says you can't take pictures so small! T_T" Cuz I was told the same thing at the Johnny's FC for the same thing. XD

Did I mention? The whole Kusanagi SMAP guy story of him getting drunk and not remembering running around naked or something, and then getting arrested? That was on the news almost all hours three days in a row, and I'm sure even more continually later on.

I'm highly considering the Hokkaido job. It'll be cold, but it sounds pretty good. And I cut my tongue, so it's been bugging me the past few days. Oh, and it's been pouring all day. I hope it gets better tomorrow...
Posted at 5:35PM

April 24, 2009
^^"...well, where to start, heard my mom got home safely, which is good. I forgot to mention that I might end up interning in Hokkaido for the winter 2010 semester because it's available. But I just need to look at costs and weather and stuff like that. But it'd seem like fun, plus...it was one that my prof recommended I do if I wanted to an internship in Japan.

Early...no...around 8:45, I left the ryokan and took the JR to Harajuku, came out the right exit, and somehow ended up on an overpass and saw the square from there, that's in so many pictures showing people where to find the Johnny's shop. XD I saw a line already, and wasn't sure what it was for, but because of the line, I saw "Playhouse" and walked into the street to see the Johnny's shop and assumed the line was for that. I stood there also. XD After a good 15 minute wait, some of the store workers lead us in, and I was ushered to the basement level, and didn't realize there was a second level. So, I might go back if I have time another day. After wards, I went down Takeshita-dori and went into a whole bunch of unofficial stores, bought lots...>.<" I think in total today, spent a good $100 in these shops alone.

I felt guilty, so I left Harajuku. XD Last time I tried to find Harajuku, I ended up somewhere else. So I took the JR one station to Shibuya, and decided to go find the Johnny's family Club, and it ended up being kinda in an obscure location, but I found it and was amazed at the age of the people watching the TV's. I guess if you guys go, don't expect too much, cuz there really isn't much to do there. ^^" But it was fun..

After wards, I thought I'd had too much Johnny's for a day, and walked over to Shibuya 109, walked a few floors to realize I wasn't really in the mood to buy anything anyways due to the morning, and pretty much got on a train back to Minami-senju. Tomorrow, shall be off to Akihabara and Nakano Broadway. mmmm...hopefully, I won't get lost? I don't have a map on how to get to Nakano Broadway. >.<"
Posted at 4:27PM

April 23, 2009
Went to Imperial palace, and then walked to the east gardens. We went back to the ryokan and got our luggage, got me rechecked in, and then off to the airport we went.

Dropped my mom off, made sure my mom got through, and back the way I came, back to the ryokan, cuz it was already 5-ish. So, there goes the plans of going to Akihabara today, but there's still lots of time, so I'm sure I'll see it later.

On the other hand, I can admit, by myself it does seem a little lonely. And I don't have someone to be reassuring that my Japanese is enough to get by. Well, hopefully, more tomorrow? Randomly found Tokyo Friend Park II for Smile on TV, so ended up watching that. XD
Posted at 7:51PM

April 22, 2009
Left at 8 and went to Ueno to transfer to Yokohama. But, it was rush hour, and therefore, lots of people and my mom was scared, so we ended up hanging around Ueno station till about 9 looking at the different shops and stuff. Ended up finding a CD shop and buying NEW's Hoshi wo Mezashite...and debated buying the new Kanjani8 album again.

Got to Yokohama and stores there apparently, don't open till 11. >.<" And we got there around 10:15. Anyways, we sat around, and went to the port side until about 12ish, and then walked inside Sogo, and then went to Minato Mirai 21...well, mainly to see the convention center and the ferris wheel. ^^" I was taking a video of it, and an elderly guy asked me if I needed/wanted him to help me take a picture for me, and I told him I was fine. XD

We ended up going to Hamamatsucho station from there and taking a 20-minute walk to Tokyo Tower around 4:45-ish. There's a small temple/shrine before the entrance, so we almost went there instead. We found Tokyo Tower, bought the tickets to go in, and then went to 125m? And saw Tokyo from all sides...we went down a floor, and people apparently were crowding around. People started singing "Let it Be" and realized it was just their rehearsal. We ate dinner there, and decided to stick around to see the night view. And they started singing again at 7. Around 7:40, we left and went back home...

Oh? Did I mention the supermarket by the ryokan in Minami-senju? When we first came about a week ago, we went there every night, and so the guy I went to pay at was also the same both times. Yesterday, I went again, and went to another register. Today, we went again because my mom wanted to buy breakfast for tomorrow, and yet again, there he stood.I put the bread down, he gave me a surprised look and helped me bag my stuff. That and...we got to the supermarket at 8:45, and it closes at 9!
Posted at 9:41PM

April 21, 2009
mm...seems like I missed a day? no, I lied. I just wrote the wrong day. Anyways, today was mostly going back to Tokyo. Mom was complaining and then went to Harajuku, which was more for me than for mom....because there's so many shops that sell like unofficial pictures and posters, and stuff like that...and you'll see them everywhere down Takeshita-dori. But obviously, it's not the kind of place to go with my mom. XD

So, I guess I'll have to wait till she's gone, as bad as that sounds, to go, just like the Johnny's store. I'm still hoping I'll be able to find it, because I walked up and down the street with the siting area that somebody posted a picture of, and didn't see any indications of the store around...XD
Posted at 7:37PM

April 20, 2009
So, yeah we went to Momodani station to find Korea town, and in general got lost twice, asked for directions 3 times, and gave up eventually because it looked like nothing was open. Ended up going back to the station and going to Tsurubashi to find something to eat, and finding none, and then going to Kyobashi to switch to Osaka-something station. and found the river side and lots of small stores like a flea market.

Bought Hiroshima okonomiyaki for 300 yen, and found a place to sit down and eat. We then went to Osaka station to see what was around, and ended up from there, going home. Sorry Ryo-chan...nothing too interesting about Osaka for me. Surely, there's Osaka Castle and that Tower thing, but we didn't go because we'd already gone to Himeji. Anyways, next time we'll go to Ryo-chan's house XD. Just kidding.

Oh yeah! Now, I have an excuse to study more Japanese. I'd been planning to buy Ryusei no Kizuna, the novel, and finally found it today. So, I'll have something to read for the ride back to Tokyo. 'Night! :D
Posted at 5:30PM

April 19, 2009
Left Kyoto at 9:12, got to Osaka around 10:30 and left our luggage at the hostel. Went back to Osaka so, we could go to Namba. We found Dotonbori street, and then Glico Man...because a lot of Japanese people were taking pictures of it too.

We went back to the station and shopped a bit, and then back to the hostel. Yeah, no TV...so my mom seemed a little bored. But yeah, I guess we're pretty much wandering tomorrow and then back to Tokyo! ^^"
Posted at 5:53PM

April 18, 2009
Yeah...so I lied, I did end up buying lots today. >.<" Well, we went to Arashiyama in the morning, saw Tenryoji temple from the outside, found the bamboo grooves, and then walked to see the bridge. Went back to Kyoto to see the shopping district again. Yeah...bought lots of clothes, and necklaces, and found head phones! I found my Audio technicas for 1980 yen! o_O" And I found a small ikemen store...so I bought a pencil board, a photo, and a cellphone charm. I didn't want to stay any longer, because my mom was waiting outside for me, and if I looked any longer, she'd probably get mad. T_T" Anywho, yes, my highlight for today...my headphones. :D

...and almost getting lost? We had to ask two store workers which direction Kyoto station was, because we somehow lost our way, and one said that "It's 30 minutes away. You want to walk there? That's impossible!" XD Well, we eventually did find our way back though, through walking.
Posted at 6:30PM

April 17, 2009
Came back to Kyoto at around 4:30pm. We got to Kyoto station at around 8:30, and reserved tickets for Himeji at 9:40. Got to Himeji at around 10:15 and walked for 15-20 minutes to get there. The 600 yen entry fee was worth it, because we spent a good few hours there. Walking up and walking around bumping into high school students and lots of obaa-chan...XD

On the way home, went back to Lawson's and bought the Happy Bath Day product after all. XD That, and bought dinner again. So, hopefully I can catch the first ep of "Smile" on TV tonight ^^"

Had talked about buying magazines a few days ago, and it was Potato and Wink Up. Still looking for Myojo ad Duet, or Popolo. Well...I'll see them eventually. I have a feeling I should stop buying stuff and save up for the Johnny's shop. XD
Posted at 6:03PM

April 17, 2009
So yes, like I said, we went to Kinkakuji and Ryoanji, in Northern Kyoto. From Kyoto Station, we followed a whole bunch of students that ended up getting off at the same place to go to Kinkakuji too. When we finished looking around, I asked the traffic guard in front which way Ryoanji was, and he'd said it was a 20-minute walk from where we were. So, we walked over and went in.

OMG! So many cherry blossoms still! :D Probably my highlight...Kyoto and Osaka still had quite a bit of cherry blossoms according to the news. On the walk back from Ryoanji, we saw a kaiten sushi and ended up going in, even though a few minutes before we'd bought food and not eaten it yet. So, we went in...oh, if you don't know what kaiten means...I'm not sure of the direct translation, but my host family in Kobe had called it "cyclone sushi". Pretty much, sushi on a conveyor belt...we ate a few dishes, and won a small prize, which ended up being a sticker...T_T" and kept walking back to Kinkakuji. There was a few stores on the way and saw a hakama for 500 yen, and a yukata for 5600 yen. Yes, we bought them. XD

We found the bus stop back to Kyoto Station and took it back to the ryokan. Left our stuff, ate a bit, and then back to Kyoto Station to take a short trip to Fushimi Inari, the location of the filming of Memoirs of Geisha, where the little girl runs at the end? Yeah...It's really pretty. Unfortunately, I wasn't to sure the reason behind them, and if I did, I might not want to know. XD And it probably wouldn't have been as amusing as it was.

Then, around 4 or 5, we got back to the station and looked at the shops around there for a bit, went to Lawson's and bought food for dinner. Bought the karaage NEWS has been endorsing. XD And I saw Happy Bath Day products, which I might end up going back to buy. XD

We took a traditional Japanese bath, and went back to the room, watched skating... think it was some sort of world cup or something for teams? Going to go to Himeji today. Hopefully, we'll be able to go in the castle and see what's inside. :D And after...mm....if there's time I guess we'll go back to the station again?
Posted at 6:24AM

April 16, 2009
Hey! Well, last I said, we were on the way, and yup, we're here! It took a bit of searching to find the ryokan, but it wasn't that bad. So, once we got there, the lady talked to me in english, and I paid her the amount for four nights, 25200 yen. Well, I don't know if I'd recommend it, but the room was spacious! So, Id accidentally given her the wrong amount and slipped a "そうですか？" and she assumed I could speak Japanese.

So, she asked me if I could, and I said a little, and then she smiled. XD But that's because according to the website, the don't speak very much english in the first place. So, anywho, she asked if my mom did too, and ended up talking half in english and half in Japanese for the tour.

After settling in, we relaxed for a bit, and settled on finding Gion corner, and Heian shrine, but yes, got lost, couldn't find it through walking. I thought it was close, but it wasn't. XD

So, somehow, we ended up stumbling on Teramichi, a little shopping district. Tons of students were there, and I'd assumed it was because they were on a field trip...well, it was only like 2 or 3-ish...

Anywho, I'd gone to the same district when I'd gone back in 2006 following high school students there, and I'd found it weird that I'd found the place again, without trying to find it. XD Anyways, we bought a lot. XD Then, we walked back home, saw the street at night and Kyoto Tower all lit up. We saw a Family Mart and bought a bit of drinks and breakfast, and then made our way home.

Apparently, my mom's scared of Japanese bathtubs and bathrooms. XD But yeah, anyways, we're heading off to Ryoanji and Kinkakuji today :D Tell more about it later.
Posted at 7:14AM

April 15, 2009
I totally forgot to write all about yesterday! I was too tired, so, gomen, ne? ^^" Anyways, we ended up waking up really early. We walked over to Asakusa, and waited for them to open. T_T"

I finally saw the store with Yamapi! XD Well, actually, they were selling the senbei that he ate on Hanamaru Cafe a while ago, but I was happy to see that. XD From there, went to Takadanobaba to find the "Fashion Center Shimamura" store. It rained quite a bit...and the store itself was somewhat disappointing. Perhaps, it was just that one? Most of the clothes were actually quite large. XD Probably best if anyone wants to go to one that has clothes that fits you, try finding the one that Kame went to, even if it's far. XD

After wards, we took the train to Shibuya and tried walking to Harajuku from there T_T"...yeah, I kept going in the wrong direction, got lost. But in the process, I did see posters of Sho and KAT-TUN, and watched a CM for Perfume's One Room Disco. Oh yeah, and it was raining on and off. So tired from walking all day, we ended up just going home.

So yeah, today has been pretty straight forward so far. We went back to Minami-senju station, and it was pretty early so I forgot about rush hour, so since I was holding a small luggage, ended up waiting like an hour at the station for the Joban line till about 8:15, where it wasn't as crowded. We did see a lady standing around on the platform, that got off the first train we saw around 7:30, and she seemed to have lost one of her shoes XD. Ended up waiting around and seeing quite a bit to laugh at, like the guy to help people get on to the trains and close the doors. XD Plus he wasn't bad looking. XD

So, when we got to Ueno, I saw a reservation office, and went over to reserve seats for the shinkansen. Then, took the Yamanote Line to Tokyo, and on to the Hikari shinkansen with reserved seats. :D Oh yeah, and while at Tokyo station, since we were there early, we saw a book store, and bought a few magazines. And so, on the way to Kyoto will talk more later.
Posted at 9:23AM

April 13, 2009
Haha, even though I've been on this plane for only 9 hours, the days already gone! >.<" Oh well...apparently, I need to study Kanji more...filling out forms are bad for me. XD On the other hand, the flight wasn't all that bad, seeing as it was Air Canada. T_T" There was so much turbulence. Though, it was weird seeing Japanese people get up from their seats, even though the seat belt light was on.

Movies on the plane kinda sucked. >.<" And even if you push the hostess button, they don't come over to you. T_T" So, in general, I want to say bad service, because it was a pretty empty plane too. I mean, I was sitting next to my mom, but across the aisle, a lady slept in like 3 or 4 seats herself.

Did I mention? it's been like hot and cold the whole trip? Apparently, my mom thought I had a fever or something. XD Well, let's hope not...^^" I guess we'll land in an hour, and hopefully arrive by 7pm at the ryokan. :D
Posted at 2:37PM

April 12, 2009
I woke up at around 7, cuz I wasn't sure when we were going to leave to go to the airport. And of course, we didn't end up leaving till 8:45. So, with waking up early, I found Kanjani8's new album before I left! :D What can I say? Glorious makes me extremely happy, and a lot of the songs on the album are extremely good!

Not to mention, the Glorious PV is just so much love. XD haha, so aside from that, I got to Vancouver around 12:00pm, and we don't take off to Tokyo till 1:30, about an hour to go, ne? I didn't realize that there'd be so many Japanese people taking the flight along with us, that and...lots of Caucasians! XD Anywho, nothing eventful for today really...the day gets wasted being on the plane so when we arrive, it's already Monday in the late afternoon. That is, even if it is 10 hours on a plane.
Posted at 12:37PM

April 9, 2009
I probably won't be updating anytime soon, because of my almost a month in Japan..But I'll have a few massive posts about my trip when I get back, that is, as long as I get over the jetlag. ^^" So, yes I probably won't update till May 6 or 7th.

Yesterday's flight was horrible. I hadn't realized that it was easter weekend, meaning lots of families on the plane going home to see grand parents and what not. So I was stuck on a 4-hr flight with crying babies non-stop and someone kicking my seat every now and then. Oh yes, and some crazy turbulence. But I came home to no snow, though a little left on the ground, and 13 degree weather, it was nice. Though...isn't Guelph about there now too?

I ended up waking up at around 8, regardless of the time change, and going to some doctor that you need to line up early for. And so, I went to see a doctor a bit before 9, and waited till they opened. Once they opened and me and my dad went in to wait, and even though I was first on the list, I didn't actually end up getting checked till 9:30. After that, I was told to get an x-ray, and we went to the place to get one, another 30 minutes later, we went back home.

Oh? Did I mention the good news? I'm probably not jobless for the summer anymore. I'm glad. :D Well, I went over to Classic, and talked to some person, and then gave in my resume, and they told me to call back when I get back from my trip so they could interview me. Apparently, they have landscape design studio, which I'm extremely curious about, because I might be able to work there for internship. And so, afterwards, I went over to Ellserlie Nursury to re-give my resume, cuz my dad had already dropped by once. The owner came out and greeted me, and brought out his folder of applicants, and said he could interview me on the spot.

So, I got interviewed...though I found it more to be a conversation than anything. Why? Because the main thing he saw on my resume was the fact that I went to University of Guelph, and was in the Landscape Architecture program, and that's really all he seemed to care about. So, he asked me what hours I wanted, what days of the weeks, the date I could start, and the 'department' I'd like to work in. But..yeah, it was quick, and I think that means I've got the job. It's iffy pay...$10/hr....but it's still alright I guess. At least I'll learn at the same time.
Posted at 10:03PM

April 6, 2009
Ever get into a conversation with people saying that double eyelids make a person look prettier than those with single eyelids? As far as I know, my family all have double eyelids. And only a month or so back, I realized that I have both. T_T" It's really starting to bother me now, because I didn't realize it back then...like seriously, at least 19 years of my life not knowing my eyes were so messed up. XD But yeah, the more I look at my eyes, it just feels like one's being lazy, and the other's being normal. I'm not complaining because I don't like double eyelids, or don't like single eyelids. I'm complaining because it's weird to have one of both, and not to have realized it till recently. XD...well, anyways, that's what I said until today. For some reason, they've somewhat gone back to normal. I'm suspecting that's it has to do with amount of usage of my eyes or something.

I've also had my hair at a certain length, and never beyond that point. And, last year when I cut it, apparently the lady who cut it for me told me I had natural curls...and well, my hair was purely straight so I brushed it off. And so, now that my hair is at this length...it seems my hair does kind of naturally curl half way...it's weird. XD

Zoology exam is done!...and my presentations done too. I totally winged it though...and even the jury guy said I was nervous, but it's okay. At least I did good on my zoology, or I would've been said from his comments. XD Packing's actually almost done. I'm really only waiting on Wednesday morning to pack all my blankets and pillows on the bed and a bit of laundry. Then, I think everything will be good. ^^" Ah~ Wednesday is so close!

So, I randomly got a text from my dad saying, "Why don't you go to Tokyo Disneyland while you're there?" I'd assumed 5800 yen was expensive...but apparently he doesn't think so, so me and my mom are going to go the day after we land. T_T" We'll be so jetlagged, but, it'll be fun I think. XD I'm curious to how big it is...I mean, it's got to be bigger than HK Disneyland at least...

I'm really excited for Japan right now..mostly because it randomly started to snow here in Guelph, and the weather randomly dropped. It's even warmer in Edmonton! I think it's like 13 in Edmonton, and in Tokyo 23!!! T_T" Here...like -2? XD Anyways...yes, I should get back to studying, ne?
Posted at 6:40PM

April 4, 2009
I've officially fallen in love with Aiba's solo songs. XD Pretty much all I've seen of AAA is his solo - Hello, Goodbye...<3 Then again I've only heard this one and Friendship. :D I ended up leaving the house around 12:35, and running for the bus, and seriously, like just making it. I'm glad my bus stop is like a minute from my door. T_T" Anywho, once I got to school, I ate supposed lunch and studied sociology for a good hour till I debated with myself whether to go to the "How to Study Your Bible correctly" workshop or not...

Well, eventually I went and it wasn't all that bad. Though, I can admit, I feel as though I knew all the stuff Jon mentioned in the workshop already. T_T" I guess it's a matter of actually doing it though. XD About half way through I had to go to the bathroom, and when I came out of the room, Matt was sitting outside. So yeah apparently he was stopped by Jehovah's Witness people, and he was talking to them for a while, which was why he was late, and sitting there debating whether he should go in or not. So, I told him just to go in. XD

After the workshop, I ended up going to the library to study some more sociology for a good...hour more. Can I just say...it's weird to hear people's conversations sometimes. XD I was sitting in the library at one of the computers on the first floor with my headphones in, I guess, which gave the impression I was listening to my mp3 player and not listening to anyone around me. But, I was just too lazy to take them off I think. Anywho, some Korean guy ends up sitting next to me, and his friends come and like talk to him in Korean. I think they were joking with him or something, but next thing I know, all I hear is "No man, it's not like that. She's Chinese." And after that they kept staring at me. T_T" That would explain why I don't join asian clubs...well, ACF doesn't count. XD

And so...I've still got to clean my room a bit before Ryan moves in...it's mad dusty. T_T" That and I should find a way to get rid of my bed and fridge before I move out so he has room to put his stuff in the room at least since I'm also leaving my stuff here for the summer. I know this is small compared to having to still find a place for September, but all in due time I suppose.

Apparently, since I come home on the 8th, while I was in the library, my sister was on msn and asked me whether I wanted to go to her fellowship's end of the year party. T_T" I don't know anyone...but apparently, it's some secret agent theme and so she wants me to go as her stunt double or something. That sounds weird, right? XD And then she asked me if I'd go as She-go and her as Kim Possible...because her name's Kim. XD *sigh* Well, we'll see...if I'm extremely bored, then I'll go, but I'm sure I'll be jetlagged or something...or say no eventually...I guess that's all for now.
Posted at 8:43PM

April 2, 2009
Perhaps I'd be one of the people that are extremely happy for the rumors going around that NEWS is going back to 8 members, and Uchi and Kusano are back~ But somehow, I think it might just be like a April Fool's joke just floating around. Why? Because no one's really heard of what Kusano's been up to since he's been in NY for university. But on the other hand, it'd explain a lot of things...like why NEWS hasn't been on the news in a really long time. :D

Yes, back to my list, and no, it's not because I have nothing to say. T_T" It's because I need to remind myself too. XD
FRI (3): Hand in construction project, study for zoology & sociology!
SAT (4): study some more~!
SUN (5): packing, laundry, more studying~! prepare something for my 5-min presentation for Dundas Square
MON (6): Zoology Final and Presentation on Dundas Square
TUES (7): Studying for Sociology~, finish packing
WED (8): Sociology Final, rushing to catch the bus and go home to pack some more and wait for Red Car to come and pick me up to go to the airport.

So...it's 6 days till I get to go home~! Which makes it 10 days till I go to Japan? Kyaaaa~! XD I'm happy...though I really need to study and I can't concentrate at all! I was hoping to go to the How to study your bible workshop thing or whatever it's called on Sunday, but with all this rushing, I don't know if I can anymore. T_T" It sounded extremely useful.

My dad said he'd take off work starting the 9th to stay and hang out with me! ^^" So, I'm looking forward to the time when I can start doing nothing. haha. I finished my planning paper today at around 12-ish, and I printed out part of my construction drawings set this morning. So, I'm staying over at a friend's place on campus so I can wake up really really early tomorrow morning and so I can avoid the rush and traffic of all the other people in my class rushing to get it printed. ^^"

I've decided, I'm not buying Koi no ABO. T_T" Well, Not that I don't love NEWS...but I really actually don't like the song. And the covers aren't all that impressive either. And so, unfortunately, this time around...I'm going to silently wait for their CD for download as sad I'll be because there's no SHARE in my hands. haha. On the other hand...XD I'm extremely excited for KAT-TUN's new album because of Jin's solo song 'Care' that's on it. It's my favorite solo of his and I'm sure many other people...but :D It makes me happy. ^^" And...for some strange reason V6's Light In Your Heart is running through my head over and over...and over...I'm not saying it's a bad song, it's just....not getting out of my head. haha. So, I'm gonna watch that Ultraman live action movie...that is, once I get the chance to.

OH~! 1 CAD = 80.409 YEN. ^^" It's high today. XD I think my dad has exchanged about 2000, and now I have 148000 or so? Something around there...it's a crappy system. Oh and did I mention that the weather is incredibly nice today! We've finally got 16 degrees celcius~! But apparently, it's raining tomorrow. But...Anywho...that's all for now, I probably won't update until at least Monday night...so, till then~!
Posted at 2:45PM

March 28, 2009
AH~! From tomorrow, 11 days till I go home~ :D 15 to Japan. XD All excitement aside, the last few days have been pretty hectic. I've pretty much been at studio or at a friend's house the entire time, just so I can finish my film, construction final project, and planning presentation and paper. Luckily, we're almost done with them. But, it's still a matter of time.

So, a little bit of a breakdown...(more like, what's the rest of my time in Guelph based on since I've got nothing else to say XD):
SUN (29): Church, working on film, construction project, prepare cue cards for presentation on Tues
MON (30): School around 11 to work on film, get crits, work on planning prep
TUES (31): Crits in the morning for construction project and presentation at night
WED (1): Film Fest + ACF final day = BUNCHES OF FUN! :D, hopefully, printing out my construction project XD
THURS (2): Finishing planning paper, and worse come to worst, print out my construction project if I haven't already
FRI (3): Hand in construction project and planning paper, study for zoology & sociology!
SAT (4): Prepare a 5-min presentation of some sort for Dundas Square T_T", packing some more, studying~!
SUN (5): packing, laundry, more studying~!
MON (6): Zoology Final and Presentation on Dundas Square
TUES (7): Studying for Sociology~, finish packing
WED (8): Sociology Final, rushing to catch the bus and go home to pack some more and wait for Red Car to come and pick me up to go to the airport.

Yes, it's that time of year again, when I pack about two or three weeks before I leave. T_T" Well, it's more of a habit, rather than a "I want to do it" sort of thing, I think. Most people I know, would wait last minute to pack, and I can't handle the stress of that, so I do a little bit at a time. Sadly, I've got 5 posters on my wall, all pretty much consisting of NEWS and KAT-TUN...but I don't have the heart to take them down yet, or my room would seriously look empty, and I wouldn't even be able to study then. XD

I ended up waking up at 9 this morning because my friend called me so we could meet up at 10:30 instead of 10, which was perfect for me. I got up and got ready, and so before 10, I stood at the bus stop. Yeah, well, I ended up standing at the bus stop for almost 40 minutes...so I was pretty mad. But, whatever...at least it wasn't raining. So, I got to school and worked with Anitha on the construction project for a bit, and then went home...and worked more on construction...well, before I knew it, it was already 6 and I'd only done two plant details. T_T" Like, seriously...working for 3-4 hours, and only two details is kinda sad...but I guess it's something done after all. Still have time tomorrow to finish the last two~

I'm falling in love with Gokusen 2 again. Once I get home, I'm gonna re-watch it again. ^^" I don't know, special features are seriously like mad crack. XD Apparently, I've joined a fan-subbing team, so, we'll see what I end up doing in the near future...I only joined, because I don't have a job yet for the summer, and thought, well, I'll have nothing to do anyways. And, even if I do have one, I said it'd spare 7-10 hours a week to work...so, yeah.
Posted at 11:06PM

March 26, 2009
As much as I love the new Kanjani8 stuff, in the end I know that everything will be up for download, and I'll be able to find it somewhere, as horrible as it sounds. T_T" So, I'll probably end up buying with the KAT-TUN album and the NEWS single after all~ Because, the KAT-TUN album is based upon their 7-days Tokyo Dome concert thing, and the NEWS single has footage from their previous concert. Which...somewhat makes me wonder..."Does that mean there's no concert DVD this year?!" I'll be sad if that's the case. But like...even if I say that now, knowing me I'll probably end up buying all three anyways. XD

Ants were seemingly gone for a few days, and in reality, they got into the cabinets, from what I found out yesterday morning when I went to the kitchen, and saw a green plastic bag tied around the bag of open sugar, and a few ants crawling around inside. Well...it just seems to get creepier and creepier!!! T_T" I think it's 'cause of the weather that's just getting better and better...but, who knows? But yeah, once we got rid of the sugar, it seems the ants have kinda just disappeared...so, I guess that's good, for now at least.

AH~! Can you believe we've made it this far already? March 26th! A little less than two weeks to go home~ hehe. People tell me I'm lucky I'm in Landscape Architecture, because I always seem to finish before everyone else, and apparently seem to have no finals. But in reality, all my finals as far as LA courses go get squished into the final two weeks along with the final projects, and then the left over electives I choose end up being in the exam weeks. There's still a mini-intro for my movie in front of my class on Wednesday, and then a 5% presentation of my Dundas Square design...I still have no idea what I'm going to say! But, I'm sure things will turn out alright, as long as I can talk properly this time.

I actually feel bad for my house mates...I feel like I never eat with them anymore, and whenever they ask me to eat with them, I've already eaten. I'm not purposely eating without them, nor am I purposely like avoiding them. But when no one comes home around 5-6-ish I just assume no one's coming home, and then eat by myself. Then again, today's Thursday, so two of them might've ended up going back home for the weekend...or are crazily studying in the library? I don't know...So, yeah, it's been like once or twice a week tops lately...gomen na...but, yeah...about two weeks till I'm technically homeless in Guelph. XD Hopefully I'll find something in the summer, ne? ^^" Did I mention, I'm still jobless for the summer? Well, hopefully, I'll find something by the time I get back from Japan.

Lately, I've been bored with my hair, and training my bangs to go to one side. Because of it, people seem to think I'm purposely trying to make myself look nice. XD In the long run, yes! haha But, well, I realized, no matter how strange my hair will be, it's fun to try. ^^" And summer brings out the random-ness in me. :D

In the mean time, even though I'm continuously thinking "YAY! Two weeks till Japan!!!!" I'm still working on my final projects. XD I emailed one of my profs a while back and asked him if he knew any places in Japan that could hire me for winter '09 internship because he does a lot of work in Japan. And apparently what I found out was he was the hospital for the previous two weeks because he had a heart attack! Well, the good news, is that I might possibly find a place to work...cuz I'm told it's quite hard to find something in Canada during these times...

And then, today I found pretty random...but my construction prof knows my name! :D At first I thought it was a fluke, and I heard him wrong. When I handed in my final today, he said something that sounded like "Thanks Kat". And, I kinda brushed it off, thinking he'd said something else. He said he'd go up to studio after everyone finished the exam and do crits and stuff like that. So, me and Jessie waited for him to come up, and when he got up the stairs I waved and he's like, he'll come over next. So...that's when I realized, he did know my name! Well, I'm guessing both of the profs are being nicer to me, because they rejected me for the URA summer positions. XD But...if I can get a job somewhere else, that'd be great. And, if my construction teacher starts to like me, that's fine...I have him the rest of my years in LA for the construction courses. XD

And so, the only thing to make me sad...is the fact that my Vans that I've been wearing since grade 9 have finally decided to die on me...well, I suppose shoes can't really die. But yeah...now I've got no real sneakers till I get back home. As long as people don't find it weird that I'm wearing flats like, all the time...it'll be fine. XD
Posted at 7:27PM

March 23, 2009
After watching this CM, I've been debating whether to buy the new Kanjani8 album or not. XD Honestly, I should stop looking at stuff like this...but one of the songs on the 1st edition is so...pretty~! But I have to blame it on the song being a collab with Ryo-chan, Ohkura, and Subaru. I'm honestly not a huge fan of Kanjani8 especially because of Subaru's enka voice...but the songs sound pretty good, and I'm impressed! Like, I have a good feeling about this CD! The amount of Kanjani I've been listening to lately is pretty small though, but I could totally get into it with this album.

But like honestly, what I've learned over the past week, Johnny obviously likes to see the fans going broke!! First it was just Kanjani8's album releasing on April 15th, and then NEWS's single on April 29th, and now a new KAT-TUN album on the same day!? T_T" Cuz, with this new situation, I'm definitely going to have to see what I want more, or like, go back the last day before I leave to make my decision or something. haha

Yesterday purely was a work day. Yet, I feel like I did nothing. T_T" I ended getting home about 1:30, and my landlord was back so that everyone could sign the new contracts. So, I made my lemon coke and quietly got out of the way back to my room. I sat down to do my AutoCAD and then realized, I somehow still had no idea what was doing~

So, I met up with a few friends this morning, and hopefully I'll get most of it done within the week, or weekend?...if I just have a pure working weekend...which is lucky, since I most likely won't have anything else to do but that anyways. We decided to split the project into three, even though we really aren't supposed to, but we assumed, it was AutoCAD, and we can change bits and pieces of it later so he won't be able to tell. I've got to finish my movie and storey boards tomorrow, this week's gonna be pretty tight I think. But I'm sure I'll manage.

I think I've been addicted to watching full episodes of Music Station and Hey!Hey!Hey! in HD. What do we realize? Johnny's like long hair because it hides their ear phones~ XD But seriously, watching full episodes are quite long, but you discover like so many other bands you've never actually heard of, and they aren't half bad...

Apparently, I got better a lot quicker than I usually do! :D What can I say...I'm not sure if it's the insane amount of NeoCitran I've been drinking, or the lemon coke that I've been making. But it's definitely a first, that with three days past, my cold's pretty much gone, and I'm happy. ^^" Well, of course there's tomorrow to not know if it's true or not. But, I'm pretty sure I'm a lot better. My dad thinks that it's because I want to go to Japan so badly. The first day I got insanely sick, he told me if I didn't get better, he wouldn't let me go to Japan. And maybe subconsciously, I was thinking that? I don't know, I'd totally forgotten he'd told me that up till today when he mentioned it again. Anywho, I'm happy none the less.

Did I mention how much I love Skip Beat! ? ^^" Surely the manga made a huge impact on me, but being made into an anime made me smile like crazy when I found out. And then I had no time at all to watch it. So, somehow, I ended up watching 9 episodes today! How come I suddenly seem to be doing nothing, when I have so much to do? T_T" Anywho, I feel like the end of the season's drawing closer, and they'll probably have another 25 episode season coming soon. More to catch up on. *sigh* Well, that'll have to come about when I'm done with all the finals, ne? OH! And supposedly, there's a taiwanese live-action that could be starting up. I just hope, if that's the case, they'll choose new actors, just because I'm not a big fan of Ariel Lin. T_T" I think I ranted a lot..so I should probably stop now...haha.
Posted at 9:30PM

March 20, 2009
I listened over Utada Hikaru's "This is the One" english album and can only say I'm ultimately disappointed with it, just like I was with "Exodus". Even BoA's english album, besides for her horrible english...her songs are a lot better. I can't quite understand how come the two can't just do songs like the kind they sing in their own countries, more pop-ish? I mean...maybe the reason I like BoA's more is because it's more her? Utada Hikaru's album made me feel like...it was someone else I guess.

I quite like Jin's hair long. I find it funny that in ways, he's starting to look like a girl, but other from that...in his case, I find it nice to see. XD It just fits his image maybe? On the other hand, if he had uber long hair and permed it, then I'd be sad...like him in Utaban was kinda cute...:D In general, I still think that Jin should have more appearances, or in general just talk more. But perhaps he's just less talkative in the first place?

Yesterday, I was in the midst of writing my paper, and I just kept procrastinating. XD I need to start studying for my finals!!! They're coming so soon! My friend told me, that apparently, I leave on a flight home the day he actually starts his exams, which for once, is actually someone in Guelph. Well, I'm leaving pretty early..especially since it's technically the 3rd day of exams where right after my 11:30-1:30 exam, I'm pretty much taking the bus home, and making sure everything's ready, and rushing to Hamilton airport. But it's necessary...just so I can have a few days at home before I go off to Japan~

Of course I'm glad with NewS's new release coming out while I'm in Japan, which means, since during their promo time, I'll be there..haha that shall be fun. Plus, I get to be there to make the purchase actually count to their rankings, which is something I'll be proud of for once. :D I just kind of wished the song to be...nicer. T_T" I listened through it in the CM, and I wasn't amazed with it at all...But I do believe, that they deserve so much more love than they're receiving. What's with them being like the only Johnny's not to get a "The Making Of..." >.<" Even Hey!Say!JUMP gets them!!

I should honestly stop being so excited about the trip though, since it's making me...not focus on the things I actually need to do...as if everything hasn't gotten better already, to top things off, it seems I've gotten sick. Yes, that was sarcasm! T_T" Well, I guess everything can't get better after all...So, in the midst of being kinda foggy and fever-ish, I'd decided to go to Zehr's today to pick up some coke so I could make some famous lemon coke with it to make me all better. Anywho, it seriously took me like 5 minutes to get in and out, and I ended up standing at the bus stop for 15 or so more minutes, getting like more and more feverish. I'm surprised, I didn't faint. But I knew it was bound to happen, especially when I walked out of my house and felt a bit wobbly...

Did I mention? Our house is infested with ants! >.<" It's actually really creepy if you think about it for too long. I'm just lucky my room's in the lower level, and the ants haven't reached that level yet. I know...that ants usually go down to up, but somehow, I suppose they came in through a window in the living room, or the door to the deck or something, and they're too dumb to go down the stairs. Luckily...my room was just covered in dust till I cleaned it a few hours ago. Yeah...I was like cleaning some of the dishes so I could use the pot to make lemon coke...T_T" There was a cup in the sink filled with water, and apparently, 3 ants are drowned in it also. And...ants were crawling the walls...I didn't even ants could go up walls till...today.. T_T" Ian and Jon think its fun to collect the ants and put them in containers, so now there's like two containers of ants sitting in the kitchen also with them. I REFUSE TO EAT WITH THOSE CONTAINERS THERE!!! Anywho, really really creepy!

I had planned to do so much studying today, but it ended up with me playing computer games for a good few hours, feelings like crap for a few hours, and studying for like...an hour. >.<" Well, I suppose it happens, luckily...I started studying pretty early, and there's still a bit of time. I should work on my construction project tonight...haha.
Posted at 6:56PM

March 18, 2009
Well, with all the things I've been feeling lately, I think I've finally gotten out of my writing block...but, still this is the best I can do. So, my first song in...5 months? I guess it's just something to cheer me up a bit. ^^"

Courage
When I don't know what to do
When I don't what to say
You're always there beside me
When I don't want to lose
When I'm feeling insecure
I keep searching for you

Sometimes when I hear your voice
My feelings overflow
The thoughts you're always in
They are what keep me going strong

All the tears that I've cried
All the memories we've shared
There's no way to forget
In the end, hand in hand
With my pounding, racing heart
I know that I've found you

The trip you've taken to see me
Has brought a smile to my face
It's been lonely without you here
But with you here, gives me all the power I need

Til the day I reach that dream
Til the day I understand
I need to believe in myself
Don't need to wonder what life's about
Cuz it's all figured out
All I need is you here

With the courage that I now have
With the love that I feel
It's all that we really need
With hope in our hands
With the future far ahead
I know everything will be alright
Posted at 1:39PM

March 17, 2009
I've officially registered for my fall courses, and surprisingly, it includes Intro Mandarin. :D I'd assumed the prof would ask a lot more questions with me wanting to take the course, but, all she asked was if anyone in my family spoke mandarin, or if we spoke it at home, and obviously, I said 'no'...cuz I don't. haha So, yes, for once, I am looking forward to the coming year~ I have a feeling third year will overall just be extremely fun. ^^"

After the planning final today, it's going to be me scrambling to start my Construction project...and studying for zoology and sociology. Hopefully, everything will work out, and I'm sure it will. I think, I've been the pessimistic person too long, and should go back to being optimistic, which kind of died a long time ago when I moved and with a big disaster on the move up.

So yes, in general, there's not that much fun stuff to talk about left. I'll probably post up my movie documentary when I'm done with it...and maybe my storey boards too. And even though my construction drawings are probably going to be what people are going to want to see in my portfolio, I have a feeling that'll end up being an embarrassment to put in. XD

Anywho, now, here's hoping I get a job for the summer where I can get something out of it, and stop worrying so much about everything. It's nearing the end of the year, and I'm surprised I've survived so far. Even my headaches have seemed to disappeared - at least for now. Two weeks till classes end, three weeks till finals completely end, three weeks till I get to go home, and three weeks and a few days till I go to Japan.
Posted at 1:39PM

March 14, 2009
Seriously, another massive headache...I've been thinking, maybe things are turning for the worst, and it might develop into something other than depression...

Anywho, my final project's complete~...and gomen for the extremely cheesy title:


My dad say I lack confidence...and it's extremely hard to when you're so stressed, and when you're double thinking what you're doing all the time, as well as whether being in the program your in is really what you should be doing. Why? Because I think about 10 people or less are switching out of my progam next year! Well, anyways, why am I saying this...because some older lady in my program, probably 30 or 40 or so...she has her own gardening business and is really good at like everything apparently, especially since she was in the Architecture program at Waterloo. And then, all the summer jobs I applied to in Guelph, she also did, and that's why I ended up with absolutely nothing!

...Yes, so I'm quite a bit stressed...and I've just finished my two papers for the week, now I just need to do the readings, and then start my construction final project....and then study for my final planning quiz on Tuesday! Already finals start ne...>.<"

I've been watching a lot of Arashi shows lately! I seriously bame the lack of NEWS anywhere lately! I mean, come on, what happened to Ryo and Yamapi's dramas...and Russ-K CM and new song? All we get, is Kei and Shige's docummentary-like Kizuna show...well, not that I'm complaining, but I just don't get it! It's MARCH!! And still, nothing of NEWS...
Posted at 10:28PM

March 11, 2009
Continuous headaches...shortness of breath...appetite changes...sleep changes...loss of energy...problem remembering things...so yes, apparently, I'm not in need of glasses, nor is there something wrong with my head. Mostly, it's depression. At one point, I'd thought I should cut down on listening to my mp3 player, and Japanese music, because I thought that was the cause of all my headaches. But I think now, it's just coincidence that it's been happening while I listen to music...because that's generally all the time. What can I say, just because people have a smile on their face...does not at all mean they're acting normal, or are normal...It's been pretty hard to breathe today......or maybe my feelings of uneasiness are extremely overwhelming me...

Yesterday night, I ended up staying up till around 2 finishing off my project. But I was so tired, I just kinda fell asleep, and forgot to finish part of it. So, when I woke up at 8 this morning to people leaving the house, I went back to sleep and woke back up around 11. Oh yes! Someone remind me to take those pictures. XD I'll do it tonight maybe~ I'm thinking I'll probably go to ACF tonight, and then come back home...wow, I thought I'd have more to say, but somehow I can't think of anything...

All of the Guesthouses and ryokans have finally been booked as of 12 this afternoon~ Thank God! I was about to think I was gonna have to live on the streets for 4 days. >.<" Apparently, it's quite hard to find places to live in Kyoto for two people in four consecutive days. But, since they're all in place now, it doesn't matter, and I can stop worrying a little bit.

ARGH~! Why does April have to come so soon!!! I hate this feeling of running out of time...like, right now too. haha, anywho, quickly finishing up this entry...I need to write two papers due on Sunday, so hopefully, I'll have time to update~!
Posted at 8:03PM

March 8, 2009
It's weird how one can be around friend's friends without being weird, while being with the actual friend, can be weird. That's what I've been thinking, since I came home from church today. I ended up getting a ride from Jon in the morning, and went to Calvary instead of the usual Crestwicke. It was defintely a lot more exciting than I'd thought it'd be. Most of it may be because majority of ACF goes there now...but the pastors are actually very good speakers! I was really surprised.

And so, I've overall just been pretty lazy all day. I'd admit to it being that I'd lost an hour of sleep due to Daylight Savings Time. But...I'm always a bit lazy, and tired after all, ne? ^^" So yeah, after church, I went to school and copied my large drawings, and then went to the library for a bit. I got back home around 3-ish, and then pretty much it's been me hermitting in my room since then. It's not that I don't want to see them aka my house mates. It's more of timing, and just not feling like talking to anybody.

Anywho, I'm skipping class tomorrow, which is going to be crits, so I can sleep in some more and just color...and hopefully catch up on a bit of DE stuff. I'm so behind on my online courses! Or at least I feel that way because I've still got two more papers due at the end of the week. ARGH~! Honestly, I can't wait til this week ends, so I'll have finished these papers, and this final project for design, and I can start on the CAD project like crazy..and also start studying for my online course finals. >.<" I need to do extremely well, and I'll be extremely glad at the end to. ^^"

Oh yeah! I haven't ranted abot RESCUE yet! :D Well, everyone's been doing it after all. I found the PV extremely unrealistic...just like One Drop. haha. But, tha making was a lot more interesting to me, compared to One Drop, even if Jin said like, nothing throughout. They all messed up wit their dancing, and what does it show? They're human after all~ I quite liked seeing that side of them actually. I'd blame Jin's few words to be the result of lack of sleep. Apparently, I've been obsessed with him quite a bit latey.
Posted at 8:03PM

March 5, 2009
I've been busy with my final project...and so I haven't had much time to update. SORRY! >.<" Well, at least, everything's nearing to an end I guess, I've got about 3 weeks left of school. But either way, I'm still rushing projects. It's obvious, that having a headache every day, and the starting of eye twitching, is really bad. So, what is it? If you look up those symptoms on the internet, you can some pretty scary stuff. Most likely, mine's either stress, not getting enough sleep, or me needing new glasses. haha. Probably just sleep~ Mmmm...what else, I'll take pictures of my project, once I get close to finish. They're due next Friday after all, so there's time, but not that much time...

I guess I'm not going to go to school tomorrow, and so I'll purposely sleep in and just get more work done. Today after class, I had an interview for another research job. The down-side...I suppose, is that I think I didn't get it.

The first time I heard "On Your Mind" I didn't like it. But that's also the same for "On My Mind". So, anyways, yes, I've officially been listening to KAT-TUN...way too much maybe? But both tunes are amazingly beautiful, and are not really what I expect from KAT-TUN, and maybe that's why I like them so much. ^^"

Apparently, I can add more ram onto my laptop, and hopefully, I can get that done sometime, once I get home...that is, when I do. I mean, I'm glad there's only like 3 weeks left of school, which means it's like...4 weeks till I go to Japan...but which also means, I've got 3 weeks to finish studying, and then my CAD project..and then two more papers? ARGH~! Anywho, that's all for now. Laterz~
Posted at 11:15PM

March 2, 2009
Ever gotten high off a sharpie? I haven't but my friend has. I just get drowsy looking at it more and more. A few nights ago, I spent about a good 3 or so hours making two maps with sharpies, one was to blacken all the buildings on the map (on a standard letter paper size), and then the exact opposite of it. So, anyways, I pretty much wasted almost two sharpies doing this short project worth like 4%...yes, I realized I could've just done one and then inverted it. >.<" I'm stupid. T_T"

I found out that yet again, I lost another possibility of a job, and now I've got one more to make me stay, and a about 90% chance I'm going home back to Edmonton for the summer. haha. I don't mind. But for sure, I'm NOT going back to Save-On-Foods to work...and get randomly harassed...and get paid so little for such heavy labor, and not have it have any relation to my future profession whatsoever. OH! I just realized, I could always bike to Ellerslie nursery...even though there is a lot of cars...haha, maybe not. :D My dad told me, if I do find a job at a nursery, he'd help me mold his schedule at work so he'd be able to drive me to work. hehe

In general, I still am depressed. I've still got loads to do! And...well, time's just not on my side. With all the stress going around, last Thursday, I ended up skipping half of my only class, and my aunt came up to see me, and brought me to Toronto to eat dim sum and to buy food...and bubble tea! Oh man, I haven't had it in so long~! That is, good bubble tea...though, even that was mediocre, but the taste was still good, for something I haven't had for half a year. So yeah, anyways, there's lots of random snacks she bought me again, which should last us the rest of the semester, I think.

Oh wow, I hadn't realized I hadn't updated in so long!!! Sorry! Anyways, the latest craze seems to be talking about Ryo-chan ne...I don't know what the big deal is...it's not like car crashes are uncommon or anything. A normal person might get into a car crash once every 5-10 years? I can understand that he's an idol, but he's still a person. People keep saying how glad they are that he's safe, that he's not suspended...well, he didn't do anything wrong...Even if you aren't paying attention on the road, it's still an accident. I don't quite understand how it's become such a severe accident, and such brought to be such a huge topic among the fans. Perhaps, car crashes in Japan are just considered so rare that when they do happen, they cause an uproar. I'm only saying that because when I saw one of the news updates about the car crash, I'd thought he'd gotten hurt or worse died. D: That is, compared to in North America, when you can see at least one every day...and half the time, nothing happens...like, no one gets charged. After all, he wasn't drunk, and it was during the day. Anywho, that's my littler rant about Ryo-chan, ne? I'm just happy he's safe, and unharmed.

Yeah...anyways, I've been extremely busy with my Dundas Square project so I honestly haven't been around lately. Sorry!! But, once I'm done, I promise I'll be back~ So, by the end of the next week I hope, I should be back and updating regularly again. ^^" Laterz~
Posted at 11:45PM

February 23, 2009
What I've realized, in the past few days, after a bit of reflecting, that my passion is music. It explains why I listen to it almost 24/7. And of course I don't find anything wrong with it, I'm just surprised it'd taken me this long to figure it out, especially since it was right in front of me for so long. Any who, with that being said, I recently listened to the B-sides to KAT-TUN's ONE DROP single. One word, "AMAZING!" They're both pretty songs, and Jin sings a lot of Jin-grish. ^^" I spent the better part of last night looking at the lyrics and translations of D-T-S and On My Mind...that is aside from Nakamaru's random vibratto or whatever you want to call it in On My Mind. ^^"

I realized, the phrase "My Pace" is really common. But, I also am like that, so it seems. I'm debating whether I should go visit Todai when I get to Tokyo...it's like, a once in a lifetime opportunity after all. But it's like, in the middle of no where kinda. haha. And did I mention...I think I'm getting sick again. :D Apparently Angela invited us (Aisha, Pojing, Vanessa, and me) to her boyfriend's restaurant at 12:30, the ones he has to do for his program, which happened to be free. Unfortunately, his is horrible timing~ It's on Thursday, and I'm planning to go to Toronto for the day with my aunt, Aisha told me she has class, Pojing wants to go to the AutoCad tutorial at 1, and Vanessa probably would be the only one who can go... So, I have a feeling, she's probably gonna end up having to sit by herself at her own table or something. I feel bad, yet not really either. There was a reason why I didn't make a reservation myself. *sigh* But, I have a feeling that she's gonna be pretty mad at us or something.

Apparently, Stephen came over tonight, and prett much, he made me feel guilty for not going to ACF and church lately. So...what have I been doing? Going to school, supposedly working, or sleeping. >.<" That's the only reason why I feel guilty. Yup, that's two messages tonight actually. Okay, just because I don't contact people for a few days, does not mean I'm freakin' dead. T_T" Is there seomthing wrong with just wanting to be with myself....with just wanting to do work and hermitting? Like, seriously, I don't mind people calling me a hermit, becauseI gess that is actually what I'm doing. But I like being by myself. And, it's a habit. Ever since I was little, I never really had any real friends, and I'd spent all my time at home with my family. That being the case, the days when I was in middle school, and I went over to friend's house, it would feel strange.

Perhaps it goes with the I'm really shy. And that's why I'm anti-social? Anyways, I'm mad because I just remembered I have a Zoology Quiz online that I need to finish, and my Mondays to Wednesdays suck...and I've got to finish the quiz by Wednesday night. >.<"
Posted at 10:20AM

February 21, 2009
Somehow, I feel like I spent so much time trying to find jobs here in Guelph, and researching the jobs and what not, but I've already been turned down by two, and I was asked to do a sample for one, and realized, I can't do it after all. So, what's the problem? I've only got three jobs left that I've applied for, one that the job advisor hasn't replied to me, and two whch I'm probably outnumbered for again. *Sigh* I was hoping...no one would be hear in Guelph for the summer, like people have been telling me. But it honestly seems like a total lie.

And so what seems like is going to happen, is my dad coming over at the beginning of April, maybe the 8th or 9th or so, and help me move all my stuff to my aunt's house in Brantford. Then, we'll fly back to Edmonton together, and on the 12th, I'll go with my mom to Japan till April 23rd, and I'll be on my own till May 4th. And from there, I guess I'll be finding some kind of random job working in Edmonton. I'm hoping to find a nursery job...but that's really all I can think of. Because no one wants to hire me, because I don't have any experience with plants whatsoever, besides for courses. *sigh* I'm 19, what do you expect? And so, once August rolls around, I'm going to need to head back to Guelph, and quickly find a place to live for the fall semester, have my dad come and help me find a place, and help me move in, and then when the semester's over, help me do that whole process again, since I'm not going to be in Guelph for winter semester.

Well, today's become...slightly depressing I suppose. But, I guess in many ways, I want to say that it's probably meant to be...My heart's stressed, and I don't know how much more I can take of not seeing my parents this semester. And at least when summer comes, I can make quiet time to make a professional portfolio so I can find a good internship abroad. Like my parents always say, when God shuts one door, another one opens. But in so many ways, this is the reason why I think I've taken the wrong path, and I might've should've gone to University of Calgary after all and take Engineering and do a Master's in Architecture there, even if it somewhat sucks. *sigh* I know I shouldn't double think myself, especially now of all times, but I feel like I just don't know what to do anymore.

I know it's normal for me, because I'm like this at least twice a semester. But..I just feel lost.

And honestly, more than half of the things on my to-do list ended up not being done. Maybe it's procrastination, but all the AutoCad I'd planned to do, I wasn't able to do because the TAs are crap, and the two papers...well, I found out one wasn't due til March 13th, and the other was due soon, but I didn't feel like sitting through watching a DVD for it. haha.

Besides for the fact that I have an uber crick in my neck, and I seriously can't look down, or it'll hurt a lot. I got out of bed this morning around 9:40 and flipped my mattress, assuming it was the mattress's fault...so hopefully, I'll sleep a little bit better. I'd never actually thought of it, but I'm thinking that talking to my parents all the time on the phone or on Skype, is half the reason why I always don't have time to hang out with other people. Sure enough, I know I'm antisocial, and I wouldn't really want to hang out with people unless I plan it myself.
Posted at 12:23PM

February 20, 2009
Can I just say, having it snow constantly is not a good thing for me? I don't know if it's stress, or maybe depression because of it, but headaches are coming non-stop. So, for maybe 3 weeks straight now, with maybe two days of none in between this week, I'd thought it was fine, because I'd stopped getting them only a few days ago. But yesterday, they stared up again, and of course I'm starting to worry. I'm eating right, and I'm drinking enough water. Technically, I shouldn't be stressed because I'm on vacation. So why? >.<" I'd like to think it's because I'm worrying about so many things, but if that's the case, then why didn't my headaches start sooner?

*sigh* Anyways, I'm thinking I'll go back to being the old me and start writing fics again. Why? In between all this time with having no time to do this, it's an expression of self which I can purposely let go of some tension. Or at least, tha would be nice way to put it. But, an idea popped in my head finally (cuz, I've technically been on writer's block since gr.12, which is why I kind of went off course and started writing Japanese lyrics). But, since I've got the idea, I might as well write while I've still got the idea clear in my head. I probably won't post it, but it's still a way to get it out. ^^"

It's pretty much the last day of reading week, and probably the last day of this semester that I'll get this empty house all to myself. It sounds like I like living alone...but I do! XD Maybe I should go find a single apartment instead, though know that's a lot more expensive. D:

As much as I love RESCUE, I woke up early just to watch Music Station, and really, was a teensy-bit disappointed. Why? Because Kame was doing that thing I hated again...standing out. :D I mean, seriously, what was wrong with his jacket he was wearing during the talk? Everyone else is wearing what they were wearing beforehand, and he's the only one who had to change out of his perfectly good long jacket into a bright blue jacket that stod out so much, especially with him also wearing sunglasses. People lately seemed so surprised that they "started to sing live again"...but, I don't know, I always thought on Music Station, you had to sing live, besides for that one mess-up with Yamapi and Daite Senorita where I'm sure they put his song to lip-lysnc in because he dropped the mic and mic stand. Anywho, having Jin talk a bit more made me happier, especially since he is after all my favorite in KAT-TUN. ^^" Lately, he's seemed so out of place, as if he doesn't want to be there, or maybe that's just me.
Posted at 2:54PM

February 19, 2009
I've never really had a senpai-kouhai relationship till I got to university. In high school, I was unlucky, and honestly, people just weren't all that nice. I was nice to my kouhai's though...But generally, in high school, that's because they made better conversation than my friends. XD Yesterday night, I ended up leaving the house around 5 and going to Golden Basil, and meeting up with Jun. It was funny, cuz he was waiting for me like, in the little space, before you go into the restaurant. Anyways, we got there at 5:30, and were probably the first ones to eat for the night.

So, we ended up sitting down, and then taking a bit of time to order. Yeah, I was indecisive. haha. So then, pretty much we sat there for a good two hours or so talking about school, Japan, dramas, ACF...a lot. hah. But it was fun. But, I felt bad, because I think the people tat waitered us seemed to think we were on a date or something I think, because they kept staring at us. Also, so when the bill came, I hadn't realized I'd forgotten to tell them to split it, and then he ended up paying for it. So, I said I'd pay him back and he wouldn't let me. T_T"

Anywho, after we got the bill, we ended up sitting there for another hour after we'd finished eating, and by then it was about 7:30. I saw my bus just pass, and then I said, I'd go into the mall for a bit till the next bus'd come. And so, we ended up in Chapters for like...10 minutes or so just looking at manga and Japanese books...mm...and then I told him I should go to the bus stop, and we went our separate ways...yeah, that's pretty much it. :D And so today...pretty much, went to school for a little bit, and then went to do a bit of shopping. I need lightbulbs!
Posted at 12:51PM

February 18, 2009
Ever feel like your parents are tring to buy over their guilt? Does that sentence even make sense? Last time, I mentioned how I wanted to get $60 headphones, and yes I still want them. But at the same time, if my parents are only letting me get them because they feel like they left me out of a three-day trip to Las Vegas, which they did...I'd just rather not get them that way...

But everything aside, I ended up waking up at around 7 and rushing to get everything ready. Ended up at school at 9:30, and getting on the Greyhound at around 10:10, and made my way for Toronto. To say that using $25 to get to Tronto, just for a few hours...well, of course it's expensive. But, to be unique, of course, this is the best way. So, pretty much I spent about less than half the day in downtown Toronto's Nathan Phillips Square, filming the plaza and the events in process. Afterwords, we interviewed a few people...and then we window-shopped in Eaton Center for a few hours, and discussed the project and what we wanted do with the footage we got. I mean, afterall, we only have to make a max 6 minute film.

I got a text from my parents this morning telling me to cal them, and so I did. But I didn't realize, Las Vegas was Vancouver time and not Edmonton time. Anyways, apparently those three lucky people are going on a tour of the Grand Canyon today. I wanna go. >.<" But no, I'm stuck here in Guelph...looking at snow flying all around. I was hoping...it wouldn't snow anymore. Anywho, I'm going to have dinner with Jun today so hopefully....that'll be more fun or something. I'm still debating whether to give him the chocolates I made or not though...Because I've got an extra batch made, and my house mates have the other. Cuz like, if I don't give them to him, then I'll probably end up eating them myself...and even if it's already 4 days past Valentine's...

*sigh* Well, thats what's really been happening so far. Apparently for me, Reading Week is boring. And...my bangs are realy getting into my eyes now. Luckily, I like them that way, but everyone else that looks at me is like...just thinking that I need to get them cut I guess. I'm just glad I don't need to practice piano anymore...no need to worry about hair length or nail length. But I blame piano totally for my biting nails habit. >.<"

Tell me, is it wrong to fall in love again with a person you said was totally wrong for you only a few months before? Like a crush that was crushed and revived? >.<" *Sigh* Well, I talked to him again today, and after I pretty much poured out my troubles with school and friendship, I started liking him again. What's wrong with me? It's always these older guys I go after. *sigh*, and it's a little annoying. But, I guess I'm getting older, and being in 5th year, and I'm in 2nd, technically a 3 year difference isn't that bad right? >.<" The sad part..hmm...he's graduating. And...apparently he thought I was half Japanese. haha, it'll probably go away again once I don't see him anymore. I think my problem is, I tend to like guys that try to help me, or want to figure out what's wrong with me, or generally just seem to care about how I'm doing.
Posted at 2:51PM

February 14, 2009
Sometimes I wonder what's wrong with my parents. First they tell you, you don't have enough money because they didn't apply for the government loan accidentally, so we have to watch out for how much we use now. But in the end, what they do is invite you to go to Las Vegas during your break, and then realize that there's no available flights left, even if it were possible.

So, generally, I was already unhappy with the fact that I'd be all alone during the majority of reading week. I'm spending the day on Tuesday in Toronto, but that's to do my film project, which crazily is for my design project. We're still basing it on like design elements and principles...stuff like that, so I suppose it's still relevant. Oh well, we'll see.

Generally, if no one wants to come see me, I guess I'll purposely be a hermit..I mean, it's not like that's not what I've not been doing lately anyways...Yup, anyways, I need to get a whole bunch of stuff done during reading week, and I suppose that'll be what I do. So, my To-do list:
-Film Project
-Site Analysis (written for Dundas Square project)
-Design ideas (for Dundas Square Project)
-Autocad Exercises
-start Zoology Report
-start Sociology Report

I'm sure it'll keep me busy...for at least the first half of the week..*sigh* I'll get my much needed break? I don't know. Time to catch up on dramas...and rewatch dramas I like maybe? The truth is, there are no guarantees in life. Some friends come in your life for a reason. Others only for a season. haha, it was a line from a Hannah Montana episode, but since everything with me and my friend...yeah, it's a pretty line. haha. And so, for some strange reason, I've been having a headache at least once a day since two weeks ago. Some are telling me it's because I'm skipping meals, and other are telling me it's because of stress. But, I don't know.

So, yes, yesterday's interview went pretty well, seeing that I took the 52 from my house all the way downtown, and ended up walking to the Landscape architecture firm, and walking into two stores so I could be sure of where I was going. The music store guy was trying to watch out for me when I walked in and asked him where the street was, and he searched on his computer to check it out, even if it was two blocks down.

Apparently, I'd written down the wrong address: 11 Suffolk St. East, and it ended up being 11B. Luckily, I was about 30 minutes early wandering the street back and forth, and saw a sketchy looking drafting table in one of the windows, and assumed it was the right place, and it was. XD

This is where I first saw them, with Jin wearing them here on CTKT. But, the actual reason I wanted to buy them, wasn't because of that...I'd been meaning to buy big headphones for a while now, ever since last Christmas when I looked at the Bose store in West Ed. And they're white...hehe. [1] [2] But they're like $60 on yesasia, and I'm probably going to buy them anyways...the next time I buy CDs maybe?...unless it takes forever until NEWS has a new CD coming out. Why's there nothing new from them this year yet? It's kinda saddening...especially in the three month span of KAT-TUN's 3 singles, NEWS has had no CDs. >.<" Though, knowing how I am, I might end up go buying them sometime half way through the week anyways...or the week after...XD

Oh yeah, and went to sleep at like 1:30 this morning, and I got crazily woken up by a ringing phone, and kept trying to sleep through it, but it wouldn't stop. And so, I finally got up, and went to get it to find it was my landlord telling me that the cleaning lady would be coming in today and I had to open the door for her. *sigh*...well, at least I'm going to school around 12...I need to anyways. I totally forgot I had to take pictures of a building at school, and make it into Google Sketch-Up for one of my job interview-ish things. Anywho, laterz~ OH! and Happy Valentine's Day! I totally forgot. :D I was making chocolates last night and everything...and I'll probably make a batch or two more tonight, unless my landlord's still here...
Posted at 11:00AM

February 11, 2009
Maybe, I'm the only one watching Akai Ito? At the beginning, I just found it amazingly good, especially since the theme song was quite appealing to me. Yes, it's always the songs. But what the hell?! Like, everyone in the drama either: 1) tries to kill themselves, 2) dies, 3) takes drugs because of depression. It gets so dark, and at first I didn't want to keep watching because I didn't like the main girl, haha, still don't. But the main guy I remember from Hana Kimi. ^^"

*Sigh* I honestly, haven't talked too much about my actual life lately. But actually I'm just under a lot of stress lately. Firstly, I've got a few job interviews for summer lined up. One's today right after my presentation. I'm not looking forward to my presentation at all though, and I can totally feel the nerves. Yesterday night after the planning class, I went home and worked crazily on my Construction project with the planimeter. Cuz, I had to literally re-do everything, because I'd measured everything the wrong way the first time.

EDIT: I've got to study for my Construction midterm quiz tonight also once I get the chance since I'll probably be home a bit late too. ><" But honestly, I've been feeling down ever since the end of my presentation actually. It was just total crap...I knew my stuff...but I just stuttered so much compared to what I'm usually like, and I just felt horrible afterwords. And to think I had an interview right after at 4:30 also which I think I bombed entirely. Why? Because when I got into the room, he pretty much told me about the job, and asked me what experience I had with rural farmers and dairy farmers, because those are the types of people I'd have to be dealing with. Obviously, none~! >.<" But, yeah, I'm sure I'm not getting this job, because I told him everything I know about watersheds and what they're trying to do is purely from the research that I've found. But I'm assuming, that's probably not what I should've said. The problem with me, I'm way to honest of a person, way too modest of a person, to lie about myself, and make myself look better.

Seriously, I just want a week off and do nothing. There's something wrong with me, and I just can't seem to figure out what's wrong. Surely, I could do that next week, but I need to work!!! I'll devote like Sunday off maybe XD I've been watching The Secret Life of the American Teenager. Anyone seen it? It's quite interesting, but so unrealistic.
Posted at 7:04PM

February 7, 2009
Honestly, I was watching the ONE DROP PV, and I didn't really like it. >.<" If you haven't seen it, it's Here. I thought that it made it so much more obvious that they were lip-synching, mainly Jin and Kame actually. But, I loved the group dancing, it's serious so much flail. XD The cars are cool...very cool. But even though it's not shot in the studio....it gave me the impressing that they did it really quickly, for a shooting. Jin being Jin is normal throughout his shootings, but the direction Kame seems to be going is definitely not one that I like seeing...like the fact that he's putting off this aura or something that he's extremely hotter and sexier than the rest of the group. Okay, so maybe he could be without trying...so why bother trying? The only thing the PV accomplished for me, is make me like the song a bit more than I did before. *shrugz* I don't know, I kinda liked their White X'mas PV better... Or maybe I just need to go watch the making of it, and hopefully I'll understand a point to it all...Even the live they had on Utaban was more interesting to me....though yes, Kame always stands out like a sore thumb....

I've been working on my planimeter/grading project the past few days. Literally, it's just been sitting taped to my desk for those two days since I've started. I'm stuck, and uber frustrated at it. So, I guess, hopefully, I'll figure out what I'm doing today, and get more of it done. At least, that's the plan.

What else....apparently, trying out new hair styles is what I do when I get bored with my own. I think I've been wearing a side pony tail for the better half of 2008. Time for a change ne? I'm not going back to a regular pony tail! I think I'd had that hair style ever since I was like in 5th or 6th grade...>.<" And so, when I come out with awkward hair styles, people are like...er...what's with the hair style? XD Perhaps that's normal? Just cuz, they don't see it everyday, ne? ^^" Anywho, that's all for now, I really should get back to work. >.<"
Posted at 1:33PM

February 4, 2009
I honestly can't remember the last time I've updated...like, with a blog post. On Sunday, I tried making my chocolates again but with chocolate chips, yeah, don't try it. XD Apparently, what comes out instead, if you add a bit of milk to melt it, is actually fudge. >.<" Unintentional, but that's what happened. haha. After church, I went to the mall to go find out if I could find something that I could use as a mold, and eventually stumbled upon Dollarama and bought a heart-shaped ice cube tray thing. Well, at least they come out I guess. The problem is that I used chocolate chips, where I probably should go and buy some actual chocolates at Metro? I'll probably make all my chocolates next weekend or something...^^"

Yes, apparently, almost every entry, I talk about how this new song impresses me. This time, it's Aoyama Thelma's "Kono Mama Zutto", which is the theme song for Q.E.D. Honestly, I don't really like her songs, but this one was just so pretty I couldn't help myself but to like it. ^^"

As per my Japan trip, it seems because the plane tickets were a special deal, there's only certain times left that I can go. So, I'm leaving April 12th from Edmonton with my mom, and then on the 23rd, I have to bring her to the airport. Then, I'm going to be on my own till the 4th ^^". After my dad finally booked the tickets yesterday, I crazily drew up the plans for what I'm going to do for all that time. Of course nothing's actually final till I actually get there, but it's still better to have some kind of plan...I think.

So, next step really, is finding housing and stuff like that. XD At least it's only February? >.<" It's really random, but I noticed something weird about my eyes, when I woke up this morning. How can you actually tell if you're single eye-lidded? When I open my eyes wide, I see two layers. But, if I'm looking normally, one eye you see only a single layer, and my other eye has a distinct two! CREEPY! >.<" But then again, maybe that's normal...
Posted at 10:23AM

January 31, 2009
I'm rewatching Kaizokuban again. XD I can't help it, like seriously, when you write an essay...don't you just feel like you should procrastinate? >.<" Anyways, what I've realized throughout this year, I go through phases of hating and loving Jin. ^^" There's Jin's baka-ness, and then his "amazing" english, and his unique voice. Then on the other side, I think that's also the reason why I don't like him. But seriously...doesn't it just seem like Jin doesn't fit after a while? It's like, you really want him to because you like him so much, but he just doesn't seem to. haha, and that being the case, he stands out so much. I realized I really like Jin's solo songs, and if they're KAT-TUN songs, I usually go listening in on only Jin's voice throughout songs, because like Yamapi's, it's unique~ Well, as far as life's going, every thing seems to have gone back to somewhat normal. Me and Angela are on okay terms again, even though there is a slight layer of awkwardness between us still, but for me, I suppose that's expected. My dad in general told me to cut ties with her. But it's not something I can't do, she was supposed to be one of my best friends after all...And saying that I don't have many in the first place.

Let's see, the rest of this year is going to be tough. I've got about 14 more autocad assignments to go through, and maybe 4 more papers, at least three more design projects, a few more construction projects, and then argh..whatever. haha. I'm just in process of writing three essays this week. One's due Wednesday, another on Friday, and another the next Wednesday after.

My friends are trying to convince me to go to winter retreat, but I just don't feel the willingness to go. Sure enough I should be thinking about making a connection with my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, but, I don't know, I just feel like that three days, costing me like $85, would be me having more time working on my projects that'll drive me crazy right when I come back from vacation. And, if it's $85 for three days, I could use that $85 for something better, like my trip to Japan in April. >.<" I guess this is where people start thinking about priority. And for me, connecting with other people is never a priority...over school work. >.<" I suppose, I'm anti-social like that. Cuz, my sister'd ask my parents for the money in an instant. But in that manner, I think she's not anti-social, she's more afraid of not having friends, so fights to keep them.

Oh, and in the midst of all this, I've been trying to get rid of a whole bunch of tags I've been using, because I've been carelessly putting tags for everything, and somehow I ended up 284 tags. I've cut it down to 70 something, but seriously, it's got to go even more down. And, I've got to watch out for how I'm tagging..or it'll be impossible for myself to find the posts I'm looking for, ne? >.<"
Posted at 7:41PM

January 28, 2009
After listening to the talk on internships for next year, I'm thinking I might go back to my theory of trying to find something in Japan. I mean, who wouldn't want to spend like 5 months in Japan just working? I know I'd love it. XD But, of course, there's always the factor of if I'd get accepted or not. I found a few sites, so hopefully, I'll find something. And luckily enough, it's Japan, so I might even be able to do a case study while over there on Japanese gardens or something, which would be nice easy credits. And, it'd be so much fun.

Why am I saying all this? Because after all my planning, and after all my happiness, it seems I'm probably not going this year after all. I feel like I did all that work to plan for nothing...and what for? So I can get some research work in during the summer. The good part is that I get paid, and that bad part, is I'm stuck in Guelph for so long. But at least, if I do end up going for internship, than my plans aren't all at a loss, I mean, there are weekends, and I could just stay for a bit longer, if I wanted to see more sites. ^^"

Like, half of me wanted to go in April so I could go buy a kimono or a yukata to wear for my 20th birthday. The other half of me just knew there wasn't enough time to plan it all. Am I really one to just stop half way through with everything?

Through all this, I'm convincing my dad that I should go. So, hopefully, I'm still going. XD Apparently, Air Canada's having some special deal right now, and it's like, $384 one way to Tokyo from Edmonton...so, why not? I've got a month to kill anyways. I'm a really big architecture fanatic, and Japanese buildings make me just...be in awe. I love their shrines, and the gardens...which is one thing I can't seem to understand about the western world...I mean, I guess Japanese culture is built into all those, but, there just so much more exciting than what we've got here in Canada. Canada's always trying to emphasize the whole naturalization process of how we have so many beautiful landscapes with rocks and water..and yes, grass. Japan likes Canada because the air is supposedly really clean or something. XD Well, of course compared to like China it's extremely clean...

The first time I heard Arashi's Believe, I said, "Pfft, it's the same as all their other songs." But it's actually a really addictive song! I don't know how many times I've listened to this song already. >.<" Oh yeah, it's snowing again...I think through all this snow that's on the ground, I ended up spraining something...because both my ankles at certain directions will hurt all the time now. >.<" I wasn't even running! XD Oh well, I'm sure it's nothing. But it still hurts. haha.

I recently (okay, so recently is technically a lie, since I got it a few weeks after my birthday back in November) got a Ameba account. For those who don't know what it is, it's a Japanese blogger. I think I got it because I was watching a Japanese show one day, and they were a sponsor maybe? I don't know. Anyways, I have one, but I've only updated twice. It's just a way for me to...use my Japanese, even if I suck. And, looking aback at what my high school Japanese sensei told me about my Japanese, was the fact that I always seemed to write so informally! XD
Posted at 9:04PM

January 27, 2009
I honestly can't get over how much I'm liking KAT-TUN's new single "RESCUE". The lyrics are catchy, I love Jin's voice for it's unique-ness, and it's overall seeming relevance to everything that's happening to me as of late.

Wow, I was randomly watching Keyhole, and there was a commercial for VAIO laptops. Yes, I love VAIO's. XD Anywho, there's a small laptop now that you can even fit in your pocket! And, it's a pretty bright pink~ I went to school today around 9:00, and then ended up realizing that I didn't actually have class, and that it was just crits so I decided to go home. But when I saw Angela, she was like, "I'm gonna go upstairs and see what everyone else is doing, and see what their's looks like. I know you don't like that, but I don't know why." Well, tell me, if you went to look at other people's drawings and see possibly how much better there's could be from yours, don't you continue to lose confidence in yourself? Lately, I've been doing that a lot, that is, losing confidence.

So yeah, I got kinda mad, and just kinda left her. Honestly, I can't get over the fact that all weekend..no, not even the weekend, the fact that every time we're supposed to meet, she makes me wait at least an hour because she supposedly "sleeps in". But in reality, I don't think that's the case. She probably went to go meet up with her boyfriend so he could walk her, and that alone takes an hour longer. *sigh* Also, Friday we were supposed to meet at 9, and she met me at 9:30. That's not that bad. Then, I met her again on Saturday at 10:00, and see ended up coming at 11. And Sunday, we were supposed to freakin' meet at 10:30, and she came at 12:00! >.<" HOW CAN I NOT BE MAD!?

It's like she doesn't care about my feelings, and she doesn't even say sorry. Her boyfriend is honesty a really great guy, and I can tell that he realized how mad I was at her, and so for certain days, he'd come back and with breakfast for both of us. In general, he's a really decent guy, and after talking with multiple people, people think that obviously, something's up with Angela, and I shouldn't hang with her that closely anymore. And so I know that if I tell her that I'm for sure not going to live with her next year, she's probably gonna cut ties with me. XD But, I think that's okay...I won't want to kill myself at least, for seeing her everyday. Of course I'm worried about housing for next year...like, seriously, what am I going to do? >.<" I'm just hoping beyond hoping, that I can get into housing on campus, or I'm screwed~ Yeah, I should really stop ranting, cuz I'm sure you guys stopped reading after the first paragraph. XD
Posted at 9:55PM

January 26, 2009
Honestly, from what I've seen of RESCUE, I was really happy to know that Massu and Nakamaru would be in a drama together. But..perhaps it's just me? But Nakamaru in a drama does somewhat annoy me. When he says his lines, he seems so nervous or something, like something's out of place. Like, you can tell it's his first drama. But, perhaps that's how his character is? Cuz, like Massu has to do a similar role and still his cute character shows through. OH! Maybe Nakamaru just doesn't know how to scream? XD I don't know...And that shower scene was...OMG, you could tell they weren't wearing anything other than those small white towel things.

To sum up today in a few words, I want to kill someone. I got to school around 11:45, and then listened to the director of my program to talk about internships for 3rd year. And pretty much, he cleared up the fact that the found internship has to be paid, and a landscape architect has to watch over you for at least 10 weeks, and you have to actually be doing something, and you can't just be like, getting them coffee. So, it sounds interesting. So, I think I'm going to go back to my original thoughts and try to find something in Japan, or like Scotland, or New Zealand...or Australia or something. Not only will it be fun, but at least I'll have a site to see, and I won't be stuck in Edmonton. Of course it's not that I don't want or stay or anything, and it's not that there's anything wrong with Edmonton...I just think I could learn so much more just being somewhere else.

And so, half-way through his talk about internships, Angela stands behind me listening. Or, maybe it wasn't half-way...well, anyways, we went straight to work right after, and by then it was maybe 12:20-30-ish? Anywho, at the beginning it started...like, seriously, I did all this random crap so that all we needed to do was do a few captions, and then put everything on the page and plot the papers through. But no, all the things I told her to do yesterday, she didn't end up doing because she "wasn't home", and that was her excuse for the day before also. If I look at our project on two papers, about 75% of the project is my work, and the other 25% is her work.

How am I not supposed to be mad? Especially when at 3:50 she's telling me she doesn't want to hand in the colored copies of our originals because of the tape on top of half the pictures. So, what I've probably had an angry feel on my face for about the last half hour to an hour before, and that's when seriously, I couldn't say anything anymore, cuz I know, I'd do something I'd regret. So, I told her I'd hand in everything, and she could do whatever else she wanted after wards. And by then, it was already 4:20. Yeah, so the project was due by 4:30, and anything after that's already considered late and deducted 10%. Which would I rather take a loss to?

Anyways, I ended up bringing the projects down to my prof, and talking to him about how Angela wanted to print color copies of our color copies because of the tape, and he told me he actually didn't care about those all too much, and he just wanted to make sure we had the project done and on time. So, how can I not be pissed off? Like seriously, it's a freakin' charette, not a project worth 40%, only 18%. Sure, 18% is a lot, but it means they're not expecting as much as far as perfection also.

So once I finally got out of there, I still hadn't eaten lunch yet, (Yeah, another reason why I was mad at her) I went to the UC and bought my lunch, and by then, the bus was about to come, so I waited for the bus at the bus loop, and it came maybe 5 minutes later. When I got home, it was 5-ish, and yeah, I still hadn't eaten my lunch. So, maybe around 5:30, 6-ish, is when I was finally done eating, because I actually made a call to my mom right when I got home so I could spill all my sorrows.

And so tonight, I've decided I'm for sure not going to live with her next year, and I'm just going to find a place on campus on my own. And if I can't find something...I'm sure there'll be some other way. I've already found another partner for my next group project, that is if there is one, and she's already promised she'd work with me. So, we'll see how that goes. Of course, the way I asked her, she realized something was really wrong. Who'd think that possible best friends, can become ex-best friends? All the time I suppose, but this is really only my second scenario. This is sad actually, that even Martin doesn't bother me anymore, but Angela does...with everything. Ever since the start of this year, I've only been seeing bad sides to her. And I haven't even really talked to her all year...I feel like something seemed to have happened. And then, there's my partner that I've promised just an hour or so ago, that I almost tell all my troubles to. Honestly, if I didn't have her, I think I could've killed someone or myself by now.

Too much stress from within a person, can seriously put oneself off. It's hard to be in a sociology class and read about suicide, and then have to talk about it in discussions, and then write a paper on it. Seriously, I just wish I had my punching bag here in Guelph...it's a lot easier than screaming in a pillow. The walls in my house are really thin.
Posted at 9:55PM

January 25, 2009
Tuesday night, like I said, I had night class, so I ended up getting a ride from my friend. She was hungry and wanted fries. XD So, we like went to Gryph's first, and these other two guys from or program, who she was friends with had to wait around for a house mate to drive him home or something. But yeah definitely was pretty exciting. I'm usually not much for conversations with guys I don't really know, that're drinking beer while talking, but it was pretty normal conversation...like, pretty much all we talked about was the future, and internships, and what we want to do with our lives. In general, I don't even think I've made it that deep with Angela, or Pojing, or even Aisha yet. But yeah, somehow even though our class ended at like 9:45, I still didn't get home til maybe 10:30. But it's okay, it was fun, and it seems rare these days where I can hang out with friends.

I found out that for my final project of site engineering last semester, I was probably the only one in the class that got back the project without any marks on it. Like, what the hell? People keep telling me about how they got a bad mark, and they had so much marking on the page. All I got was the grade, which was horrible, but I got no marking on it whatsoever. What's that supposed to tell me? I don't even know what I did wrong. And, obviously, if it's so close to failing, I'm worried for the class this semester. My second project, that's due on Friday, is based on my final project that I did for site eng. Great~

OH~! HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR! ^^" That is, those that celebrate it, ne? I'm told Korean New Year is also on the same day too. I'm probably one of those many unlucky Chinese girls that gets nothing for Chinese New Year. And every year, I always here how my friends get like tens and hundreds of dollars. I seriously, get nothing. But, I suppose, that's alright. My parents are after all paying my tuition. XD

Yup, so lately, I've been boggled down with finishing up two projects, one due tomorrow afternoon, and another at the end of the week on Friday. And so, my translation kinda went on hold, at least till I'm finished with the two, I think. And I've still yet to watch RESCUE! >.<" But I believe of the part of the song I heard, I actually like it a lot more than ONE DROP...not that I don't like that one though..
Posted at 8:09PM

January 20, 2009
I don't know, I just find it really cute, that my house mates know that I'm coughing randomly now, and are like watching out for me. Mike randomly knocked on my door after dinner and handing me this package of Chinese cold medicine, telling me about how he got sick, and how I shouldn't get sick, and see if it'd work for me even though it didn't actually work for him. XD Anywho, so he tells me he'd go make me some right now, and he told me to keep the rest of the medicine. Well, we'll see if it works or not in a few days I guess. XD

Sunday afternoon I believe...I didn't talk about, I'd gone to the Shopper's Drug Mart after church to buy cough drops. Yeah...its already only Monday...and from the bag of 30 cough drops, there's only 20 left. I have a feeling, they're not really helping. That's what I get for buying the Life brand. haha. And yeah, my dad lectured me to not be so cheap next time.

Arghhh~ I don't want to go to my night class. haha. It's at like 7, but it doesn't end till 10...why're night classes so long? Last semester, I had a night class too, but it ended quite early still. Can I just say, I'm in like...drama overload this season. There's Mei-chan no Shitsuji, Kami no Shizuku, Uta no Onii-san, RESCUE, Zeni Geba, Love Shuffle. Seeing how things are going, I'll probably end up like dropping a few come next week...that is so 1) I don't have to download so much, and 2) because I won't have time to watch it. It's seriously a waste of time to go to school just so you can download stuff and not go over bandwidth in your own house. >.<"

I can't remember if I mentioned "Memoir of a Teenage Amnesiac"...it's a novel by Gabrielle Zevin. And, it's the basis to "Nakushita Kioku", the movie Tego and Maki-chan are in. I've only got through listening to 1 Disc out of 6 I think, but it's pretty good so far. I'm quite surprised to say the least, that they'd decide to make this movie in Japan, in Japanese...I'm not sure how the actual movie'll turn out, but it sounds quite exciting. Plus, Tego's cute-ness in glasses shall be a plus. ^^" Yeah, I guess that's enough random ranting, ne? Ja~
Posted at 3:14PM

January 19, 2009
I hadn't realized I hadn't updated in so long, that is, if 5 days is actually considered a long time...But, for me I suppose it is. It's snowing here again....yes, a surprise it must be. XD Ever since I left in December all it's been doing is snowing. The past weekend's been pretty laid back...I even had time to rearrange subs to fit my QoP HQ version. And yeah, I'm surprised with myself that it didn't take long at all, maybe 1 minute or 2 each just fooling around with aegisub.

So, yeah, apparently, I was bad today, and ended up going to school at around 1:15, and then skipping because today was just desk crits. Also, since I'm still coughing like crazy, I'd imagine I kept my house mates up all night. >.<" Like, when I just got home about 30 minutes ago, I had a cough attack. And at night, because I had my cell next to me, I could tell what time it was when I woke up. I slept at 12 woke up at 2..cough...then 4...cough...and 6...cough...and then 8, and 9. Apparently, it's either the coughing that's making me get up, or I'm still having crappy sleep. At least I've got loads of water in my room now...haha

Last year, I believe, I'd call it my year of shoes. I started out with two pairs of sneakers and one pair of boots, and ended up with high kicks, two pairs of sneakers, two pairs of boots, and two flat ones..whatever those are called. Sure enough, if people paid attention, this'd be considered my JE year, because this is the year, I think, that I've bought the most JE stuff. XD And yes, through this one year, somehow Jin's grown on me more and more...through not only his singing but his baka-ness.

I've been ahead in my readings for one of my online courses. I still have yet to finish the other, but things are going well. I didn't expect to seemingly have so much free time, even though my schedule by itself is pretty empty. *shrugz* But apparently, people keep telling me that they haven't really been seeing me around at all still. XD I guess it's because I'm at home mostly...and randomly in the library to go download stuff. XD I'm so afraid of like...going over the bandwidth limits. >.<" Last weekend, I had so much extra tme, I even had time to study some kanji, which was actually quite refreshing. But apparently, I'm told I'm trying to hard, and if I have time, I shouldn't be reading ahead or studying, but taking a break. XD But, I still feel like I have time to do all the stuff I want to do on top of all that.

Apparently, a few people I know have a twitter. And so I did try to figure it out. But as much as I try to figure it out...it's not working. >.<" But yeah, that's all I can really say for now, I'm boring after all...
Posted at 4:33PM

January 14, 2009
I thought, hey, it's about time I wrote an actual worth-reading post. Then again, I probably wrote one of those a few days ago. XD

Anywho, let's see, it's been about a week since I've been back to school. I went to my first night class last night, and was happy enough that my friend was able to give me a ride home. Though weirdly enough, I ended up having trouble opening my house door, and knocked on the door, and Jon opened it for me~ ^^"

Today, I've just been extremely tired. I woke up around 9:30 ate breakfast and all that, did my readings for the week for Sociology, and did my online postings as well. Soon it as 11:57, and I took the bus to school to have a short lunch with Jun. Like, literally, we only talked for half an hour. I'm not sure what's up with that, but every time he asks me to go have lunch with him so we can hang for a bit, it's always like really short, or he says he has to go meet a prof. I mean, I know I'm busy too, but, at least I make the time if I plan it...Anywho, I went to class and listened to a lecture by an architect...and apparently, he can't speak in front of students. He stuttered the entire time.

Then, around maybe 3:15-3:30, I walk over to the Co-op bookstore and ask for the Zoology*1500 DVD that I need for the course. Last week I went to buy all my books, and like, they didn't have the DVD and told me to come back this week. So, when I came today and they told me they still didn't have it, I panicked a little. But I guess I wasn't really thinking. The girl at the counter ended up telling me that I could probably find it online to download, even though she probably shouldn't be endorsing that sort of thing, or whatever that's called. But yeah, after wards, since I had time to kill, I went to the library, and did find it really easily, downloaded the entire thing too~ ^^" I guess she saved me $30+, which is nice.

People've been trying to get me to go to winter retreat, but some how I just don't want to go. No real reason for it...not that I don't like the people or anything. I really like them a lot. But, I don't know, I'm not much for speaking out, and games at retreats are...and the things I could think that could happen...I don't know, I just think in general, it's something I don't want to do. If I can't go in my own church, why would I go with my fellowship? Surely, that's probably a bad way of thinking, but I can't seem to put it any other way.

Ever since I got back to Guelph last week, I'm seemingly getting less sleep and being more depressed, which is leading me to get easily sick from two of my house mates. *sigh* Did I mention...a second ago, I thought I lost my phone, but I found out I just didn't take it this morning so it was still on my bed under the covers. >.<" Way to give myself a heart attack. Anywho, back to my weird sleeping-ness. Like I said, I haven't been able to actually sleep, and somehow, I've been waking up in the middle of the night maybe once or twice. *sigh* So, on top of all the projects I'm getting (and, I've finished about 4 or 5 now in the first two weeks), I'm getting emotionally and physically tired. And, also, I've got to write a paper on suicide that's due on Sunday. haha. Well, all in due time I guess....there's always the factor of so much to do, so little time, but that's life after all...
Posted at 10:36PM

January 11, 2009
I just listened to Tenjochiki's Here. I think while watching the Code Blue SP, I saw the CM for their new album. I mean, seriously, when you hear that band name, don't you just think Tohoshinki? The first time I saw it, I thought I read it wrong and was going to download it because I thought it was DBSK. And well, it wasn't. But yeah, their song Here is quite catchy, and the only lyrics I can remember is Happy Birthday. >.<" But, it's nice I guess.

I've officially finished two projects in this new semester. They're both for my design class too. My AutoCAD project's due on Friday, and I'm maybe...60% done, that is I've technically done everything except for dimensioning. Hopefully, I did everything right. haha.

I found out, that I actually seem to get easily mad at lots of things. Like if I see people acting in ways I don't like, or talking about things I kinda think they shouldn't touch...or even walking one way and the bus stops, and then sits for a few minutes, and then i walk over and then the bus moves to where you were before just a minute before? Yeah, let's just say because of that I didn't end up actually going to church this morning.

I find myself eating either the same amount of food as before, or just a teensy bit less. I'm not gonna force food down just because I think I should eat more. T_T" Seriously, if only I had a running companion. But, it's still like -17 outside, so, that's highly doubtful.

Tomorrow, for my design class, we're meeting at the LA building, and then taking a school bus to Kitchener to look at this 4 Trinity Church urban restoration project. I don't know exactly how it'll turn into our project, but it'll be interesting to see at least. I still need to see the new episode of Shounen Club with Uchi!!! >.<" Well, soon, it's still downloading. haha.
Posted at 9:58PM

January 10, 2009
Honestly, no one expects to have random dreams about a friend they don't talk to anymore. That is, especially friends that at one point were your best friend, and you might've possibly liked, and then everything went down hill after something happens (that is, an organization of an event, not like confession). Anywho, yeah, so this guy, was in my dream last night, and it was mad weird. All I remember, is somehow visiting the somewhat high school setting, and then seeing him, and trying to run away. But no matter how fast I'd run, he catches up with me and brings me to one of the teacher's rooms, who's apparently the head of this next event that he's supposed to organize. So, everything's a blur besides for the whole him confessing, and a starfish turning into a black and red kingyo. And the teacher thinking our bickering meant we were together...yeah, now I know why I tend to want to not remember my dreams.

Since it's rare for me to actually remember the dreams that I have, I tend to think the ones that I do remember are trying to tell me something in life. But, this one's got me totally lost.
Posted at 5:09PM

January 7, 2009
Let's see, I'll start from yesterday..which will soon be considered two days ago, but whatever. Tuesday, I ended up waking up at around 8:30, finished packing and everything. Then, at around 9-9:15-ish, my drove to the Save-On first so I could say buy to my mom who had to get up early that day for work. Then, we got me some breakfast at McDonald's (yeah, there goes my New Year's resolution, right? eating unhealthily...but whatever, it was yummy actually). Got to the airport around 9:30-9:45 and checked in and everything.

Sure enough, my flight end up being delayed and boarding didn't end up starting till 11. That wasn't too bad, till I actually got onto the plane, and then ended up having to wait perhaps two hours or so, because apparently there was a crease in the wing or something from their flight over from Vancouver. But Man! That was a long wait...just sitting on a plane sucks. So, I finally arrived in Hamilton at around 6, and my luggage didn't come out till 6:45? It actually was an incredibly sucky day. I was planning to go to my night class that starts at 7. But by the time I got back to my house in Guelph, it was already like 7:45. >.<" So...I ended up eating dinner with my housemates, unpacking...and then trying to figure out who had old textbooks, and who didn't...etc.

I couldn't sleep last night, so I ended up tossing and turning for...at least what felt like a really long time. So, I feel like I haven't had sleep, but I'm still not tired. >.<" Why does it suck so much to be jet lag? XD

Just back for the first week, and I already have two assignments due. Luckily, I should be done with both of those fairly soon...if I'm just disciplined enough to stay on task, and not watch QoP. That's actually really hard...especially since I really want to finish watching it. >.<" But, whatever. We'll see.

Oh, and I went to buy my books today, which I'm glad to say, was only about $200. Then again, the only reason for that is because someone's lending me their Zoology text, but still, not having to pay for stuff is awesome. I need to remember to go to the bank tomorrow after my 9am class...mm..what else..mmm..it's snowing like crazy here. XD Whatever, maybe I'll sleep earlier tonight after all. 'night~
Posted at 11:30PM

January 5, 2009
I'm already leaving tomorrow...that is, to go back to Guelph. Everything seems to be going so fast. Yet at the same time, I should already be happy that I'm already missing a day and a half which is actually only two classes. I've got 5 classes built into my schedule, 3 of which actually on it, and 2 others that are online.

I actually fell asleep around 2:30 according to my laptop clock, but it was actually 12:30, now that I think of it. But that's what happens to me when I read something...and it's just so good you can't stop? XD Let's see where I left off from...

Friday morning, I had to go get do my blood test and all that, and yet I was so nervous about getting a needle, that I forgot to ask what blood type I am, just because, I wanted to know. Saturday, was filled with waking up at about 10:30, and my parents tell me people are coming over for bible study. >.<" So, I quickly got myself ready and dressed, and pretty much locked myself in my room till they left. XD

Saturday night, I bought a brand new $260~ wool coat. I've been wanting one for a while now, and we finally found one at Aritzia on that day. Sure enough, there wasn't a sale, but my dad told me it's an okay price, and it should last a while, so I shouldn't worry. So, I ended up buying it without much thought.

Sure enough, I'm getting really excited that I'm going to Japan in April...even if it's only for two weeks, and only to Kyoto and Tokyo. I wanted to go to Himeji and Osaka as well, but I'm still not sure how it is to actually get from one place to the other. So, the plan's pretty simple for now. But OMG! last year, I'd been wanting to go in April just so I could buy a yukata or a kimono or something to wear for my 20th birthday. And now, I can totally go buy one~! ^^" I'm too excited, and I really should worry more about going back to school. >.<"

OH! I finally finished reading my book, and watching through the 3 X-men movies. Then, I finished watching Gokusen 3, which I was actually finally able to watch through, because of realizing the main two guys were Miura Haruma and Takaki Yuya. So, yes, I've got one more book to go! ^^" I'm gonna have a little rant~ not that I'm not ranting now. XD OMG! Pretty much, if I didn't have time to finish watching the entire KAT-TUN QoP concert DVD, I thought, just scroll over to Jin's solo. His intro to Bokura no Machi de, was and probably will be my favorite part of the entire DVD. It just had so much power and feeling in that voice, that I've been watching that part over and over and over...>.<" Next time I post, I'll probably be back in Guelph, so yup, laterz~!
Posted at 9:35AM

January 1, 2009
HEY! ^^" Happy NewS Year~ haha, for as long as I'll be a NewS fan, that surely will never get old. XD But yeah, I was surprised, when last night all of a sudden, I got a text from one of my friend's in Guelph's boyfriend telling me Happy New Year, and of course, I wasn't at all expecting it! Why? Because he was the first one to like...technically tell me so close to the actual date.

I spent the better part of yesterday downloading and watching Johnny's Countdown 2008-2009 a few times...over and over. Okay, so it was only two times, technically. I did end up finding it extremely disappointing though, though there were tons of highlights, like Uchi just being there, and Ryo and Jin's super hyper-ness. Last year's was just...a bit more exciting, that's for sure. ^^" If I had the time to screen cap it and all, I'd talk more about it, but of course, that's always the problem right? Time?

I'm usually not one to make New Year's Resolutions, because I never kept them. But, I suppose, if you don't try, you wouldn't know if you can do it or not for sure, right?
~More exercise
~Putting more effort into school work
~Finish my plan for Japan trip before the end of February
~Finish two books I'm currently reading
~Stop eating so much
~Daily devotions
~less downloading, and more loving toward my lovely laptop

I still have yet to finish watching KAT-TUN's QoP Concert DVD, I'm only half way through. >.<" And I wanted to watch Gachibaka! and Gokusen 3....and I still need to finish Scrap Teacher and Innocent Love. I'm sure eventually, there'll be time for everything. I'm just not sure if that'll be in this lifetime or not. XD

The other day, I went to Save-On in the west end, and they had a nice humungous pile (okay, so it was organized, so, not really a pile, but we still had to rummage through it all) of books on sale. All these books were like $1-3. So, I ended up only actually buying two books, where as one is about drawing perspectives, and the other was an X-men book. Like, seriously, I'm in love with the idea with super powers. ^^" I should go re-watch all three X-men dvds again. XD And then, perhaps the day before, I went to West Ed and there's a Christian store, which I believe is now called the Fig Tree? Anywho, I was looking for X'mas cards, but I found this nice book called "Moon Over Tokyo". I've still yet to find out why I found it in a Christian store, but it's a nice romance, and we all know I'm a sucker for them. XD

So yes, hopefully, at least, I'll finish the X-men one before I go back to Guelph. ARGH! It's like...5 more days till I leave. OH YEAH! And remember a ways back when I said my mouse was being retarded? My dad decided we should go out yesterday, in the midst of crazy blowing snowing and bought me a nice wireless mouse at Staples. ^^" I'm quite pleased with it of course, but I'm worrying for the battery.

I feel like this year, not that we as a family are going to go broke, but there's just going to be so much traveling this year, that next year, it might be harder for us. I'm going back to Guelph the 6th. My parents and my sister are going to Las Vegas in February during reading week. And then my dad's coming to Guelph to help me move my stuff in April. Then mid-April, my mom and me are going to Japan. That's like so many flights! >.<" And, seriously, uldn't you feel somewhat guilty if you know we don't really have the money for it (perhaps, just enough) and your parents are letting you? I told my dad this, and he's like it'll be fine. So, I told him, worse come to worse, I don't have to go this year. I can always go next year before convocation or something, especially since convocation is so far away from the end of the school year. (Cuz, it's in June and I end in April) *sigh* I think, I've ranted enough. I'm sure you're all bored with me now. >.<"
Posted at 11:50AM